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My Biggest Regrets
I will be 69 years old in a couple of weeks, Yes, just a little over a year from the big 70. That puts me well on the downhill side of my life. I often just think if I would have done things differently how would it have changed my life.
I was a very shy kid in school. I think that was mainly because I didn't have the most loving home life. Mom and Dad were constantly fighting and it was so bad that one night I left the house and slept in the back of the car. I had an uncle that was a heavy drinker and was pretty much known in the area as the town drunk.
That made me pretty shy around the girls in school. In fact once I did something that I never should have done and it got me suspended from school for three days. Naturally it didn't make my parents very proud of me and I realize that I was an idiot, but I guess that is part of growing up and learning to take responsibility.
I was an average student in school and I did not apply myself the way I should have. I often look back and realize that it is something I regret. Would I have been able to get better work? Would I have done in life what I wanted to? There is nothing wrong with being average, but if the ability is there and you don't take advantage of it then, like me, it is something you will regret later in life.
When I was a teenager I wanted to be a forest ranger, that never happened. Later I wanted to be a meteorologist. I was really interested in weather and kept records for a couple of years. That never happened either. My father and brother worked at a factory and I kind of just fell into doing that kind of work. Nothing wrong with it, but it was not my passion. I do regret that I spent thirty years working in manufacturing.
I spent four years in the military. When I got out, the local airport called me and wanted to know if I wanted to take flying lessons. The government would have paid ninety percent. However, at the time I was working around seventy hours a week at a carbon products factory. Not learning to fly is one of my biggest regrets. I was a flight mechanic when I was stationed in the Philippines.
I like to write, but since I never was interested much in school it gave me the feeling that I had no chance to do it. As I neared retirement age, I started to write short stories, several of those were published. After a couple of years of writing short stories I wondered if I could write a novel. I worked at it for the longest time and finally had it self-published. I have received good reviews on it. It has encouraged me to write three others. I very much regret not starting to write at an earlier age. After all starting to write at 60 years old does seem a little late. What would have happened if I had started to write while I was still in my 20s. I will never know.
One thing I don't regret is marrying my wife, Dominga. This December we will be married 47 years, we have a son and a daughter, five grandchildren, and one great granddaughter. My family life is something I will never regret. That worked out to perfection.
Copyright Larry W. Fish 2017