Looking For My Father
I had an emptiness in my life, a void, a void no one could fill.
It wasn't something you could make go away,
and it couldn't be cured with a pill .
I grew up without my father, got married, and had a son named Cole.
He also has grown up searching for something.
Something that was missing from my soul.
I moved on with my life with only a father I knew at a glance.
I tried to understand why others had fathers, and I hadn't had the chance.
As time went on after visit to visit, I got to know my Dad.
As he started failing, I could feel his love beaming.
And, that made me feel good, but it also made me feel sad.
I had another son, and his name is Johnny.
He is very lucky; he knows and worships his Dad.
He is very fortunate for I know he will never be sad.
I sometimes sit and watch his father hug and squeeze him so very tight.
It's something, I wish I could have had when I see him get tucked in at night.
I've had visits with my Dad while he was ill, and I could see in his eyes the remorse.
I just wanted to hug and kiss him, and tell him to keep fighting for his life with a force.
It doesn't make me sad anymore. I have my hubby, my Cole, my Johnny, and I found my father.
I feel like a lucky wife, a lucky mother, and a very fortunate daughter.
So my prayer for my father is for God to let him walk in the beauty, and let his eyes behold the red and purple sunset.
I thank God, at last, I got to know him, and I can not say anymore, I'm looking for my father.
I can say my father and I have met.
I've watched my father with this dreaded illness, which tore him apart.
I've also watched a very brave man take a stand.
I, also, know from the bottom of my heart, I need not look for my father anymore, for his is in the Palm of God's Hand.
I love you, Dad.
I know my father's journey here is done, but to him the journey has just begun.
May he rest in peace
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