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Updated on December 29, 2014
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Maurice Bishop, a powerful, spoken word Poet currently serving in the United States Army. Published Author & Motivational Speaker.

The Beginning/Conflict

I Blame God!

Because when I came home from school with a lunch box and mini bear.

My uncle stood in front of me and gave me a cold stare and told me to go upstairs and wait there.

I did just that but curiosity had me scared,

More scared than being locked in a casket filled with tarantulas there.

As he came upstairs and entered my room his smile was cold.

He stared at me and told me to take off my clothes but I said "NO"!!

So he forced it off me and told me to do as I'm told!!"

I cried trying to break free from his tight hold but he's too strong and wouldn't let go.

I screamed and tears began to flow as I watch my uncle taking off his clothes.

As he rammed his impurities into my purified soul,

I felt sicker than a patient with full blown AIDS flowing out of control.

I cried like a child having nightmares and afraid to close his eyes.

Cried like a child without his mother by his side.

Cried like a child with wolves surrounding him.

Cried like a child in the deep end of the pool but it's only his tears he's drowning in.

Conflict

I Blame God!

After my uncle playing his video games he calls for my name

I be hiding under the bed praying that his mind is change.

But it never goes my way so God is who I blame.

Because as I'm being dragged on the floor he treats me like one of his whores as he videotapes me for his sexual gain.

Every time I look at him my stomach turn it's back on him.

It's like the devil on my shoulders and I'm running laps with him.

Cutting my tongue gives me a reason why I can't chat with him.

And when he thinks about molesting me I pray that his manhood and everything else collapse with him.

Conflict

I Blame God!

No bath or clothe can wash away the shame.

Because I can keep washing and washing and still feel the same.

I was an 8 year old child crying for help.

I rather die hoping he feel how I felt,

Like cutting my arms and lynching him with my veins.

Cutting my chest open and forcing my heart in his eye sockets passing his optics so he can see my pain.

Some say I'm insane,

And I guess I am because the definition of insane is traumatic experiences entering the skull eating the inside of your brain.

I was so mad at God I wanted his blood dripping from the sky,

And every time I look in the mirror the mirror cries.

Resolution

I Blame God!

Every time I stand next to him I throw up,

And just when I'm about to hang myself God shows up.

He said, "You want to die and you think that you should,

But what the enemy meant for bad I can turn it around for your good".

Then God took me in the universe and show me planet Earth upside down.

He said, "Every time the world is spinning around, every chains that was bound on the youth are falling to the ground.

When your uncle wanted you dead I kept you alive.

And when you cried I sent angels from the sky to wipe the tears from your eyes.

I know you're going through it.

I even protect you from receiving AIDS from your uncle but you never knew it.

You thought I abandoned you,

But your thoughts are not of my thoughts, neither your ways my ways.

Wisdom I love you and I will never leave you nor forsake you,

And before you entered your mother's womb, being victorious in every areas of your life is how I created you".


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      Anan Celeste 5 years ago from California

      Welcome to Hubpages!

      This was, hands down, the most intense poem I have read in my life! I could not breathe. Wow. Great flow and language. I don't know what else to say.Voted up and sharing.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks for the comments; as well as the encouragement.

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      Sushmita 5 years ago from Kolkata, India

      Wisdom, thanks for reading my Hub and leaving a comment, so that I could check you out. Else I would have missed this wonderful new format poetry for I don't know how long. I will definitely try to check out all your Hubs. You write with a lot of 'blood' on paper. Voted up- beautiful.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks Sen.sush23 for leaving a comment. I am going to add a link to where the poetry lovers can buy my book. It's called Blood on Paper. I also have my video performances attached to some of my poetry. check it out. Much Love and Respect

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      Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

      Wow, that was powerful. Intense. Almost more description than I could take. It's so sad that stuff like that happens. Wow...again. Great stuff. Many votes and sharing!

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      Slaven Cvijetic 5 years ago from Switzerland, Zurich

      oh my god what a devastating poem!! Extremely intense and I couldn't stop reading it!! You have just earned one more follower! Shared Voted up Beautiful Twittered and Awesome!

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks for commenting Victoria. I really appreciate it. Much Love and Respect.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks MBYL. Thanks for following me. I have a few poetry hubs and video performances so check it out. Much Love and Respect.

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      Mary Strain 5 years ago from The Shire

      Wisdom, I read once that 1 in 7 American boys and 1 in 3 girls are molested before they reach 14. This is something a lot of people experience but are too traumatized to talk about. Thank you for shining the light on this terrible evil. And you're right, God is always there to heal. Up and sharing!

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks Mollymeadows for commenting as well as sharing that statistics. I did not know that. Much Love and Respect

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      Jessee R 5 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      The pain is scorching, smothering me.... To experience something which could break some one down to extents of blaming God! This is intense!

      Great intense poetry!

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks Rahul for commenting. Much Love and Respect!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Wow what a great but sad hub....i had an uncle like that...i couldn't understand why God let him live....i wrote a hub about it...my third book deals with this...God bless you for writing this...debbie

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      Jeremy Wade 5 years ago from Tennessee

      I never read stories like this because they disturbs me. But you're such a good writer that I couldn't stop. And it was well worth it cause your ending was great. God always has a plan and even when awful things happen to you it's so you can become the person your meant to be.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you Deborah for commenting. Thanks for the love. I may I ask what's thename of your book? I am very interested in reading. Much Love and Respect.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      I'm glad you had a chance to read it. I don't like to make my stories depressing and gloomy. Lol. Thanks for the comment. Much love and respect

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks for the comments. I do want to know the name of your book. Let me know. Much love and respect.

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      P. Thorpe Christiansen 5 years ago from Pacific Northwest, USA

      wisdom25 - dark and intense indeed. Hard to think of all the children that suffer this kind of torture. Hard to see on paper, but much harder to live I am sure. Cathartic and intense.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks Duff for commenting on my poem. Much love and respect.

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      I am working on it now.. the title is .......The Lostness of Forever.....i will advertiise it when it is published..thankyou for asking..blessings to you..debbie

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      That is an interesting title. I can't wait to read it. Much Love and respect.

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      Denise Handlon 5 years ago from North Carolina

      Teary eyed here...intense...sorrowful...powerful! Thank you for sharing your experience. Truth is healing; secrets exposed are healing; writing is healing...keep up the wonderful work-your message is important! UP/etc

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 5 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks Denise. I pray that many hear this messaged and are healed by it. As long as I sowed the seed then my job is done..Thanks again for the comment. Much Love and respect.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 4 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you everybody for commenting.

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      Romeos Quill 4 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      Maurice....this is some seriously powerful, and heart-ripping stuff here, my friend, and I'm glad you've brought it into the open to expose it for what it is, so everyone can see, and learn, and take some comfort from your fine message.I know about child abuse personally, but more recently, my brother and I had a mutual friend called Danny, who had been left traumatized as a kid by the people who he was supposed to trust most of all - his parents.He joined the armed services, and the sexual abuse had left him confused about his own sexuality, as his compass had been totally screwed up, so we helped him.My brother took him to confront his parents, and get out all of the hurt, and pain which they had unrighteously inflicted upon that poor boy.

      Thank God, he is now with a woman who loves him, and they have children, and are a proper family, and he has never been happier.

      Thanks for publishing this one; you've done a mighty fine job here, and I'm sharing, without hesitation.

      Peace & Goodwill,

      Sincerely,

      Romeo's Quill

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 4 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you Romeo for your comment. It really made my day and made me feel really great about posting this piece on here. I'm very grateful that it touched your heart and I'm praying that it touch even more lives. I'm so thankful that your brother is doing well. He has an amazing story to tell that will heal many people like him. Much Love and Respect to you and your brother.

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      Sulabha Dhavalikar 3 years ago from Indore, India

      wisdom25,

      I hope in all earnestness that this horrid man was punished by God.

      Sure God helped by not letting you go astray. It's nice you continued to work hard to achieve your goal.

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      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 3 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you so much Sulabha. Much Love and Respect to you.

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