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It's Crystal Clear

Updated on March 22, 2017


It’s crystal clear

I need a break

It’s crystal clear

My life’s at stake


It’s crystal clear

I'm just a vase

In burning shadows

Of blue topaz


It’s crystal clear,

Precisely cut -

Sequacious drinking

Drive men apart



It’s crystal clear

This horrid dream

Will lead you down

Subconscious stream


It’s crystal clear

I make no sense

When hurling future

In Past pre-Tense



It’s crystal clear

I’ll break the ball

I’ll smash the pieces

And start a brawl


And nothing clear

Was here at all

The mirror image

To fool us all



I would hurl words into this darkness and wait for an echo, and if an echo sounded, no matter how faintly, I would send other words to tell, to march, to fight, to create a sense of hunger for life that gnaws in us all.

~Richard Wright, American Hunger, 1977


© 2012 kallini2010

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      ashleeosborn 4 years ago

      I loved the rhythm and the wording to this poem. Good work.

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, ashleeosborn, I appreciate it.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      WOW, my dear. That's a LOT of deep thought - crystal clear to perhaps murky. The graphics are gorgeous; the poem is just perfect. I hope some of the clarity is fictional, though.

      Hugs, love. - Nellieanna

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      Martie Coetser 4 years ago from South Africa

      Lovely video, fantastic quote of Richard Wright and your poem reveals such profound truth.

      You know, Svetlana, there was a time in my life I've pondered myself into the depths of depression, and then I've decided to STOP. Thinking-thinking-thinking - trying to find the reasons, purposes and sense of everything - how very important it may be - is truly comparable to a dog chasing his own tail.

      I've discovered peace and happiness since I've stopped pondering over the sense of living and dying.

      Nothing on this planet is perfect. Nothing is even crystal clear.

      Lots of love to you from me down here at the bottom of the world :}

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      Ghaelach 4 years ago

      Hi Kallini

      A beautiful poem Svetlana.

      The photo's are super and the video is fantastic.

      LOL Ghaelach

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Nellieanna, I am honoured. But what do you mean by "I hope some of the clarity is fictional?"

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Dear Martie, thank you for your comment. I am not quite sure what you meant by profound truth, though. I wrote it in strange wave of inspiration when I looked up one of my old hubs where I compared crystal and glass and it was about a relationship.

      I don't even know what I meant myself - it was a flow of associations. That is why I am asking you what you saw in it - hopefully not depression.

      One profound truth I found this morning - I thought - one day I want to be medication free, I am not quite sure whether it helps more than damages.

      Nothing is crystal clear except for crystal or topaz maybe. Well, let's just have some laughs together - it's crystal clear we both have a very good sense of humour and loving heart.

      Lots of love from the land of beautiful maples,

      P.S. Thank you for referring me to that hub about a prodigy child painter - I thought - what if we ALL were free to explore our passions so freely? I don't envy her talent (maybe I do slightly), but I so envy her FREEDOM!

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Ghaelach, I appreciate your comment.

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      Martie Coetser 4 years ago from South Africa

      Hi Kallini, to explain the profoundness (intellectual penetration and emotional depth) I saw, I will need time and space (in a hub). The truth is actually always profound.

      You know I firmly believe that medicine may relieve one symptom while it harms us in many other ways. Medicine is poison. But, of course, we just need it in order to function during certain disorders and illnesses. Personally I am trying my best to live without it - and I am saying this with 4 strong painkillers in my bloodstream. Sometimes we are simply in a checkmate position!!!

      I would enjoy a hub of yours about 'freedom'. Seriously :)

      In the meantime, take care! See you around :)

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      You got me here, Martie. I can't explain the truth just as I cannot explain what made me write this.

      As far as freedom goes, I tried once to write a hub on conformity, but it is too complex and it is in the framework of sociology that makes it unattractive to the general public.

      https://hubpages.com/education/Amendment-to-Webers...

      Maybe it is a good idea to revisit that topic, but, of course, it should not be as broad as just FREEDOM.

      Creative expression makes us free or at least feel free and maybe it is the reason that we write here? How many of us are here for money only?

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      Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      A beautifully worked hub with a haunting theme, depicted so well, but from you, who would expect less?

      Very sad and introspective, but lovely as well.

      Fondest regards.

      Ian

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Ian, this is very touching. Since I don't really don't know what sent me down this "subconscious disappearing stream of thought", I was just wondering, maybe it was the Famous Blue Felt Hat worn by "you know who" Blue Angel?

      Your writing style reminds me of openwork, ajour style, embroidery and drawing vignettes - literary ones. It has something from "Thousand and One Night" - again - a Turkish Delight - a wonderful tea party in the garden.

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      Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

      Wonderful descriptions. "A vase/In burning shadows/Of blue topaz." Wow!

      PS: Thanks for leaving wonderful comment on my hub.

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Vinaya Ghimire, for reading and for your comment. I think photographing shadows of blue topaz or in shadows of blue topaz would be exciting and challenging, wouldn't it?

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      empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

      svetlana, i have missed you and your intense, yet beautiful, passion

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Mike, it is a very touching comment. I really don't do much on HubPages or anywhere else anymore and I am glad to be remembered by those words "intense, yet beautiful, passion" that describe me so well.

      Thank you, Mike.

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      empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

      which cannot possibly be forgotten

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      Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      Svetlana, my dear friend.

      Thank you for your most eloquent and charming comment, concerning my writing. When you said you were reading 'A Thousand and One Nights' I immediately bought an ebook of the same for the Kindle so that I could share with you, but I must have chosen a pretty drab translation, because it was so tedious to read.

      And it was the Burton translation too.

      I imagined it was going to be all lush and sultry and poetic and all those things you flatteringly describe, but I just felt... "Get on with it!"

      Maybe I should try the 'Thousand and One Nights' for children. I loved reading those when I was a little boy.

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Mike, it made me feel better. I wish I could live with passion which is I believe my personality rather than this unbearable "zombie" life. But I get both.

      Before I was more hopeful "Tomorrow, soon, tomorrow, soon, tomorrow... I will feel better..." But now I am beginning to feel like it will never end, that all I have is this roller coaster of unproductive ups and downs. And if anybody would remember me in my more enticing times, it would be gratifying.

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      empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

      without sounding solicitous, i will ask you to read my hub, "postcards from the dark side of the sun."

      i can relate!

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Ian,

      ========

      He rejoiced thereat and, donning his clothes, went to the net, when he found in it a dead jackass which had torn the meshes. Now when he saw it, he exclaimed in his grief, "There is no Majesty and there is no Might save in Allah the Glorious, the Great!" Then quoth he, "This is a strange manner of daily bread," and he began reciting in extempore verse:

      ========

      When I started reading it, I had the same expectations based on the movies, the legends, the works..., but I have never read the original...

      and believe me I had the same feeling

      AND THAT IS WHAT ALL THE RAGE WAS ABOUT?

      Not only the "juicy" details, but mostly the details and no action, but later I realized that it is a way of painting on a canvas - the storytellers used words and they were weaving them through listeners' minds.

      It is all up to you to imagine the lush, rich pictures. The speed is not the modern speed of a thriller, it is more of a stalling on purpose to put everybody asleep.

      I did not like it at first, but at some point I started appreciating the style. There was one story that was completely unbearable... And the repetition is almost a character itself.

      When we say "A Thousand and One Nights", we usually mean almost something like a soap opera, never-ending human drama, the Human Comedy, the Human Tragedy, the Divine Comedy...

      spinning, spinning, spinning...

      When I compared your writing with this book, I meant that your writing is highly decorative, aiming at beauty, going at a slow pace, it's like needlework when the needle goes back and forth. Maybe not everybody would appreciate the style, but I think that it is a matter of acquired taste.

      Do I make any sense?

      Forgive me if my style is flawed more than usual, I can't tolerate the medication very well and I feel perfectly and utterly retarded. I have to change it.

      In the meanwhile I am writing in my head "my never-ending novel"... and I even thought "To hell with perfection - just write and publish it!"

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      Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      Svetlana, I know what sort of stuff you like (I think), and I have written something quite recently which is not story, and it is only loosely narrative, but it is full of images.

      It is very tongue in cheek and part of a longer somewhat iconoclastic story which includes one or two of the Twilight Lawns characters... Mrs Plantagenet-Featheringstonehaugh, Archbishop Setrag (You don't know him yet, do you), Raj and Raj's cousin Samir (Last seen in the potting shed high on wacky backy).

      I will send this little section to you, and I hope you like it.

      Ian

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      IsadorasThought 4 years ago

      Brilliant. You're a very gifted poet!

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, IsadorasThought, I appreciate your comment.

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      mckbirdbks 4 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      just write and publish it!!!

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Mike, thank you, but what do you mean? To write this "poetry" of a third grader?

      Lately I was very productive - for the past three days I was cleaning up Daniel's stuff - hoping to have enough energy to clean it all.

      Maybe you are right -

      write and publish

      "Full steam ahead and to hell with the torpedoes".

      I was writing in my head while I was cleaning and regretting the fact that I cannot write it down - one or the other - to clean or to write.

      But now, the first thought that came to mind was

      "The menacing mess"

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      mckbirdbks 4 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      I only meant that everyone here feels the same about their writing. We all write a little bit, think terrible thoughts about 'is it good enough'. Write and publish is my suggestion. Or do we just all worry straight to the grave.

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Yes, Mike, I agree, but I think for me stopping was good as well - seeing things in a new perspective. It's hard to get a new vision when you do more of the same.

      There must be a cycle of "write - stop - think - get new ideas - find inspiration in other topics... - change"...

      As far "Is it good enough?" - no, never! It always can be better.

      I hope you enjoy your writing.

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      Mr. Happy 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      That was confusing - Haha!! I clicked on the "Blue Angel" song and because the title was in English, my brain was waiting for English words ... I had to stop it after a minute and rewind it to figure out what was out of place, I was understanding nothing: the words were in French. Then, I had to switch the thinking to French but by then English words came-up ... Haha!!

      I like the rhythm of your poem. Much to think about.

      The photos were gorgeous - I love the contrast of Light and Darkness in them.

      Thanks for putting this art piece together. You have a great ability of combining words, pictures and sound!

      Cheers!

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Mr. Happy, for the visit and your high praise.

      The song I found after I wrote the poem and I liked it, especially this blend of "Blue Angel" words in English and the French text.

      "It's crystal clear that nothing is clear".

      The image... - the image I think was the starting point and then the phrase came from somewhere...

      I was just playing with words as usual, nothing more. I am glad you liked it.

      Cheers,

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      Ausseye 4 years ago

      Its crystal clear you are a light

      An awesome blend

      A bolt of light

      A crash of thunder

      You make a blunder

      And it results in startled wonder .

      What more can I say about a poem that tell a tall story ???

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Dear Ausseye:

      thank you for your comment. I am sorry I did not acknowledge it sooner - I was away from home for the first time in the last seven years, but when I came back - I thought I came back for the first time...

      things change...

      nothing is crystal clear and maybe it's a good thing!

      I hope to get back to writing one day - I have some ideas, but most of them are completely insane - my specialty.

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      Augustine A Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

      Your writing is complex, with meanings and interpretations interwoven in between the lines and pauses. I, as well as the others here, can attest to your brilliance and depth of understanding. Your a bottled up tempest, a storm bottled up that is unleashed when triggers are present.

      Writing is therapeutic. It is for me. Share your depth and complexity with us, write your hubs and share your work. We're waiting...

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Augustine. I agree that writing is therapeutic, but I reached a plateau last year and then it was some "brewing" period...

      speaking of periods...

      I am not sure you will want to read it, but that was my latest idea - to write about a p.....

      Of course, there was another one - about a closet. That was your suggestion. You see, I keep all ideas until the time is right.

      Thanks for your support.

      P.S. I forgot to mention - I don't know what made you say "no more dancing" - there are pictures from my trip from Montreal - it was a TANGO vacation. But dancing is no longer an escape. No is writing. I feel much better about things now. Do I have a plan? No. But I think the change is palpable.

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      TheDailyMessenger 4 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      Kallini,

      again, you don't sieze to amaze, keep up the good work. See ya later!!!!

      TDM

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      kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, TDM!

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      TheDailyMessenger 4 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      you're welcome kallini

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