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More Than Breathing

Updated on March 16, 2016

I was breathing but I wasn’t alive.

Thinking, tomorrow my life would arrive.

Tomorrow, not the day after this

But someday, when I meet my prince.

Once Upon a Time, I had dreams

Wishing on stars and winking at moonbeams.

I wish I may, I wish I might

Have the wish, I’d wish all nights

How would my fairy tale tell?

All the others, I knew so well.

Happily Ever After, is how they go

True love always prevails, this I know.

Where and how will this happen for me?

A land, far away, when least expect it to be.

My heart had been leant to a prince in disguise.

I was young and had untainted eyes.

I waited and waited for my fairy tale to write,

Daydreaming away, long sleepless nights.

No magic was making, but pages were turned

The heart that I leant was slowly being burned.

My fairy tale dreams were coming apart

I was foolishly eager to give over my heart.

By the window, I’d glue my face

What, would be after this place?

Is this my future, my fate, my destiny?

Will I be stuck here for eternity?

Do I get the chance to try it again.

If I'm to leave; where, how and when?

I’d ponder these things, the next several years.

Wanting to leave, but not facing my fears.

Finding a way to live without living.

How to be tired but still keep on giving.

Going through the motions, finding a way to smile.

Suffering in silence, crying only once in a while.

The tears I don’t share but rather, I hide

A wave of them crashing deep down inside.

It be not important this prince is a villain

It is me and my choices, my heart has been killing.

He might wear a crown upon his head

But I failed to listen to the words that he said.

I should’ve know to walk away

Before I gave up my heart that day.

How does a fairy tale come true

If not willing to let people through?

I will always struggle to fully understand

How to let in the good while keeping out the bad.

But why bother to keep my eyes open wide

When I have shattered pieces of a heart inside?

Who wants to fix a badly broken heart?

Why would I let it fall further apart?

Finally free but how do I heal

When I’ve learned how to live but nothing to feel?

How can I tell if it’s real or fake,

How do I not repeat my mistake?

Accepting, no fairy tale is written for me

That is the how I will live safely.

It might not be living, life how I should

It might not be great but I’ll settle for good.

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      mr-veg 4 years ago from Colorado United States

      Hey Cat !! You know what I just wrote something about relationship and when I published it, right below I see your poem on relationship :) Glad to see that we did strike at once on the same front !! You have expressed yourself beautifully out here, bringing out the colors within the relation, and I do hope I succeeded somewhere in doing a bit of same... You are a artist and you know that... keep creating marvels and soon the Sea will be full of pearls....

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      Martin Kloess 4 years ago from San Francisco

      Dreamy. I have lived a dream. If I were to share my past you wouldn't believe me. Point? More than breathing.

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      Jennifer 4 years ago from Lost...In Video Games

      I loved this, Cat. Very beautifully worded. Voted it up!

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      Man of Strength 4 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Hi Cat,

      This is beautiful, powerful words and pictures. I wish life was like a fairy tale. How much of this autobiographical?

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      ahorseback 4 years ago

      Oh, Leave it to you to pour your heart out Cat ! Wish we could be there to "listen " , Seeking that which we all seek . And yet on we go don't we ? Hugs !.......Ed

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      Jennifer 4 years ago from New Jersey

      Of course I love the Fairytale theme...."how to live without living, trying to smile, settle for good" too many great lines to type! I love this Cat! And I am going to return to read again, I know it!

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      rose-the planner 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      What an exquisite piece of work! Your words leads everyone deep into your soul. I was moved and your use of imagery was lovely. I am of the belief that, "to those who wait, good things shall come". You must never give up on your dreams because they are what keeps us motivated and living. By the way, without sounding too cliché, there really are "knights in shining armor" out there........you'll see. Awesome! (Voted Up) -Rose

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      Wayne Joel Bushong 4 years ago from America

      Always besting me! LOL, great write Cantu! voted up

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Very beautiful.I understand you:)We have the same plight but our rhythms are different.It seems I am lagging a bit behind .From this write,I smell that your heart is full of fertile seeds,waiting to sprout.Your prince is just around the corner,be on the alert sharp.Big moments will grab you out of this waiting game.

      James

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      A woman like you should never settle for good. You deserve the greatest.....but I'm already taken. LOL

      Okay, I need to get serious. Lovely work....sad but lovely....and it probably speaks for many more people than we imagine.

      You are a poet at heart and I love your work, Cat.

      bill

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      mr-veg,

      Thank you! ‘The Sea will be full of pearls…’ how lovely. I will certainly be reading your newest and you never fail; you write from the heart and it’s always so honest and beautiful. Thank you… I’ll be seeing you later!

      Your Friend,

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Mhatter99,

      I think many of us live in your memories that you paint so vividly. I believe you’ve lived and loved more in your lifetime than most of us could ever dream of. Thank you, Martin.

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      writinglover,

      My sad friend said ‘loved’! Thank you, I very much respect your artistic opinion :D

      Your Buddy,

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Man of Strength,

      I could say ‘Most of my serious work is 25% autobiographical and 75% fiction.’, but then I’d be lying ;-)

      Thank you, I really appreciate your compliments!

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Ed!

      ‘Seek and you will find’… stop seeking and you’ll never be disappointed with what you don’t find! :-(

      You’re here now and that’s what really matters! We do go on… and I’ll do it smiling :D

      Thank you, dearest Ed,

      Hugs ~ Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Theater girl,

      Wow, thank you! I had something to say and just started writing… by the time I was done, I never even got to where I was trying to go yet! :D Isn’t it funny how once we open our hearts and start pouring it out, it gushes! Thank you, I love that love this!

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Rose,

      If anyone could convince me that happily ever after exists, it would be the wedding planner! Cliché works, because something only becomes so, after it’s happened enough times. Thank you so very much for the wonderful comments, I really appreciate them!

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Patriot Quest,

      You’re just too kind! You could take me down with your politics or patriotism any day… and that poetry you wrote the other day is only proof that you’ve got that down too! I will certainly take the compliment! Thank you.

      Cantu ;-)

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James,

      Thank you gentle wolf, I do believe we understand each other and that pleases me. Your words are always so beautiful and comforting; I really appreciate them and you. We’ll take cover together until the storms pass and then smile as our rainbow appears.

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      … but you’re already taken! Oh, I was so going to say that if you didn’t… lol. Thank you Billy, I really appreciate it. I guess our hearts are resilient right and broken or not, there’s always a smile on my face :D

      Thank you, dear friend,

      Cat

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      Shannon 4 years ago from Texas

      Oh, Cat, are you trying to make my heart break for you? I had one I started along time ago with a fairytale theme. It was similar to yours, but mine was more along the lines of not looking for fairytale perfection, but rather just for "my" fairytale.

      Well, I say, mend your own broken heart with faith and love from above and with the love of friends that love you unconditionally. And then, when you least expect it, some Prince Charming might come along to sweep you off your feet and finish mending that heart, or at least keep it from shattering again.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Shan!

      Oh, I so know what you're talking about. There are different versions of fairy tales, I know we have to find the fairy tale that's already there sometimes, even if it's not as glorious as the ones written in books. I'd love to hear yours!

      You're so beautiful... thank you for being such an awesome friend... if ever I could get some time to catch up!!!

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      Shannon 4 years ago from Texas

      Cat, I'd have to find it. I never finished it. Just came across the scribblings of it the other day when going through scraps. Haha. Whenever you have time, I'm around. At least I think I am. Until I lose access to the internet, but if I do, I'll call you when I get a chance. :)

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      Man of Strength 4 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Hey Cat,

      Actually, I thought about that comment of 25% and%, it's closer to 40% and 60%. It's my life and emotions with fiction thrown in. You have the most beautiful pictures in your poems. They are masterpieces.

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      epigramman 4 years ago

      Well the cat's out folks and for years Colin's had a secret crush on my prince - David Hasselhoff from Baywatch.

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      epigramman 4 years ago

      ...and seriously I just called you a true 'superstar' at Rose's new hub and you make 'everyone' come alive here my dearest Cat - you make everyone 'breathe' .......and I don't think there's been a day since I've met you here at the Hub that when I thought about you - that it wasn't a lovely sigh as your name came to my mind

      lake erie time 1:29pm early work start tonight so into the water for maybe the only time today for a dip and both cats are out back guarding against unwanted intruders and uninvited guests, lol

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Well finish it then! …lol Yes, if this thunderstorm and golf ball-sized hail doesn’t take out my electric… I intend to catch up :D

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Man of Strength

      Ha ha… 40/60, good to know! Yes and I know you’ve got a whole bunch of new ones up and I’ll be over as soon as I can!

      Thank you about the pictures… I drew them :D lol

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Dearest Colin,

      Hasselhoff, really? I figured he’d be too much of a cheese ball for you… lol.

      Seriously though, you’re always too gracious… but I don’t mind ;-) I’ve met a lot of people here and many I can call friends, but you certainly are a true friend. You’re always right there to pick me up and I very much appreciate you.

      Early work… is that a good thing? I hope you enjoy the water and boy am I jealous! We’ve had a heat wave and now we’re paying… with thunderstorms… the hail is coming down the size of golf balls! David Hasselhoff at your beach?

      Hugs to you and those guarding guardians of yours!

      Your Cat

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      MizBejabbers 4 years ago

      What a lovely way of saying your prince turned into a frog at the stroke of midnight. Don't kiss the frog, he might come back for a rerun! As usual, your poem is beautiful and I know that many lonely ladies relate to it. Voted up and beautiful!

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      MizBejabbers,

      Ha ha... you're so funny! I just saw your name come in my email and I thought 'What is she doing over there, that's not a funny hub... lol' but you made it funny!

      You're awesome, I so appreciate your visit! Thank you very much for the compliments too!

      Cat

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      I think a lot of us here in HP Town must have been in tune with broken hearts, as I had just written one on how my heart breaks for all the lovely persons here in HP Town, such as yourself, who I know have had their hearts shattered into pieces by one who seems to collect broken hearts in a jar, and then returns to do more damage!

      You, my dearest and lovely, Cat, truly do not need to settle for good, but the best in this life. Sometimes when we stop looking, that is when the Lord will place the "one" right on our doorsteps. I know of a friend of a friend who told the Lord that she was not going to look for a husband, but that if the Lord God wanted her to have one (she said husband or in this case, one to love her), then He would just have to place him right on her doorstep! And guess what, He did just that! They have been happily married and they are the cutest couple. Never settle, dearest Cat, never settle . . . I mean NEVER!!!

      You are a beautiful person with a beautiful heart who deserves the best this life has to offer. I truly mean this from the bottom of my heart. There are truly a lot of frogs out there, but there is that one prince created just for you, believe it. And guess what, that prince is out there right now, looking for his princess, you!

      Voted up ++++ and sharing

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Karen Silverman 4 years ago

      Sigh...'good' is good, but GREAT is bester, yes?? You couldn't shut yourself away from the world if you tried! You're far far FAR too alive and curious!

      Don't you dare let some schmuck shut you down...HARUMPHHH!!

      are they really worth it? Neva'

      after all - ya gots ME! haha..

      that and a quarter....lol

      sharing, girlfriend!

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Dearest, sweet, sweet Faith Reaper,

      You really know how to fill a girl's eyes! I very much appreciate the wonderful and loving comments you made. People like you keep the notion alive that there are such kinds of people out there in the world! I must say though, you are a one of a kind!

      I love that story, how precious is that? I do not believe in coincidences, but I do believe in miracles and that sounds like one!

      Thank you so much for the vote of confidence, I wish you could understand what good you've done for my heart.

      As far as that last hub of yours, I just had to go over to your page to make sure I was following you because this is at least the second time I was not notified of a new hub. I don't understand why that happens. It will certainly be the next hub I read, even if I have to stop for dinner :D ... the page is already open and ready to go! The title and your reference already sound so beautiful and that is the epitome of you; feeling for others! You are such a beautiful person and I'll be forever grateful that I've met you.

      Hugs and love, Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Leslie, you snook right in there!... lol. Yes, GREAT is bester… but ignorance is sometimes bliss and low expectations don’t hurt either… lol. I don’t mean in a lover, just in life :D

      You’re probably right though… but have you ever heard about what CURIOSITY does to CATS? lol

      You’re like the sexiest Popeye to ever walk the earth! Ha ha ha!

      P.S. (I’m 4 pages behind in emails… but I see you’ve got another gem up on that spectacular blog of yours and I’ll be there… before I sleep :D )

      Thanks girly, I love ya!

      Cat

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      ahorseback 4 years ago

      I agree with Leslie Cat , NEVER let a man shut you down ! Not with the spirit of a couger and the heart of an angel , the eyes of a princess and the compassion of a Queen .........Hey ,Im in the know here ! Listen to me girl !...........Huggy bear !

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      Anna Haven 4 years ago from Scotland

      You wrote beautifully and skillfully; I felt it. I don't know you; but you seem very beautiful in every way. Don't settle for less than you deserve. Even from what I have seen you deserve the best. You hold that dream; every new day could be the one which brings you; your hero xx

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      Mike Pugh 4 years ago from New York City

      Love at times can be a beast of a burden on the naked heart waiting to be rewounded over and over again, or at least thats my take on the matter at hand.

      Those who hold their love connections sacred to themselves and protect their own hide and internal emotions deep down inside are also those who feel as you have felt here in this poem. That might mean everyone pretty much :)

      Powerful thought processing in this poem, nice questioning of yourself technique here of written expression as well, and I enjoyed reading it through and through Cat.

      Thanks for sharing your poetic talent wth us, thumbs up and outta here.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Oh my goodness Ed, you’re too cute! You know how to warm my heart and make me laugh at the same time; you, are a talented man and I love ya!

      Bear Hugs,

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Anna,

      Aw, my sweet new friend Anna, thank you! Well I absolutely admire you, so I will take those words to heart! You are beautiful yourself, thank you!

      Hugs to you!

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      CloudExplorer,

      Mike, long time no see! I’ll have to wander over your way soon!

      Wow, what an interesting take, I’d venture to say you’ve loved hard and hurt some, but who hasn’t? Every time we open our hearts we accept the chance of something beautiful or tragic occurring. Nothing beats love when it’s at its best and nothing hurts more when it’s at its worst.

      It’s too bad the heart and the brain didn’t work simultaneously! Then again, imagine if our hearts started thinking too much, we just might never open it!

      Thanks again Mike, it’s so nice to see you!

      Cat

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      epigramman 4 years ago

      ...a little surprise waiting for you.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      There's my surprise right there! :D

      Yipeeeeeeeee Colin made it home from work! How are those rainbows and butterflies coming? ;-)

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      TDM 4 years ago from Welcome to my beautiful world, where magic is no longer a myth.

      Canuhearmescream,

      What an amazing poem. Thats all i have to say. :) Voted up.

      I. White

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Thank you very much Isaac! I know my mailbox is filled with new hubs of yours and I will certainly make it your way!

      I really appreciate it!

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      Abby Campbell 4 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

      Cat - Are you okay? I just wanted to reach out and hug you when I read this. It's a beautiful share of your heart. Let's go out to lunch. I've finally made enough to pay for my own this month. ;) XOXO

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      ahorseback 4 years ago

      Abbey ! Thats the same feeling I got ! To reach Cat and hug her , maybe even lift heroffthe ground a little . I can do that !.....Hey cat -heres your big hug!

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Abby,

      You’re so stinkin’ sweet! :D Thank you darling and lunch sounds great… I’ll have a water and might be able to handle the tip. lol. I hope HP is finally being good to you!

      Thank you pretty lady!

      Cat ~XOXO

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Oh, sweet Ed, I'll be alright... especially now that I've got you! Thanks for the hugs! Hugs right back at ya!

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      Kathryn 4 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      It's awful when we realize that fairy tales are not real, and that those who seem like princes are often wicked. But then again, when you meet a good guy, normal life can be great.

      This is a very pretty poem. Thanks for sharing it with us! I hope you are having a beautiful week!

      ~ Kathryn

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      Oh, this is so not fair! lol... Last night I realized that I hadn't been your way in a while and said 'come hell or high water, I'm going her way tomorrow'. I've had 2 structure fires last night... opened your hub today, got a knock on my door about an emergency meeting that I was being summoned to and as I was leaving that... had a medical call! I just got home a tiny bit ago and just clicked back over to your hub, determined to go to you before you came to me... and here you are! lol... I swear to you... I was already coming... I've got your hub half read! :D

      Oh... my hub :D .... I think it's sad when as little girls we assume or expect fairy tales and then find ourselves sadly mistaken. But I should believe they exist as you seem to have something of a fairy tale going on for yourself.... which I couldn't be happier for you, you're a gem and you deserve it!

      Thanks Kathryn, you're always such a pleasure to see! And I hope you're having a wonderful week too! Hoping the sun is being more gracious than the rain :D

      Cat

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      Kathryn 4 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Cat,

      I know how it goes. Life happens! There's no rush, I'm just glad you think of me every so often! Wow, so you have been busy.

      Yes, Cat, there is hope. I have been through some so-so relationships, and some that seemed okay to begin with, but failed. And, of course, ones that make you look back and wonder what you're thinking. Infatuation can really cloud the mind. And sometimes you can fool yourself into overlooking the bad in someone, because you really want the dream you have to become a reality. Life can be a bit cruel, but it can be good, too. I wish you luck in your own life, and hope that you will find your "prince". Just keep an open mind, because he might look like a frog! Lol.

      It's a pleasure to see you, too. I always enjoy seeing your comments, no matter whose page I am on. You are one of those who leave such thoughtful comments, not just a quick line as you run through the page.

      I am having a good week, and I have the next few days off of work. That means I will be spending more time on HubPages! Yay! I am so addicted, but I really love it here.

      Our days have been a mix of sun and rain. But at least the clouds have brought relief from the intense heat! Stay cool :)

      ~ Kathryn

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      I swear I've got a smile from ear to ear... you're so sweet, honestly; and what a positive aura you have too! I think of you frequently, not often :D... I'm just easily distracted and the new notifications often prevent me from getting to my 'things to do' list!

      That's awfully nice of you to say about my comments and I'd be lying if I didn't notice you all over hubland leaving equally engaging comments, I can see and feel how well-liked you are around here and I'm so happy to see that as the case.

      That love spiel, that was beautiful... I think my eyes got a little warm, seriously. 'Infatuation can really cloud the mind' that sounds like the makings of a hub right there! :D I really appreciate you sharing with me, I think I've been down a similar road and it's so true how we're willing to look past the not-so-good things waiting for the 'good things' to fall into place. I'm happy being alone because I'm not lonely... what I don't want is to give another decade to another person if it's the wrong person, you know? I'm not afraid... just cautious :D

      I'm so happy you've got a couple of days off and I hope they're good to you!

      Thanks so much, really, you made my night!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Kathryn 4 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Cat,

      I'm glad that you're happy being alone. It is not always necessary to be in a serious relationship, and the main point in life is to just be happy with what you've got. If you're not lonely, that is great! Being cautious is a very good idea. If I had taken that approach, I would have avoided a lot of heartache a few years ago. But you live and learn!

      You're so sweet, too, Cat! Have a wonderful day.

      Hugs,

      Kathryn

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      ocfireflies 4 years ago from North Carolina

      Cat,

      You have written so many great poems evoking all kinds of emotions which in my opinion is what an artist seeks to do, and you are an artist.

      Voted UP AWESOME! I would hit SHARE as well if I could find that button, but I have yet to see one. Maybe only those with Level 5 Commenter status and higher have access to them. Regardless, this is an excellent poem with a message so many can relate to and told in an honest seamless manner.

      Best Always,

      Kim

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      Kathryn 4 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      @ ocfireflies, the share button should be visible to everyone. It is on the right side of the page, and says "HubPages Followers". Press that, and all of your followers will see it in their feed. It is right below the Facebook, Twitter, and Pinterest buttons. I hope that helps.

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      ocfireflies 4 years ago from North Carolina

      Kathryn,

      Greetings! I have seen "HubPages Followers," but I am not seeing it right now. I will come back and see if it reappears. I suppose I thought there would be a button that said, "Share." Pretty dumb on my part.

      Thanks for clarifying.

      Best Always,

      OC aka Kim

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      Linda Rogers 4 years ago from Minnesota

      I am so glad I found this poem Cat. You just wrote a comment on my poem about abuse. I am so sad you too have experienced the pain of believing in someone that turns out to be a fake. I know your beautiful heart and hope you won't let this person squash your hopes of good men. I really related to the part of your poem that questions how you keep your heart open versus not being scammed again. I think it's a worry of all men and women that have been in abusive relationships. There is hope in this balancing act. God Bless you Cat and I'm so glad you had the courage to get out of this miserable relationship. You and my sis have lots in common. She is so happy again and just rebloomed after leaving him.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      I know it probably sounds silly at times, but I am a believer that ‘everything happens for a reason’. For each bad relationship anyone has, it is a learning experience. It teaches us what ‘not to do’ next time and I’m sure makes us appreciate the beautiful relationships all that much more.

      Thank you girly… I’m still smiling :D

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      ocfireflies,

      Thank you so much Kim! I really appreciate such gracious compliments, especially coming from someone whose work I so much admire! There are so many kinds of poetry; when I’ve got something on my mind… they just seem to write themselves for me… you know what I mean?

      Again, I really appreciate it!

      Huggies to you!

      Cat

      P.S. I see Kathryn came to the rescue! Thanks to both of you ladies!

      P.S.S :D … It took me 2 months before I realized that those words ‘HubPages Followers’ was even a button! Lol… you’re not alone!

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Minnetonka Twin,

      Wow, thank you… I am so touched. I think I’ve been most guilty of giving everyone too much of the benefit of the doubt; always hoping or thinking they’ll change or things will get better. Sometimes I think it’s my own selfishness, a desperate act for something good to come out of something bad… refusing to accept that something will never be, that only wastes the time of any part involved. I grew up in a rougher house, where respect wasn’t necessarily always given and so I never learned how to demand or even expect it for my grownup self. I am blessed in that though, as my biggest goal as a mother has been to be a spokesperson for respect to my children and build very healthy self-esteems.

      I will always keep my heart open wide, as much as boo boos can hurt, love, from any source makes it worth keeping the heart open. Love makes the world go ‘round, doesn’t it?

      Thank you so much for your beautiful words and I am so happy that your sister has finally gotten to a place where she can have the peace I’m sure she deserves.

      Have a wonderful day!

      Cat

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      ocfireflies 4 years ago from North Carolina

      Hey!

      I found the button. I finally got to share. I couldn't be happier for your poem to be my first share.

      And yes, I know exactly what you mean. When the words are there, and especially rooted in the heart, I am not sure if a freight train could stop them. I think that, at least for me, that is when I produce that which I own with the most pride.

      Best Always,

      Kim

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      Wayne Barrett 4 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Commendable work Cat. Life can be smothering and so hard to trudge through sometimes, but there is always the dream. And let me say from personal experience, dreams do come true.

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      Wayne Barrett 4 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      By the by, taken any more cat pictures lately? Lol

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Kim,

      I can certainly say many of your pieces are as powerful as a freight train! :D ... I get it, I do.

      Thank you for sharing... I'm honored (That must be how I got all kinds of Wayne Barrett here? lol I like him though, he's my bubbers!)

      Well, I had to step away for a minute... but I see you've got a new gem up and I will be over momentarily.... and I already know I'll be sharing! :D

      Thanks Kim!

      Cat

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      Thank you Wayne. I've had pieces of my heart break and those moments are dark, but I think I'm resilient. I guess if you've had only bad, there's nothing left but good, right? I hope :D

      Well, I just think you're a heck of a guy and if there's anyone deserving of having his dreams come true, it's you.

      Thanks, I really appreciate your visit!

      Shhhh... people will be running over to figure out what pictures you're talking about... not my best work ;-)

      Cat

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      A great read and thank you for sharing.

      Voted up and shared.

      Eddy.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Eddy,

      Thank you so much! I'm very happy to see you gracing my page and enjoying!

      Thanks for the share too!

      Cat

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      Romeos Quill 3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      Cat

      I just wrote you a mini novella of a comment, but it just disappeared!

      I'll try again :)

      R.Q.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      D'OH!

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      Romeos Quill 3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      Cat

      No honestly;I didn't touch anything, and it just blew away!

      It actually contained the answer to your predicament.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Well then?

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      Romeos Quill 3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      Aw Cat :(

      Your wonderful, sad, but beautiful rhyme just makes me want to embrace you tightly, and tell you that everything is going to be alright.

      I'll try and condense this part.

      Your line, " How do I tell if it's real or fake? " is a good poser.Being suckered into a false love masquerading as the real thing keeps on happening, and it seems that with the gift of discernment, one can tell the difference between the two, but it is indeed a rare gift to behold, and not many folk are in receipt of it.

      In the case of a man, I remember that a good wife is sent by God, as it says in the Good Book, and so it seems that the answer lies in the heavens, in His hands;perhaps it works the other way also;a good husband is sent by God as well.It would take an inordinate amount of wisdom to know who the right one is, as the heart is a tricky, deceptive little article to deal with also.I reckon it depends on what kind of love you are seeking from a man as well.Mainly romantic, and erotic attentions I would presume, and friendship would be fulfilling for the most part of you, but is it possible for any one partner to give absolutely everything you need? I don't think it is.I've observed that women need a lot of attention from their friends too, and the Divine love that Faith Reaper alluded to can only be provided by God.

      R.Q.

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      Lurana Brown 3 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

      This reads like an enchanting, poetic journal entry...personal and storybook at the same time....but you deserve a happy-ever-after. Don't settle for less! :-)

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      R.Q.

      ‘Being suckered into a false love masquerading as the real thing keeps on happening’, that’s sadly awesome. So much real love out there to be had and yet, hidden by imposters too often.

      Your explanation was quite lovely and much appreciated. I don’t suppose I’m ‘looking’ for anything. With any and all relationships we encounter here on Earth, I just want them to be real and that goes for every/all.

      Again, I very much appreciate your comments and yes, that Faith Reaper is one, beautiful woman who understands and loves a great deal.

      Thanks again and have a wonderful day over there!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Lurana,

      I am blessed with another beautiful soul on this page! Thank you so very much, I value your opinion a great deal! ‘Happy-ever-after’ doesn’t have an expiration date, does it? :D …. Thank you, again!

      Cat

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      W1totalk 3 years ago

      It's this look into emotions that is hard to see. It's happened and its reality but its not right. I hope this is long gone. Beautiful poem .

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      W1totalk,

      Thank you so much! These are the kinds of words that write themselves when we allow ourselves to go to the darker places in our heart... it is long gone; thanks again!

      Cat

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      Man of Strength 3 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Hi Cat,

      I was about to put out an APB on you! Is everthing okay? It's not the same when you're not here. Geez, how corny I sound.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Man of Strength,

      Awww, thanks! lol... Actually, my brother came up from West Virginia to attend a 'Premo Cousin' family reunion that he headed up (much like the Care Bear Cousins... lol. I wasn't planning on going, but my family kidnapped me and ran me up to our childhood camp where I was held hostage for 2+ days! lol... I did have a lot of fun, but I've missed my little hubber friends!

      I'm glad you noticed I was gone... and concerned! lol.. thanks, you made me laugh! I've got a bunch of wet bathing suits and camping gear in my car that I've got to tend to... then I'll be back to hack away at the 400 notifications I'm behind! AHHHHHHHHHHH! lol

      Hope you had an awesome 4th of July... none of my family members lost any limbs! :D

      You're not corny! lol... I actually appreciate that!

      I'll definitely catch up with all you've done since I've been away!!!

      Cat

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      Man of Strength 3 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Thanks, I had a great Independence Day. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself as well. I've only published 1 while you were gone. I think you'll get a chuckle or two out of it.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Man of Strength,

      Ack! I know more than wrote my comment and my out of state brother that I had been camping with (during my absence from HP) showed up at my house and we ended up having a big ol' family BBQ at my parent's house! (In which I didn't return home until the wee hours of the morning!) But alas... he is back to his own state and I am back to HP... still trying to catch up. Of course, you just keep pounding them out! lol... Hopefully I can find some motivation in the shower... where I'm heading now!

      :D

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Cat went camping and didn't tell me !

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Cat didn't know! lol... I was gonna skip out on it, but I ended up getting dragged up there! Next time I'll tell ya and you can even come with me :D ...

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      dreamseeker2 3 years ago

      Wow, so much truth we as girls believe in...till reality sets in. Beautifully written and expressed! : ) Love the video too!! Voted it up, awesome and beautiful. Has to be shared!!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      dreamseeker2,

      Aww, thank you so much... your comments really made my night! I love love... lol, but I could write about disappoint a thousand times and still have chapters left! Luckily... I find a way to smile anyway! :D

      Thanks again girly!

      Cat

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 3 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      My Dear Cat. you write poetry they way I believe Poetry should be wrote. from the heart and love and pain and hurt and crying so full of emotion.. lol the way I like it.. you are awesome poetess.. keep on writing..

      sharing and voted way up

      Debbie

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      Joseph De Cross 3 years ago

      As Deborah said, you really write wonderfully. I wish I could read more. Just checking your work. Nice treat for the senses!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Beautiful, Sweet Debbie,

      You have no idea how wonderful that is for me to hear you say that! I so admire your writing and know that you are a natural. It is a passion and it is therapeutic, I write what I feel as I feel it and sometimes wonder if I should keep it to myself or not. You've given me wings!

      Thank you so much and big hugs to you!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Lord De Cross,

      Wow, you really came over, thank you; I'm honored! Thank you so much for the compliment and the visit, it means a lot! I'm still due your way myself!

      Thanks again!

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      my lovely kitty Cat.. this fairy tale is sad but only because your heart bleeds with the passion of your words.. A great poem Cat.. my sweet flower. Thank you for brightening my life . Even if it is just for a moment.

      Michael

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Michael,

      Thank you for your always beautiful words; you have certainly made your rounds and I owe you and myself, more visits to your page. I'm still curious to see how you became who you are and it all seems to come together, just a little in the words we write, because they are from the heart.

      Thank you again!

      Cat

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