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I've Come To the End of Myself

Updated on December 3, 2011

Messy Heart

I Despise You

I'm so Messed up

- I want your Truth!!

Crumbling walls

Down comes the roof

A Broken Heart

It's Shattered Peices

A recess of understanding

An endless Regress...

Tormenting Circle

You always find me

Far from behind me

- You're always inside me!

a dull pain

no moment of refrain

You're already coming for me again

Are we the sum of our Wounds?

Like Christ's , do they have a point in our lives?

I Don't Want This World Anymore

I've fixed my eyes on something more!!

Fallen nature Battles Inside Me

- I cry, "Like Christ, Crucify Me!!"

I'm So Angry With My Sin

Set Ablaze my Wickedness

- Baptise me from Within!!

I can't live with the Decay


Nevermore does it leave

my door!

Away from me, Be gone You Wild Devouring Beast!

I seek the Truth

- Go beg Retreat!

I long to be assured of Your Defeat.

But I walk by Faith

and not by sight

So even though my Heart Fails

me tonight,

and my mind turns against me,

I will rest in My Lord and trust

He is restoring me.

- He is restoring us.


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      Lone Ranger 

      6 years ago


      This poem is beautifully written.

      I appreciate you hating the sin in your life, I hate mine, too, but do you feel the joy that comes through the forgiveness of sins and through the promise of salvation?

      Best wishes and God's speed - L.R.

    • zzron profile image


      6 years ago from Houston, TX.

      Beautiful but sad yet inspiring.

    • gracefaith profile imageAUTHOR


      6 years ago from United Kingdom

      Thank you all for you comments :)

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      Brie Hoffman 

      6 years ago from Manhattan


    • Field-Of-Flowers profile image


      6 years ago from Midwest, USA

      Very beautifully written!

      'But I walk by Faith

      and not by sight

      So even though my Heart Fails

      me tonight,

      and my mind turns against me,

      I will rest in My Lord and trust

      He is restoring me.

      - He is restoring us.' Amen to that!!

      I voted this up, awesome and beautiful! Thanks for sharing it with us.

      Have a great day and God bless! :-)

    • Moms-Secret profile image


      6 years ago from Central Florida

      beautiful, thank you.


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