Losing My Inspiration To Write
Lately with my health slowly declining the way that it has been going I have not really felt inspired to write. I often wonder what if I am working on a book and my health finally deteriorates completely, who will finish the book? Who will make sure that my words are seen and read?
Since the spring of last year my health has deteriorated more and more. I have trouble breathing. I can barely supply my own oxygen to my lungs. More over my lungs always feel like they are on fire and about to collapse in my throat. I do not understand why I have been given these problems to face.
Here lately as I approach the second anniversary of my super amazing husband I often feel as if he as received the raw end of this deal. With my health disappearing more and more each day it has made things so very difficult for me and I often wonder why he bothers to stay by my side like he does.
My breathing is problematic, I can not walk without pains shooting all through my back, hips, and legs. It makes things super hard to deal with a lot of the time. However, my faith is a strong one thankfully. If it wasn't for my amazing husband and our amazing church family I am not sure if I could make it through each day.
Having these health problems along with everything else makes me feel as if my husband is being left with a terrible burden to carry, but he continues to love me unconditionally no matter what and that is what really surprises me.
Because even with me being so sick sometimes that I can not even stand up and cook he still loves me. He still thinks I am beautiful even when I feel like death warmed over.
I have an amazing husband who no matter what continuously shows me his support.
© 2017 Vic Watts