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Many of My Days

Updated on December 16, 2014

It happened again today

when you come at me

with your attacks and snide comments

I could feel the tears

come to my eyes

nearly to spill

but I held them in.


It has been

many a months

over 16 years

since I first

came to learn

how you turn on a dime

to point and blame

always trying to make it

someone else’s fault.


What you did

yelling and fussing

making up a reason

to try to make me feel

worthless

so you can feel strong.

made those familiar tears

came to my eyes

nearly to spill

but I held them in.


Circumstances could be

very well beyond my control

a twist of fate

a bump in the road

that many will face

you are not the only one.


Yet somehow you find

a way to make it my burden

as if I would ever owe.


It is easy

to boss and bait

jab and ring

demand with a loud voice

that you are Queen of the World.


What is hard

is to always do your part

take responsibility

figure something out on your own

carve a way

out of nothing.


I can see

as I know you can too

how much you need me

to shut up

not speak my mind

do as I am told

to make up

for lost time.


One day soon

I will rise above

and the tears

will flow free

as I walk right out that door.

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    • aviannovice profile image

      Deb Hirt 

      3 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Perfectly said. And walking is the best thing...

    • teaches12345 profile image

      Dianna Mendez 

      3 years ago

      This is a well written poem and very much what one experiences in a confusing relationship. It is so touching.

    • Jodah profile image

      John Hansen 

      3 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Wow, a strong statement here truthfornow. All the best to you.

    • Shyron E Shenko profile image

      Shyron E Shenko 

      3 years ago from Texas

      Very touching, I have been there, but my tears did not flow when I walked out that door.

      Voted up, UABI and shared.

      Blessings and Merry Christmas

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      3 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Wow, now that you have that out of your system, rise above the fray and know that tomorrow will be better. Peace my friend...

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      CrisSp 

      3 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      I hope that the author has not completely lost her self-worth despite the misdeed around her and eventually find the courage to set herself free.

      Nice one!

      Love from the sky~

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      Linda Crampton 

      3 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      You've described the tension of an unpleasant relationship very effectively in this poem. I could certainly feel the anger and frustration!

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      Dora Weithers 

      3 years ago from The Caribbean

      How soon (in your last verse)? Although, this scenario is very common in real life, which makes the mood of your poem very authentic.

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      Eric Dierker 

      3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I feel for your character. Certainly the most common form of abuse. I hope they walk free soon.

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