Just Thinking About My Life
My life and what it means to me.
I wake each morning and wonder where the years have gone.
They seemed to have passed by so quickly.
In the blink of an eye,
I went from being young sassy and silly to middle aged,
with gray streaks in my hair,
and a few wrinkles that were well earned. I am still active and busy, and work hard everyday just to get by and pay my bills.
My children are grown now.
My dear husband passed on. I did'nt think he would leave me so soon, but 10 years have gone by now.
I have grandchildren now.
Ya know they are the brightest light in my life now.
I am their Nanny, and I'm trying to show them the ways in life,
to see and believe in their dreams for the future.
I long for the days when they were so little, and I could cuddle with them,
and tell them stories about everything under the sun.
Perhaps the days of hot chocolate and popcorn are gone..
I woke up this morning and wondered where all my dreams for the future had gone.
I try not to have regrets about the past.
The "what if's", and if only's.
But never the less they creep into the mirror of my heart, and I wonder what could have been.
I ponder this now.
My children are grown.
My grandchildren are growing up to fast, and soon they will have outgrown their Nanny.
I wonder where my future is headed next.
I wonder if they will remember me when at last I am gone and laid to rest.
I will always be there watching over them, keeping them safe,wishing I could share in their lives.