Life Is It Worth It? I Wish People Would Leave Me Alone!
Life is a struggle it seems that I will never get ahead. The harder I try the further back I go. You are asking "Do you have bad habits that are complicating your life?" The answer is no, no drugs or drinking. Just the way things work out I can never get ahead.
I do not have a home. I do not have a real job though I do find enough work to make sure I eat. I sleep in someone else's home and are living at their whim. I have some clothes. i own a guitar but I do not play well enough to get paid.
I do not have a car I have liens on my license to such a degree I will never be able to cover the debt. So driving a car is one responsibility I do not have to worry about.
I do not have health insurance, I live with constant pain in my teeth and gums. this stresses me out constantly. Due to the pain I have a short fuse and become easily annoyed.
I know it just seems that I am looking to rant and get pity. I do not wish that at all. I accept my situation and deal with it day to day. I enjoy the life I have and make the most out of every day I am given. I do wonder sometimes is it worth it?
Do I believe in a god? I dunno does god believe in me? What about you does god make you feel better as you sweat to earn enough money for a cheeseburger?
I see life all around me which is amazing and exciting yet inside I feel dark and pathetic. Is it just me?
I watch TV and see a constant display of products I have no need of nor a desire for yet the images bombard my psyche. I surf the Internet to a cacophony of advertising entities. Trying to sell every imaginable item that any person could possibly want to own.
I try to be a good person. I actually try to be a positive influence with every person I meet. I treat everyone with respect. Yet still it seems that people will walk all over a person they think is kind. The error is mistaking kindness for weakness. I am not weak by any means. I am more than able to defend myself physically and verbally. I hate the drama of conflict and just wish people would leave me alone.
I have been totally disenfranchised with society as a whole. I find people selfish and cruel. Not to your face when you are speaking to the mask they wear but behind your back and in their soul.
Nothing goes as planned. Try as hard as you like something will disrupt your plans. Obstacles appear as if out of nowhere. Although attempting to retain a positive attitude strengthens your resolve to overcome these obstacles, it still seems to be a battle that cannot be won.
Goals although a positive way to keep track of your progress also creates depression when the goals are not achieved. The only way to live peacefully is to make the most of each day!
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