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Lost in an Abyss of Apathy and Indifference

Updated on May 10, 2017
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Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.

Dark Clouds


Lost in an abyss of apathy and indifference,

I did not see the dark signs of change,

Mirrored across the heavens.

Lost in self-pity and in blaming those

Who governed on my behalf.

I forgot my own strength, and like Hanuman,

Had to be reminded of my empowerment.

I forgot that those in power…

Went to similar schools,

Grew up in the same country,

Worked in adjacent neighbourhoods.

Who then to blame?

I became a victim, lost in a world

Created by my own darkness,

Forgetting that I was once a brick constructed,

Still dwelling at the foundations of the same Palace.

Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. ©Copyrighted, 30th April, 2017

~Awakening The Inner Light ~

This Palace once had its own foundation


Wise sayings


Quote from a Seer

"Do you want to be always happy?

Then give up fighting

for negativity

And live the beautiful art

Of self-encouragement."- Sri Chinmoy.

Hold on to what is good


Can being positive help in times of trials?

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    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      16 months ago from london


      I once told you that you reminded me of Phylis, another noble Soul. Thank you so much!

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      Shauna L Bowling 

      16 months ago from Central Florida

      Manatita, this really speaks to me. I believe that, in most cases, our thoughts and actions bring about the end result even the negative ones. It's then that we need to realize we can change the circumstances, thus changing the outcome.

      Love the Cherokee prayer. It speaks to my DNA.

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      17 months ago from london

      You understand, Shyron. Awesome! Let us continue ... let us continue ... thank you so much!!

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      Shyron E Shenko 

      17 months ago from Texas

      Manatita, look not to others to make you happy.

      Happiness is within one's own self.

      No one else holds the key

      It is up to you to unlock the heart of you

      To set your spirit free



      I loved the video of ancestors and the song is one of my favs.

      Blessings my friend.

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      You show a remarkable understanding Rasma. I'm not surprised. God bless your noble Heart.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      17 months ago from Riga, Latvia

      Your poem expresses what I believe a great many people are feeling. I try to encourage myself that this world may yet be able to change for the better by telling myself that in my little corner of the world all is fine, think positively and always find something to smile about and then take it from there. Perhaps we can all start withing ourselves and then pass the good feelings and positive vibes around.

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      17 months ago from london

      Thank you, Elijah.

      There are usually reasons, of course ... deep-seated problems and you have touched on them. I rather like Nellieanna's take and Ruby's take of remembering - however late - that we are strong and that we can conquer as necessary.

      What you say may have its merits, but is still a part of the blame game. But yes, it does no harm to know the roots of the problem at times and then go on to find a solution.

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      Elijah A Alexander Jr 

      17 months ago from Washington DC

      Something man-en-mass don't realize is in these supposed United States of America there are still differences in schooling - mistakenly called education [objectively observe, participate to discover different outcomes, reason with their findings for that benefits earth and be able to communicate their findings] its definition - and most everyone in governing positions has had access to a different schooling from man-en-mass. The colleges to expensive for man-en-mass teaches something the open to almost anyone colleges doesn't, they teach how to be deceptive is what they say, to create a "blame game" on unconstitutional parties and many other concepts not seen by man-en-mass. The governors often did go to the same first twelve years of school but only the scholarship receivers and wealthy went to the places that produces the governors, for the most parts.

      I must say being our ...

      "Lost in an abyss of apathy and indifference,

      I did not see the dark signs of change"

      ... because of being brainwashed into believing "we can't fight 'city hall'" is what control our understanding. If United Statesman educated ourselves in the U.S. Constitution, discouraged by governors, we would not have the right to blame our governors because of they intentionally denied us the same instructions pertaining to governing as those who went to the more expensive colleges and universities. So our real blame is our being

      "Lost in an abyss of apathy and indifference,

      I did not see the dark signs of change" the governors so cunningly brought upon us.

      Well said!!

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london


      I thank you and yes, you're right. What you say about the Indians ring true, still, I write first then choose the pictures and videos. i do not know what I'm choosing but this seemed ok.

      You are indeed a woman of conscience and I admire that. This does not mean that I advocate looking back, though. It can be useful in the sense that all pioneers help us, but then we move forward. Thank you so much!


      Very different one for me, but it seems in accord with current life. Thank you so much.


      How are you? My Love to you and yours. So glad that you found the poem meaningful. That's the general idea. Appreciations.

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      Linda Crampton 

      18 months ago from British Columbia, Canada

      Your poem contains an important message, Manatita. I love it.

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      Eric Dierker 

      18 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Very interesting.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      18 months ago from Southern Illinois

      Manatita, we all get lost in an abyss, then we remember we are strong and can overcome any diversity that comes our way. Beautifully penned. I loved the video. The Indian survived the difficult days when America took their land in the name of greed..

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      18 months ago from london

      Appreciations, Tamara.

      How are you doing with Shams and the Meditation?

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      Tamara Moore 

      18 months ago

      Beautiful words, Manatita, and so very encouraging! Thank you for your endearing inspiration. And, your main photo is striking!



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      18 months ago from london

      A superb contribution, Nellieanna.

      I also liked this 'eloquent listening.' Poetic, eh? So eloquent! (smile) Actually this is quite meaningful in the art of communication. Listening with empathy, which Oprah Winfrey was given a lot of credit for in her hey day.

      Now she is into motivational speaking, life-coaching and interviewing those of like minds.

      You say it all very well, and of course we must avoid discouragement. More faith, fortitude, hope and Light are needed, as well as a lack of fear.

      Actually - God's Grace - I'm not too bad right now, and I only wrote the last two poems in the Light of current ideas. Guruji was a Master at interpreting the varying moods of the Soul and perhaps a tiny bit rubbed off on me. Ha ha.

      Thank you for sharing. Life can be so meaningful if we try. Let us pray. Glory be!

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      Nellieanna Hay 

      18 months ago from TEXAS

      Dear Manatita, how wonderful, your musings on wandering in the darkness of encroaching apathy ad indifference and finding the light again! It’s often the only way to really SEE the light, for it to become dimmed temporarily.

      The biggest enemy to the spirit is discouragement. Of course, it grabs us all at times, but giving it a ‘home’ in one’s being allows it to defeat the wondrous and positive good that’s in there. And that IS a choice. Being happy does not always consist of being elated, filled with joy or knowing that all is well. Being happy is when one's spirit learns to live through and wear its downers as special accents to one’s core of joy in having understanding, patience, sight, thankfulness, and ability to live in and appreciate the present, the ‘what IS’ for what it IS: LIFE.

      It’s best if that awareness of the temporariness of discouragement or doubt is simply a part of one’s being, rather that a garment one must try to don when needed, but, for it to BE THERE constantly,

      it does need to be cultivated and demonstrated in one’s life as an affirmation, perhaps at times needing some alteration and retrofitting again, to keep it ever present and winning when it’s needed. That, in itself, is part of being happy: to know it’s always ‘in here’ when it’s needed, which is when it seems to be most challenged, which is when one IS most easily discouraged.

      I love Sri Chinmoy’s quote in your conclusion here, It says it all, from the perspective of KNOWING it. The beautiful Cherokee ‘Amazing Grace’ is more from the perspective of reaching for it and then finding it.

      There is nothing more illustrative of personal faith and grace than abiding personal happiness, no matter what.

      I heard a lovely phrase this morning on a news program: “eloquent listening”, spoken by Maine Independent Senator Angus King, - (not that those credentials matter in this context, but I must give him due credit for a wonderful phrase). It inspired me to want to try to listen much more eloquently!!

      There is music in the seemingly silent air. One must listen eloquently to perceive what is most eloquent and elegant, useful and available. The main secrets of happiness are so ever-present and so quiet at times, but they are never invasive. They never insist, as negativity tries to do. One must be open to and embrace the positives and the inner feeling of happiness.

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      18 months ago from london

      Hi my Sweet Vasantha.

      Sometimes I forget that you're from Bangalore. But yes, you haven't ask, but this problem is everywhere. We're human of course, and growing ever so slowly.

      Yes, the flame burns in us all. A great share. Thank you so much!!


      Yes, yes, Bro. You always understand. Great Spirit. Higher family blessings and much Love.

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      Bill Holland 

      18 months ago from Olympia, WA

      I really loved this, my friend. We worked a farmers market yesterday. Thousands of people there, all bricks in a giant wall, different and yet the same, all so important.

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      vasantha T k 

      18 months ago from Bangalore

      Manatita, we all want to be happy, Yes to be happy we need to motivate ourselves, get help from within, build positiveness to become strong, know your strength to lead a happy life.

      Thanks for this share. Happy day!!


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