Love grows when its true
A year back from today, I couldn't have possibly imagined my life to be the way it is right now. I'm so happy and contended that I can barely believe it. Looking back I can see what a mess my life has been. I've been through hell and yet here I am completely at peace, Finally!
2011 has been an important year in my life. It taught me to identify Real relationships and people while unmasking the fake one's even though the battle was both emotionally and mentally draining. It also taught me to be brave and courageous in letting go of the past and finally moving on. This one year has taught me things that I couldn't possibly have learnt in all the past years put together. Its true Life is a battle. Every year, every min, every sec of the day we are faced with hardships that come to teach us the wisdom of life. With all the turmoils and uncertainties, there is always a hidden knowledge in each and every lesson that life puts us through. But I couldn't have gained this knowledge, couldn't have possibly won the battle if not for the immense support and love from that one guy who makes me feel like I can come out of anything if he is beside me.
A year back from now I was scared of giving him a chance as I was too afraid of getting hurt and being left heartbroken. I was scared of commitments and relationships as I thought they would never last. He convinced me to bring the walls down for once and give us a try . And look how well it turned out for me. The person I'm now is not scared of commitments anymore. The person I'm now is not always paranoid and running from relationships but instead I now know the beauty and bliss held by relationships when they are true and blooming with Love. All thanks to my Angel who showers me with all the happiness and love in the world every single second that he is with me. He has not only washed away my fears of getting hurt but has also showed me 'Sincerity' and 'truthfulness' do exist in a relationship. Every promise that he made, every oath that he took at the beginning of our relationship has been fulfilled. Never for once in all this time has he gone back from his words. And in return he seems to want nothing but me and my presence in his life.
The amount of love he holds in his heart can clearly be seen in his eyes. The way his words soothe me when I'm upset or angry assures me that nothing can ever get me down when I have him in my life. The way he cares about me so unconditionally, makes me wonder if a person can actually be capable of being so caring and loving. The way he always addresses me with the word "Meri Jaan"(Meaning: My life) whether its in the middle of the night or early morning makes me realize that I'm not just any girl for him. The way he holds me in his arms like he never wants to let go, moves me so deeply. Every single thing that he does, makes me realize just how completely and utterly lucky I am to have him in my life. The love and gratitude I feel towards him, can never be actually expressed in words no matter how hard I try. Yet he seems to understand the way I feel without any explanations or expressions.
Its been exactly a year since he asked me out and what a terrific year it has been! Our Love towards each other has grown ever since and keeps growing with every tick of the clock. I'm looking forward for all the years to come if it means I could have him forever in my life right until my last breathe.
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