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Knock Knock, Is Anyone Home?

Updated on August 5, 2012
Lily in my Pond
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Waste No Time

The silence is overwhelming, as the sunset seems to slip away, getting ready and preparing for a new day.

I sometimes wonder how many hours in our life, are wasted away!

There are times in life, that we do things, and we are totally unaware. how many minutes and hours are spent, foolishly, and we really do not care.

There are many of us who have never even given it a thought, that their life has been lived without a tittle or jot.

Dreams come and go, like thoughts drifting through our minds, like the leaves blowing in the wind, they have journeyed to another place and time.

Do we look in the mirror with regret, with tear filled eyes and cheeks of wet?

Will we awake one morning speaking words no one can understand, is that our future, people wondering what has happened, and who I am.

Where do we go, are we still in the body, did we take a leave of absence, and go somewhere else to party?

I have so many questions, can anybody answer, my mind is spinning round and round like a ballroom dancer.

Two steps forward and one step back, we stagger around the house wondering where we are at.

For a moment we are lost, but then a thought kicks in, we begin to make a little sense, and then we are lost again.

Knock Knock, who's there, does it scare you a little bit?

When you feel like standing up, is someone there telling you to sit.

Are we no longer in charge of whats going on in our life, our mind has taken a leave of absense and I don't know if I'm married, or someones wife!

What happens to our thoughts, did they get all jumbled up inside our head, now when someone asks me if the color is blue, why do I say it is red?

Why do I wake up in the middle of the night, not knowing who I am, not knowing where I've been, and how to fix it if I can, is there someone who can tell me what I need to do, to get my head out of the sand?

Is this that disease that starts with an A, I cannot even remember it or how to spell it or how to say!

Dear God, wake me up from this terrible dream, so I can remember where I have been and who I have seen, everyone in my life now is a stranger to me!

Who are these people, who claim they are my friend, I don't know them from Adam, yet they say they know me from who knows when!

They keep talking to me about someone else's world, did I really forget that I used to be a little girl.

I look in the mirror, but I don't know who I see, then someone comes along and tells me, that is just me.

I took a walk the other day and they asked me if I was lost, of course not, I said, I am just a little confused at the moment, may I speak to your boss?

I said, who are you, and he said, I am the boss, I said, okay, they thought you were lost!

I must be dreaming, someone needs to wake me up, I can't live like this much longer, people will think I am nuts!

They say it's in the brain, well, I'd like to know how it got there, was it the person I sat next to on the plane, I hope someone finds a cure for it, before I forget my name


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    • viveresperando profile image

      viveresperando 

      5 years ago from A Place Where Nothing Is Real

      The fear of not remembering something and yet knowing quite well that you should be able to remember is quite daunting, debilitating and downright cruel. Loved the way you expressed this.

    • Bonitaanna profile imageAUTHOR

      Bonitaanna 

      6 years ago from Oil City, PA

      Thank you MahtabBangali, I never would have imagined that my Hub would have traveled so far as to be read by someone in Bangladesh! Wow. Thank you for answering! Can you express yourself in another way, I am not quite sure what you are saying. Should I have been more emotional? It came out the way it was given to me. Many things I write are done by the spirit! I just write them as it comes to me. Thanks again, Bonitaanna

    • Bonitaanna profile imageAUTHOR

      Bonitaanna 

      6 years ago from Oil City, PA

      Thank you "tobusiness". You are very right. It is no fun, and yet people need to make every moment in their life count for something. Be loving, kind, supportive, caring, helping, sharing, giving, and numerous other ways of life. Then we will not regret to look back and ask, did I do my best or could I have done better.

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 

      6 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      Alzheimer's disease is no fun, but you've done a wonderful job here with much insight.

      Voting up

    • MahtabBangali profile image

      Mahtab Bangalee 

      6 years ago from Chittagong, Bangladesh.

      Narrative in hardly dramatic mood.... Nice

    • Bonitaanna profile imageAUTHOR

      Bonitaanna 

      6 years ago from Oil City, PA

      Thank you Perspycacious, I am so glad to hear from you. It is nice to know others appreciate what you have written. I have not written anything lately as I have been so busy here, and raising 16 new baby chickens. They are keeping me real busy at the moment. Maybe I will write a Hub about them! thanks again.

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      Demas W Jasper 

      6 years ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

      Great imagining. and so close to the mark.

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