It’s My Desire
In the decades of my life’s long journey;
I had learned something significant and that really works in my life and rules my heart and mind in the deepest sense;
It’s My Desire;
Desire! I had learned to honor and value you;
I remember those times when I just ignored you and considered you as just a passing whim;
And those were the times when I felt so miserable; Then there is nothing in life that can make me happy;
Desire, what are you?
Why won’t you just leave me alone?
In every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month and every year in my whole life through;
You keep knocking in my heart, in my mind and in my whole being constantly, consistently and persistently;
There is nothing in this life, in this whole world that is meaningful and right if I continue to ignore you;
How can I ignore the Master of my whole existence?
At times I fear you because you demand me to do things that I am not willing to perform;
Another time I reject you because I don’t know exactly what it is that you want me to do;
And what about my feeling that what you urge me to do is impossible and that is beyond my capability?
How many times do I feel miserable because Desire keeps poking my heart and mind to act now?
You work in my imagination;
You give forms and colors and movements in my visions;
True, these wonderful visions lift up my spirit and make my day bright and gay;
But you are just inside me;
The reality in my surrounding is different from what you are showing within me;
Another truth about you is you get out from merely a vision and you live in my real material world;
And I don’t notice you but somehow, within me you urge me to look here or there or right under my nose;
Then I see you and I have to embrace you when I realize and acknowledge that it is you!
Oh Desire, you are the joy of my life!
Come to my material world and let us live together in such manner while there is life in me.