By Tony DeLorger © 2012
It is with a heavy heart that I hereby tender my resignation,
and in doing so alleviate the constant pressure and conscience of an irrepressible soul,
one forever open to the possibility of contentment, but overwhelmed by contention,
and the expectations of a fearless and pedantic master, myself.
What first I saw as sustainable has surely turned to shit in more ways than possible,
always shedding light on my own inadequacies and those who have judged me for it,
ever transforming an open heart, clinging to hope and some semblance of reason,
and a clear path to the happiness of resolution and the contentment of truth.
I fear I have taken on life with rose coloured glasses,
ever expecting greater things from myself and underestimating the imperfections that bind me,
the very core with which I struggle, the answer to every breath of denial,
and the learning of self, the acceptance of the irrefutable truth.
Finally, having fallen to myself so often, I resign myself unencumbered,
to let go the past with which I am tethered, lashed like a helpless beast,
and let my heart soar, regardless of state, into an uncertain future,
moments all that I have and will have, as life unfolds with trepidation.
Here in my husk I shall lay prostrate, touched by the warm winds of change,
open to the uninhibited and limitless arms of providence,
in every breath living with the thoughts of a loving heart,
and despite fault, forgiving what I cannot accomplish and accepting what I can.
I hereby resign from trying to please a world bent of indifference,
and follow a heart of good intentions regardless of opposition or judgement,
somehow finding peace in the maelstrom, honour in the battle,
and contentment at the end of days.