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Joanne Does Not Want to Stay

Updated on May 19, 2013

Joanne is trapped.

She is someone else or at least she used to be

Before she married him.

She wants to be who she used to be again,

Free and self-confident.

She wants to live without fear

and without pain.

She wants this abuse to come to an end.

She will make him stop treating her this way.

Joanne waits for the man who used to be the love of her life.

She has made dinner just the way he expects.

She will sit with him while he eats and.

When he is licking the spoon from his oreo pudding,

He will realize there is a different end to this meal.


"You don't love me like I deserve.

I am not your property. You don't own me.

Look what being married to you has made me.

You have made me second guess every decision in my life for the past ten years because I knew every decision I made would not be the right one according to you.

I have allowed you to make me a nonperson.

You make me feel as if I don't matter.

You say my thoughts are not valid.

My point of view is a joke.

My focus for our entire married life has been the impossible task of trying to please you.

I have tried to make you happy.

I have tried to be what you thought you needed me to be.

I am tired beyond tired of the shouting and the name calling.

I can't stand the fighting.

I am tired of the hospital visits and the lies to cover up why I am there so often.

I am sick of being scared when you put your fist through the wall

Or sling your ashtray across the room.

You are not going to treat me like this anymore.

This is over.

I cannot and I will not live like this anymore."


"911. What is your emergency?"

"I just shot my husband. He's dead."


Joanne hangs up the phone and

For the first time in ten years,

She is at peace.

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    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      5 years ago from Georgia

      Blossom, Thanks for reading and commenting. Sometimes, the victims of abuse feel powerless to leave or a responsibility to the abuser to stay. It is not always easy to get out. Leaving would be the ideal solution, though.

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      Bronwen Scott-Branagan 

      5 years ago from Victoria, Australia

      Yes, it is sad and it happens so often to varying degrees. I agree with Faith Reaper that the sooner someone opts out of an abusive relationship the better it is. Leave it too long and the victim is virtually locked in with nowhere to go. Bless you for writing this so powerfully.

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      5 years ago from Georgia

      Faith, Thanks for reading and commenting. Yes, unfortunately, reality can be disturbing. Thanks for voting up and sharing.

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      Faith Reaper 

      5 years ago from southern USA

      Oh wow, yes, sadly, an abusive relationship many times does end up in violence, if one does not break free. I think in such a relationship one should break free no matter what early on, if one if mentally stable enough to even understand that the relationship is not healthy.

      Disturbing poem here, but so is reality!

      Voted up +++ and sharing

      God bless, Faith Reaper

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      5 years ago from Georgia

      writinglover, Thanks for reading and for commenting and especially for the up vote. I am so glad that you were never physically abused. But, you are right. Verbal and emotional abuse hurt and change a person, too.

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      Jennifer 

      5 years ago from Lost...In Video Games

      This was a powerful piece you have written here. One of my first hubs was on childhood neglect and my experience. I was fortunate enough not to be physically abused, but as James-wolve has stated, psychologyical/emotional abuse (fear, guilt, etc.) are dangerous weapons to keep a victim where they want them. Anyway, I voted it up! Well done and well-written!

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      5 years ago from Georgia

      James, Thanks for reading and commenting. I appreciate the vote up. You are absolutely right about how the abusers keep their victims with them. There are too many abuse victims in today's world.

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      Tijani Achamlal 

      5 years ago from Morocco

      Oh ,what a horrible sad story! Joanne suffered a lot and she found a way to get out of this nightmare.It is not the perfect solution but it is understanding.Abusers use fear, guilt, shame, and intimidation to wear the victims down and keep them under their thumbs.Abusers may also threaten , hurt , or hurt those around you.In general,women are more abused than men.

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