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Mindful Clouds July 8, 2011

Updated on July 30, 2013


Today... Once again, you were on my mind..

When are you not on my mind?

Today... Once again, you were weighing on my heart.

When are you not on my heart?

Sitting at a wedding wishing it were mine...

Me marrying you,

You becoming mine...

The thoughts of you were never left behind.

What a beautiful wedding it was.

My heart broke into pieces wishing it were us...

This feels like a curse.

Me loving you... it hurts.

The bride cried so loud.... People at the wedding were confused.

But my heart told me, that she wasn't ready to be the bride.

I knew... her face couldn't hide the pain.

The bride was inlove with someone else.

Someone that's not the groom...

This made me think of me and you...

Our situation...

The one that separated us forever,

And you tried to come back into my life and I you pushed away for lying...

The thoughts of you are never far behind...

Because I feel like I'm dying...

And I am so tired of lying...

I am so tired of crying...

I am so tired of pretending.... that I don't love you.

It is you whom my heart belongs to.

I will die an old hag... who never gave herself that chance at true loves hands...

The whole time my mind was exploding with thoughts of us,

The love we shared together,

The times we laughed,

Everyday with you felt right...

For the first time in my life, it felt right.

I loved everything about you,

Down to your toes...

Today's wedding made me sad...

Watching the bride cry...

For her true love.

I cried right along side with her because I knew...

She was crying for her true love too...

Written by: Jlono ©2011


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    • ROMANCER OF LIFE profile imageAUTHOR


      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      Thank you Susannah42!

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      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      Thank you Aris Budianto!

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      Aris Budianto 

      7 years ago from Lying along the equator Country

      So.. touching, I love it.

    • susannah42 profile image


      7 years ago from Florida

      Beautiful emotions

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      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      @ Apostle Jack ~ Your words are true indeed... I can always count on your wonderful feedback. We are who we choose to be... That is so true.

      Have a blessed day!


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      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      @ Reynold Jay~ Wow... your comment was really nice. Thank you very much for such wonderful and kind words. This story came from the heart, so I'm really glad you enjoyed it. Thank you for visiting me!

      ~ Romancer~

    • ROMANCER OF LIFE profile imageAUTHOR


      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      @ daryl2007~ Thank you! True story it is indeed... Glad you stopped by!

      Have a blessed day~


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      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      @ carolp ~ Thank you carolp for stopping by to read this hub. It's an emotion I live with everyday of my life...

      Have a blessed day ;D


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      Apostle Jack 

      7 years ago from Atlanta Ga

      We are as we choose to be...and we are no more prepared than we have prepared ourselves for the outcome.

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      Reynold Jay 

      7 years ago from Saginaw, Michigan

      Tounching heartfelt emotions run freely here. Welcome to HUB writing. I enjoyed this very much. You have this laid out beautifully and it is easy to understand. Keep up the great HUBS. I must give this an “Up ONE and beautiful.” I'm now your fan! RJ

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      7 years ago

      The story is perfect and touching!!!! Impressive!

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      7 years ago from Switzerland

      Very nice emotional expressions. Nice story.


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