It was never a competition for me.
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Before this might have killed me, But I am stronger than I was before.
I shutter deep inside,
From what I have learned and know.
A past full of memories,
Most that were not so.
Sisters I thought we were,
I wish I was not related to you,
I wish I never learned your name,
From what I know you wish this too.
Smile when I am around,
Are you laughing from within?
Nothing you ever told me,
Was how it was or is.
I never thought I needed to ,
Watch my back with you,
Guess that goes to show me,
A thing or two in regards to you.
I always saw you different,
In a completely different light.
I wanted to grow up to be like you,
I thought you always knew what was right.
I was wrong.
You never cared.
You sold me out.
Created me a new nightmare.
Blood is thicker that water,
Your blood must run cold.
You are someone I wish I never knew,
I wish I never knew what I was told.
In a whole different light.
The truth has been revealed.
Now I know who you are,
And I know that you are no longer real.
You tried to take from me,
A life I created.
Just as I was picking myself up,
My hope was hurt and jaded.
Can I ask you something simple?
Simple truth is what I request from you.
How did you come up with your lie?
Was the lie you told the truth that’s hidden within you?
I will never see you the same,
I pray that you forget my name.
I pray that I never enter your thoughts,
And if I do, I hope you realize what you have selfishly cost.
You will never take from me,
What I have worked hard to achieve.
I have paid countless payments,
And I know how to bleed.
Forgiveness is not in the future,
Not for what you had decided to do.
You attempted to take from me,
Someone who doesn’t belong to you.
She is my daughter,
I am sorry you have only had sons.
But you can’t have her then or now,
Because she belongs in her mothers arms.
You are not my sister,
All the games we once played.
I should have been paying closer attention.
For the monster those games have made.
I do want to know one thing,
A question quite simple and plain.
Something I am sure you won’t answer,
But why did you cause hurt in this manipulating way?
Did you think that I would fold?
That I would fall back into the past?
Were you trying to break me?
Were you setting me up to fail your test?
You have always needed to be better.
Better than I ever could be.
Why can’t you understand,
It was never a competition for me?
I am filling up with anger,
This anger I have never known.
Before this might have killed me.
But I am stronger than I was before.