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Hello Goodbye, Hello!

Updated on July 25, 2013

Hello Goodbye, Hello!


Dark and grey, I have lost the fight,

Thrown out of my world and out of sight.

What have I done? I am not a liar,

You wouldn’t spit on me if I was on fire.

Instead I am tarnished, no longer known,

My reputation is shattered due to the truth I have shown.

Not being around, with anymore pain and heartache,

I feel warm and calm, and no more heartbreak.

I’m at my lowest so I say farewell,

Take the tablets and hope I don’t end up in hell.

My Mum catches me taking the pills,

Then guilt sets in, as I become incredibly ill.

I can barely keep my eyes open as I lay in hospital,

I was forced to vomit by drinking charcoal.

All night I was awake, vomiting constantly,

The following morning, I'd survived the night through,

Then I knew I was just screaming: “SOMEONE, PLEASE HELP ME, I NEED YOU!"

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      ralwus 6 years ago

      Evidently someone did help you and I hope you can survive without doing this again. xox you must be loved

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      Georgie98 6 years ago from UK

      Yes, I just wish I hadn't got that low. I could've locked my Mum out the room, but I chose not to. I was more close to death than surviving, the doctors were just saying to my mum "we're doing all we can." Not "she's going to be OK." It was a new drug and only 4 people inc. me had overdosed on it in the whole of the U.K. and I had taken the biggest amount. How I survived I don't know.

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      attemptedhumour 6 years ago from Australia

      Hey georgie no more of that or you'll have me to answer to. Hubpages is a drug so stick with that. cheers

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      Georgie98 6 years ago from UK

      Oh don't worry, I won't be taking another overdose anytime soon! That was just over 10 years ago, so I know how to battle the mental pain!

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      ralwus 6 years ago

      One of these days I'd like to cross the pond and just spank you for scaring me.

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      Georgie98 6 years ago from UK

      Sorry! Didn't mean to scare anyone! :/

      But you can cross the pond and spank me anyways! ;) xx

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      Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

      Hey Georgie, from now on put a disclaimer before we read ok! Thought this was recent till read comments. Gosh girl, I would spank you also for this scare. or at least a tap on the side of your head. :D Remember one thing my dear. no matter how hard or down things seem, it is all it ism, the dankness might have a depth to it but the sun always comes back up. And when it does, if we were paying attention in that darkness, we come out with a profound lesson that usually is of help to someone else. yep. to everything there is a purpose, remember that.

      Love you girl, keep on trekking, the world is a great place with tons of beauty, just sometimes we have to look harder for it, but it there. Mostly hiding inside of you. hehe :D aloha - hugs :D

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      Georgie98 6 years ago from UK

      Thanks for your kind words Sage! :)

      And, OK I will try to remember to put a disclaimer up before you read! Haha! All of my writing is from true life experiences or just thoughts rattling around in the ol' brain!

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