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It’s a Mistake - a Poem

Updated on October 23, 2012
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Make me not think it’s a mistake

For it will be insane to settle that far

When countless times I’ve cried

My heart bleeding, drowning inside.

I long for the days when we ride the winds

And we write each other sweet poetries

Our love ignites, never misses to flare

Now it's dying; you know I still care.

I ask not extravagantly, nor make demands

I live in simple ways in little things, not more

That a gift from the heart I truly find

Is the best loving act, one of a kind.

I ask not of you to be with me constantly

But I pass cloud 9 each time we are cuddly

My world goes round, I know yours too

Now, my best friend is bidding me adieu.

I’m always wrong when it does not please you

When all I care for is loving you

Then you’ll weep when you find it’s a mistake

The day I leave, your apologies I can’t relate.


≈♥≈ ©coffeegginmyrice (Marites Mabugat-Simbajon), It's a Mistake (a Poem), 10.20.2012


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      Rich 4 years ago from Kentucky

      Tess - Really a deep poem of the aches of love lost and the meaning of love itself. Loved it! Great Job!

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      Simba73 4 years ago from UK

      This is beautiful Tess :) heartbreaking but wonderful, you truly expressed how at least one soul in a break suffers, and as a write it flows like silk really well written

      love Simba xxx

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hi Rich! I thought I won't be receiving any comments yet because of the 24 hr pending status. But, thank you so much. Makes me smile!

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      Jim Higgins 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

      A beautiful love poem of longing and goodbye. I watched an old 1982 movie with Diane Keaton and Albert Finney last night, Shoot The Moon, about a couple with a history and four daughters trying to say goodbye since he was in love (he thought) elsewhere. The lines here reminded me of her character.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hi Jon! It's great to see you! "...it flows like silk..." I really love that.

      How true it is, eh, one soul suffers and only when the other realizes that a mistake was made, often times, it is too late for mending.

      Thank you my friend. I'm happy to see you here.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      "Longing and goodbye"...you marked that so perfectly, xstatic.

      The movie "Shoot the Moon", if I watch this, this will surely empty 1 full box of tissues! And I went through this similar experience just last year, xstatic; it will be too painful, but at the same time, I feel like watching it. Perhaps I will have a glimpse. I'll see if I could find it online.

      Thank you so much!

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      Ryan Meyers 4 years ago from Dunmore PA

      Love the poem!

      I think we underestimate the power of hormones. New love forces itself upon us and demands full attention but we must be conscious of love that has grown.

      The appreciation comes from thought we impose on ourselves. Unfortunately many of us are too caught up with outside forces to see what’s right in our faces; a loved one who is being neglected.

      That’s why communication between lovers is always the top priority even when children are involved. Obviously the children’s’ “needs” (food, shelter, diaper changes) are priority but I think a lot of people do not realize how their relationship is the core of the family.

      If you are united and the children know your relationship comes first they are naturally more secure. I believe they become insecure from being the center of the family universe. Even subconsciously it is too much pressure.

      Anyways, I wrote a poem a long time ago about love being a sand castle. In the beginning you work together to build this extraordinary castle effortlessly. It is a strong, beautiful fortress but every night the tide comes in and pulls some of your castle back to the ocean. If you don’t stop to rebuild your castle every day and every night, together, you are left with an unrecognizable mound of sand that can no longer be rebuilt.

      It’s sad because we get so lost sometimes in our fears and we usually fear not being good enough or deserving enough to have everything that makes us happy. Our understanding of happiness becomes skewed until life rips us bare, exposing our fears and forcing us to be strong enough to accept them. THAT… is when we are ready for “lifetime love”…

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      picklesandrufus 4 years ago from Virginia Beach, Va

      Makes me remember what it is like to have a broken heart. Sad, but touching hub.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Wow, Ryan, I really appreciate you leaving me a very thoughtful response to my poem. In fact, I read it over and over. I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for this effort you have written here; perhaps, it wasn't an effort at all for it is all coming from your heart. Sincerely, I embrace your every word and your kind thoughts...very useful and applicable to many lives that are still trying to make it right and wishing that things go right.

      My road got cut in half, but the cracks ran from both directions. The kids didn't fall apart, thank goodness because they are continuously showered with love and affection and has quadrupled. The important thing from making a "huge" mistake if a family is involved is to not include the innocent ones on the blames, but to keep them free from it. And the second time inside a new phase is much better and with hopes it will remain as it was in the beginning of moving forth to building a new road together. The neglect of a loved one...is the fear that still haunts me. I'd be honest and be open that doubts crawl up towards my direction and I am too scared to face it (like a zombie on a deserted road).

      I hope I won't find myself running alone on another broken road in the future. I want the relationship to stay strong, stronger every single day and be here forever.

      I would love to check on your poem about love being a sand castle. I so love the way you describe it here. So meaningful and my imagination flowing out right before my eyes from your description.

      One should not rush to finding the right mate to serve a lifetime.

      Thank you dear, Ryan!!! Greetings and may your wishes be desireful!

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Many broken hearts back in the younger days, picklesandrufus. That easy of a heart to get broken.

      Thank you for dropping by. Cheers!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Tess ~ I am so sorry you went through this last year dear one. That is why you can write such as you have experienced it. Ryan's comments above are right on, as without that really great ongoing communication, how does one even know how real the other's love is for the other?

      The first stanza and the last seem as though they are contradictory to each other (I know it is the beginning and the end), maybe it's just my interpretation. How would I know, as I have been married my whole life since the age of 19, hard to remember back that far. LOL

      Maybe he or she has indeed cried countless of times as indicated at the beginning, but if not conveyed directly to the other, then it would really be sad for the too late apologies, for just the mere lack of communication.

      I know I have a tendency to always think too deeply into poetry, so I will say beautifully sad for both really.

      Voted Way Up In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Martin Kloess 4 years ago from San Francisco

      Great poem! For some strange reason it took me way back when I dated a girl of the wrong race. Fortunately her parents found out before rumors started.

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      Ryan Meyers 4 years ago from Dunmore PA

      Thank you too! I wrote that poem for a best man speech when my friend was getting married. Unfortunately I have hundreds of poems that are lost at this point. I’ve been writing for over ten years and I started with poems but I lost most of my poems to a dead laptop. My mother is convinced that she backed it up before it crashed but that has yet to be found.

      I also wrote a ton of songs for that same friend because he is a great musician but lyrics are a little harder for him to create.

      I’m sure I will get at least the majority of them back since I have an outlet to showcase them now but I currently am writing screenplays/treatments for the most part.

      Besides all that, I think you will be fine since you are conscious of love’s behaviors and I would definitely communicate your feelings all the time.

      Sometimes our focus is somewhere else but it most certainly is driven by the thought of making a better future. It reminds me of when I was writing like crazy because I had a game show treatment optioned from Merv Griffin Ent. When it fell through I started writing like crazy to get another chance because I wanted to make money to be home more with my wife and children. The problem is every moment I could have had with them was being wasted on writing.

      Not that writing is a waste but it shouldn’t take time away from my wife and children. So when my wife told me it was over and that I haven’t spent time with her for years I was floored! Why didn’t she tell me earlier I thought?

      When we broke up I had time to reflect and I realized she was basically begging me to spend time but I was focused on taking her to the ends of Earth following a script/treatment deal. I am glad to say we are back together for many years now and we BOTH understand that the grass is perfect write under our feet.

      Life is messy! How you clean it up is what’s important. Just have faith that you have the ability to clean any mess that happens in your life and you will always be happy.

      Have a good night!

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      Randi Benlulu 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

      Beautiful. Beautiful, poignant and sad. I love the picture. This is a great poem. Very relatable! I am always sorry to hear about someone's pain. It isn't fun but it IS healthier to break away and raise children apart. You are a beautiful woman with a tremendous heart and sense of humour. I feel only good things coming your way. All the best, Tess (ha...a rhyme!)

      xoxo Randi

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      CrisSp 4 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      How painful it is to have loved and then lost, eh? But, such is life my friend and as I just said in my latest hub "Wounds of the past, Heal now I say", you have to get to the core of the pain, dig further, bear the pain and then finally shut the valve off.

      What "was", was no longer my friend...it's a mistake!

      Great piece!

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Who can know for sure if a happening is a mistake or a blessing? Only time will tell. Beautiful and thought provoking..

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      Deb Hirt 4 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Sometimes that is the best thing to do when things don't work out. They miss you when you are gone...

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Voted up and beautiful. Great poem Tess. It's all we can do when things go wrong just keep moving on.

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      Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      At least our pain can be released in word, in poetry and you have done it very beautifully.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Dear Faith Reaper, you are absolutely right as a lack of communication keeps a couple farther apart. But then, if approaching the partner to make one aware of how the other is feeling, there is always the denial of accepting a cause before even an apology is made. When they say, men think only from one side of their brain, (lol), that's no excuse for me. Clearly too, we women get easily irked to the least important things and are very sensitive. These shouldn't be ignored by our mates. I have shut down so many times, when I think silence will treat a man good. But yes, if not a word is said, the partner will learn to shut down too and then, the total silence...mutual communication decreases and affection diminishes. Amour is gone.

      Ryan made a wonderful contribution here as well.

      Thank you Faith Reaper! And God bless you and your husband many more loving years together. ~love, Tess

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hi Mhatter, rumour is one thing that breaks up a relationship. Often times, there is no malice to a great friendship between the opposite sex even either one is committed to another (like one is married). But when rumours escalate from gossipmongers without even a hint of proof, this will create chaos in the lives of the married couple since either the wife or husband would fall and believe on the rumours better than believing the partner.

      I advice my girls- "Don't rush. There is plenty of time, and the right love will come around by the time you are ready."

      Thank you for droppin' by, Mhatter! Have a pleasant one!

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      btrbell, that's a cute rhyme, :)

      One of the my kids confessed that she is getting more loving and attention, not just from her dad and me but with our relatives too and around her friends. And if they feel upset with one parent, they are not stuck in their bedrooms but have the other parent to go to and forget about their troubles. Different home, different environment, different activities.

      Thank you btrbell! Here's wishing to your life be full of joy and love around you.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      You made your point, Cris. Thank you. And how did I miss your hub? I have to check that soon. Stay well and be good :)

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Mistakes do happen and they come and go and back again. Blessings come when mistakes are corrected and avoided from having these repeated; and hopefully, this is it. Thank you, always exploring.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      aviannovice, I never dreamed this would happen to me, but it did after 19 years of marriage. A blissful companionship wasn't always there and it was more of being together to be around the kids when they grow. So, hurting each other was an easy task than loving the times spent together as a couple and as a family. And I guess, we have both picked up where we left off to having a new beginning, a new life but in different directions.

      I do want to be honest that I miss a few of his "special" ways and I have no doubts that he must the same for me.

      Thank you aviannovice! :)

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Thank you Gypsy Rose Lee. Interesting how this little poem turned out to be with all the comments that it is receiving.

      Yep, we can only move on and hope for the better. Leaving the past as lessons to our lives and changes to do improvements :)

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Jackie, hello! It is very much easy and convenient to write it down, eh? When it really has to come out, it is also therapeutic to put it on writing. Thank you for your visit. Have a good day!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Tess ~

      I am sorry to have gone on about something I do not even have a clue about. I should have just commented in a more appropriate manner, i.e., lovely poem full of truths and a hard reality of such matters of the heart.

      You are so right about men thinking from one side of the brain - and, no, that is no excuse for me either - lol!!! Silence does a man good, but then . . . someone has to say the first words, and marriage hasn't been a piece of cake either to say the least, so I do understand about all of those issues. Wouldn't want the love to fade away for too long of a silence that is for sure!!! As always, you are very wise.

      There are some days I just do not need to comment for whatever reasons going on in my head that particular day.

      Lovely background to your hub page. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Oh Faith Reaper, don't feel sorry. Every woman goes to travel different stages and trials in life, so as men. I love and embrace your thoughts and heartfelt comments for me. Your kind words always offer comfort and inspiration because it is coming from a sweet and admirable human being...that is You. I am one of the lucky hubbers to follow you and having you to be following me as well. You are a living angel, beautiful hubber, and got lots of good faith to have that special touch through words to lift anyone up.

      I'm thankful too that my friend CrisSp introduced HubPages to me. The crowd or community here are admirably wonderful and caring people. I'm proud to continue writing on HP because of people like you.

      Thank you too, Faith Reaper for your thoughts and admiring my wallpaper. We gotta show the world our smiles! Cheers! *the biggest smile ever*

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Tess ~

      I am so thankful for your precious and kind heart. I am smiling right now. Yes, we do need to let the world see our smiles and yours is beautiful. CrisSp also has such a beautiful heart too.

      In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Your picture tells...a "beautiful look" at the world! Lovely photo, beautiful eye(s), Faith Reaper!

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      Michelle Liew 4 years ago from Singapore

      It can really hurt when we are separated from the one we love because of a myriad of reasons, Tess. Reminds me of the time I was dating my husband too, before we got married. There was a lot of friction because his background is very different from mine. Thankfully, it worked out with much understanding, so I am really lucky, and your poem just made me realize just how much! Thanks for the write. I share on the Hubpages Community Page on FB. Feel free to share your poems and work there too!

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hello Michelle! Beauty carries pain too just like a flower when it's wrapped by thorns. Keep up with love and happiness floating in the air in your life and family. I'm happy for you. Thank you Michelle!

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