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Updated on April 9, 2011

Inspired by a note passed to me in class by Johnny Love

my scars are only hidden
because they are mine
they belong to me only

my heart however
is a struggle of late
playing tug of war
with one that i promised it to

my time for myself is precious to me
as i love myself so interminably
i wonder if maybe its more than one should

creases and in-betweens are most comfortable
for the ones that find solace in themselves
as i find it
when im tucked away

i feel nearer somehow.


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    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      same. same.

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      Secret lies 

      6 years ago from Redlands California

      Well, even now when I look back upon this, I realize just how much you are to me. Beautiful

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      okay mr johnny love of jaded must be extrememly tired. all of your messages to me tonight have had spelling errors and that is slightly uncommon of you. i find it very touching however that you came back to read this again. this piece was inspired by something you said to me in email. it started a stream of pieces that will hence forth be called "shaddowed" and yes, i spelled it exactly as i wanted to.

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      7 years ago

      i must say i find it so very lovel to hear you. inspired and brken just to feel awake.

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      7 years ago from USA or America

      Another short and to the point poem. Powerful is a word I would describe it, but unable to mark it that way, because "powerful" isn't an option. So I left it here in this comment. However, I did mark it awesome and beautiful. :) Thank you for sharing your inspiration. :)

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      Jolie Love 

      7 years ago

      I love it. almost feels like something for my eyes only. a feeling so beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

    • rebekahELLE profile image


      7 years ago from Tampa Bay

      beautiful. the poem, the pause, the song. gorgeous.

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      tom hellert 

      7 years ago from home

      Hmm... some people can write others sing- me- I just make random comments- sometimes i succeed others no so much- Umbrella girl you have interesting stuff - going on....


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      Nikki Wicked 

      7 years ago from Louisiana

      this was great, a great tribute, im sure theres a lot more behind this, i love how you speak of loving yourself, and hiding your scars, there is an extent to where u may love yourself too much, where you are selfish, and always put yourself before others, never lend a helping hand, theres no nobility, no honor in that. but how can anyone truly love us if we cant even love ourselves, and vice versa.

      my heart however

      is a struggle of late

      playing tug of war

      with one that i promised it to

      i love that line. reminds me of a friend of mine, who was with this girl for years, he had made her a promise, and they broke up recently and he basically feels that way i guess, at tug of war with himself, with his heart, and his promise.

      and im glad you posted this on hubpages rather than just emailing it to johnny love, because i really liked it.

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      Johnny Love 

      7 years ago

      Well it is wonderful to find people here that i feel understand me in a misunderstanding world. Darker shades of light letting go of the torturous pain inside.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      well on one hand i liked just mailing it to you, but on the other, i thought, no way is this inspiration going unrecognized by all, lol. I love hubpages! I keep meeting people worth conversing with! That sounded bad, but really its the truth.

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      Johnny Love 

      7 years ago

      I am honored by this. 'blushes'

      absolutely divine..

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      nice... :> ,

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      7 years ago

      way cool-just beautiful

      It's funny I am in the midst [always] of writing a song that begins by talking how our scars are really tattoos with better stories.

      thumbs up

      nice job



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