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My confession:How vulnerable I am!!

Updated on May 25, 2013

My life is exposed
now
here
like a pair of torn shoes
tied together by the laces hung up on the power line
you can see it
from afar
everyday,
anytime
it is a free show
you can eat popcorn
since it is long,
tedious,
abundant of swerves and upheavals
many times I wanted to get low from that height and be
someone so strong rather than this one in this body
who couldn't
tread on his heart
and let the hell break loose .
I failed,
unfortunately,
I am a weakly soul
since my birth
easy to trample on
easy to chew and throw as a core
It's hard to
say No when the whole world say Yes
and Yes when Maybe,
It takes me blood and guts
everyday to stand on my feet and be cool
the kids that I teach
always ask why do I frown
and never wear
a smile
when a sitcom
erupted
from the chaos
That I let to spread
within the four walls,
one door,
six windows.

Down
my life is.
in a periphery
of misery
I m stuck,
cant get out
no matter how hard I tried
straight, zigzag and winding
led only to a closed road.
am I doomed,
alone in this?.


once I thought to cut my wrists
to end it all
But the idea scared me and then
I recoiled
once I wanted to be a puppeteer
But my dad punched me in the eye
and locked me in a cell
underground
for several days
only with a biscuit
and bottle of water to keep me alive
until I withdrew
and made the compromise.
he was aspiring to hear.

So deceptively now,
I am here on this site
writing poetry
to find a way out
wih least harms,
to get recovered from my wounds
that never seem to heal,
clear my mind from cobwebs
that seem glued to the corners,
and dust out of my sight
that stands ten feet taller than myself
How unfair is that?
to use this place
as a hoard to store my psychological complexes
as punching bag where to blow off the steam of my anger
I've never been like this before
so pathetic,
so miserable
so parasite
and something I even myself
dont know
Sorry
for this inconvenience
for these hallucinations
It was a mistake
from the beginning
to sail away from the port
without oars
depending only on my whimsical wind
devouring this extending white empty space

"It is probably nothing" you may say and I am only
blowing it out of all proportion,
but to me it is not
It s like
a burden,
a hindrance ,
and stumbling-block.
I can feel its rope around my neck
tightening,
strangling
suffocating
the tube of life
while one foot stepped
over the edge the
other mired still in rot.
Help!

S.O.S




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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Cat,

      Oh,That s so sweet to say.You melted my heart:)I am swaying like a tree in summer breeze lol

      MuchES love and tonS of hugS to you!

      Thanks

      James

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James,

      You are a sweetheart and you have the most beautiful soul! You too, have provided me with emotional oxygen and I, forever will be grateful!

      I'm always here and never leaving... here's to breathing fresh air!

      Much love and tons of hugs and thanks for the wink ;-)

      Cat

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Cat,

      When you really listen to another person from their point of view and relating to their sentiments, and reflect back to them that understanding, it's like giving them emotional oxygen.Thanks so much for the EMOTIONAL OXYGEN.

      Your amazing.Really great woman!

      Much love and tons of hugs to you too.

      A wink from Morocco.

      James.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James,

      I can absolutely relate to your sentiments and each hurdle will bring moments of apprehension, hopefully, they will be easier to sort through and talk about. I am so honored and grateful that I was able to provide even the smallest bit of comfort to you and help you to realize that it is normal and healthy to talk about the good, the bad and the ugly. You have been just as much of a comfort and support for me James. You are proof that we are still humans and we still have feelings. Proof that we all have dark moments... most importantly; proof that we can rise from them!

      Much love and tons of hugs to you!

      I hope all is well

      Cat

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      Madeleine Salin 4 years ago from Finland

      I love the way you are writing,

      you are printing your soul here

      and leaving me with a feeling

      that this could be me

      and I love it, it strengthens me to read this

      and I now get more inspiration to write

      live to discover life and write about it.

      Thank you! This is poetry from the heart.

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      Rosemary Amrhein 4 years ago from Boston, MA

      Glad the poetry is "healing" you :)

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      My dearest sweet Cat,

      I am glad to hear that I am not the only person on this road but there are others as well.That relieves some pain :),one day will be okey and all manner of thing shall be well:)

      Before taking this journey I was afraid of being classified as psychopath and not being able to return back alive as heroes sometimes in mythology ,but now I can say for sure that I ve no fear or will have any regrets if I fail because of your stand and understanding..I mean your emotional life support that you pump into my head since my first steps out of my comfort zone.You have made me realize that in order to move on,we have to grieve and the best way is to go through it,not around it.I experienced before that if I went around some of the issues that were tearing me apart inside, then I would bump into them somewhere down the line, just like being caught in the center of a traffic circle.Now I think by going through the intense pain ,detach the attachment and box up all of my feelings, sort them, and then try to find a use for them.. I then eventually surfaced as a stronger person ready to tackle problems head on andsoon the pain will lost its stronghold over me.

      Much love and tons of hugs,

      James

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James,

      Here I had been trying to comfort and support you during your difficult times and yet... I feel that you have helped me! Those words you spoke are beautiful and that makes it all the more special that they're true! I so recognize this path you are on. I too can accpet pain and suffering as a part of our journey, but when you said people 'belittle your sufferings', you said it all, all that I know too well. I would guess you don't run around begging for pity, nor do I. Yet, when we are clearly struggling and asked of our struggles, that is the response we get. No one can understand the exact pain or grief in another's heart or mind and it may even seem trivial to them, but like you said... there is an 'emotional death' ... you and I haven't died yet dearest James, not even emotional... but we are definitely on 'emotional life support'! Wounds are healing and they will only continue to do so, we'll both get stronger and appreciate how much good there is yet, rather than focusing or dwelling on the failures. Your heart has been weakened, but you are a deep and strong man and I feel it in every word you speak! We'll be okay James... and thank you for taking time to mend another's heart when yours is in need of mending too!

      Much Love and Hugs,

      Cat

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      orlansison,

      Thanks so much for the visit and comment.I really appreciate that.

      Many blessings to you.

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Dear sweetest Cat,

      As you know,no pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It all stored up in our psyche .Some are stored in our short term memory and don't stick with us for very long, while others are filed away in our long term memory.The good thing about that storage is that they minister to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable,caring,comassionate,strong and more imortantly, worthy to be called humans.

      We are told by religious gurus,poets,philosophers..not to give up because you feel defeated and journey to the other side is attained only after great suffering.I accept that and I ve no objections,but sometimes it is different when the thing happens to oneself, not to others, and in reality, not imagination.What makes it worst is when you suffer a great deal and people belittle your sufferings as if they arent convinced of your reasons, of your sincerity, of the seriousness of your sufferings,only by physical death they could believe in what you went through.They dont believe in emotional death.Everything should be measuered by materielism.So long as you are alive, your case is doubtful; you have a right only to their skepticism as Albert Camus says.

      I believe love will come set me free,sooner or later.I am sure,I will be floating above and when I look back,I will look with pride and faith at the journey I have taken.Thanks so much for your beautiful and supportive words and of course beautiful song:)You really are helping me so much in my journey to recovery:)..I saw you are suffering something the same,if not ,so each of us has his own rhythm of suffering!

      Many hugs and warm hugs,I really appreciate you too,

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Vickiw,

      Thanks so much for your beautiful and deep insight.No doubt childhood trauma fundamentally changes the person. Many childhood disorders are now known to cast long shadows over later development. Equally importantly, many adult disorders are now recognised as having roots in childhood vulnerabilities, traceable in some instances to the very earliest stages of development.

      Yeah,time is my best friend and I still need it,There few issues that I must deal with,few rounds to run till I get my complete recovery.Thanks so much for your care and stand!I really appreciate that .

      Many Blessings to you,

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      You re welcome anytime:)

      Hugs and love,

      Tijani

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Thanks so much, Tijani!

      I appreciate you.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith,

      Thanks for taking time out and read my hubs.I really appreciate that:)It is okay,Just feel free:).Do what suits you,I dont mind.It is, in fact, a feather in my hat as British people say:)..I am doing my best to keep up lol

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Thank you dearest Tijani,

      You are too kind and I am not worthy of such praise from you, but thank you so much.

      I read your hub "My Weary Journey" and loved it, and hope it is okay with you that I linked it to my latest hub, as it fits perfectly :) I left you a comment on your hub.

      As much as I am humbled by your kind comments here, I believe you may be neglecting your other faithful followers here :)

      Hugs and love always, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith,

      it is a beautiful pseudonym.It has a meaning.No wonder, it really fits you so well.Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light .I think you are doing good job here,Only God could reward you !Being devoted to spread love and light in this Hub-ville is a noble mission.You are a very amazing woman.An angel sent from above .I am not exaggerating but you are.I am glad I met you!Really honored I am.Thanks for your stand and support!

      Tijani

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Tijani, I have never stated it here, but my real name or given name means "reaper" or harvester" and then I threw in the "Faith" part, as I am growing in my faith each day, as I state on my profile page. However, I do use my real name on Pinterest and Google+, so one just can follow me there :)

      I like to use this medium to glorify God and not really me, or at least that is what I attempt to do here, by showing His love to others through me.

      Agape love to you, Faith Reaper

      Agape love is divine love.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Thanks :) You re the first one who called me by my real name ..but wait what s your name if u dont mind me asking?

      Hugs,

      Tijani

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Oh, how beautiful, Tijani, and very sweet :)

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Oh :)Thanks so much my sweetest friend,By the way,my real name is Tijani (my crown) with light j.If you want to be the Queen,be the first and take the crown:)

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      I received them all!!! And they are sweeter than sweet :)

      Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Laila,

      Thanks so much for the sweet words and support.There will be sunshine after rain and peace after storm no matter how they last.

      Thanks for taking time and reading my works here.I really appreciate that.I am honored too to read yours.You are amazing!

      God bless!

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith reaper,

      WOW I am really speechless.You are so sweet and remarkable.Let me confess to you something: there is nothing in this world sweeter to me than having you around.Thanks for being.

      I wish if my grandmother married that man.I hope I am not wrong if I say that s why I was loved so much by my grandmother and now my mom so much,maybe my mom saw in me the lost love of her mom..Sigh..God bless her soul!amen.In our culture,in that time women were forced to marry men that parents chose .You know it s good to find parents involved in something like this,but to force daughters is really a crime.still some families do that but things are changing now and people are more educated and open-minded.

      Morocco was the first country in the world which acknowledged publicly the independence of the American Republic.In that time,Morocco was a very powerful country.You know Othello,Caliban, the Prince of Morocco, and Aaron are Moroccan characters :)

      Thanks so much for the hugs and love.Here are mine:

      xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox((((( hugs hugs hugs)))))xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

      James

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello, "My White Crown" :) I was just about to come and check on you, as you have been in my thoughts precious heart. I was reading your lovely profile page, and learned of the beautiful name your Grandmother had given to you. She sounds like she was/is a beautiful soul to have in one's life. Wow, Morocco, how very interesting. I genuinely love your "motto" you have there on your profile page, as it is a beautiful one.

      You have placed a smile on my face this day, as you indicated you will not stop writing!

      Hugs and much love going out to you in Morocco, all the way from southern USA, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith Reaper,

      You are so sweet.Thanks so much for your beautiful comment.It means a lot to me.I am trying as you know, to purge out all that s left unspoken and untouchable inside my soul .I think it is time to let go of and find my own remedy by myself. I cant spend the rest of my life mourning on things that I couldn't have.I must count my blessings and chin up.Our residence on earth is too short.You r right in everything you said.Non plus de chagrin.!No more sorrow.Thanks so much once again,it really soars my spirits.

      I will not stop writing!!! :)

      James.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James,

      You are a very special person and you may even have a purpose that you are unaware of and you may be serving some of that purpose now. It didn’t take me long to realize this about you and to be quite honest, I can relate to you more than you probably think. My presence is well known and I’m not quite or shy by nature and people would find it hard to believe that I suffer in silence. There are things and feelings that I have buried so deep inside and I find it easier to have a strong exterior while I know I have a poor, pathetic, pitiful child screaming on the insides.

      I think when you get to a place when you realize that others care about what’s happening beyond the exterior, you can start to let it unfold and begin to slowly heal.

      James, you spoke of thoughts of suicide and I’m not going to play preacher or mother bear and I truly believe you are beyond that. In the moments of my life when I couldn’t imagine things getting any worse and wondered how I would ever go on, I have said that beyond this drenched dark cloud there is sunshine waiting to beam down. Why would one want their last days to be on a dark, lonely, rainy day, when there is going to be a rainbow after the storm? Why give in and give up in the worst times when the best are yet to come? Don’t you want to see what beautiful things are in store yet. I tell myself that for every bad day I have, there will be 2 good days given in return. I’m still waiting for those days, but they are racking up and I’ll bet yours are too!

      I don’t do this often and I hope you don’t mind, but this has gotten me through these exact moments and I want to sing this to you …

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmDakhg45rk

      Much love to you, dear friend,

      Cat

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      orlansison 4 years ago from Pangasinan Philippines

      That was one great poem I ever read....thank you for sharing it.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Valleypoet,

      I am blessed to meet you too my new friend:)I am glad you commented.Thanks

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Cat,

      People who know me think I’m strong but underneath I am cracking and I cant help but wonder if I was gone....I know there are people out there in the same boat as me.I've had a tough going but things will pick up,i am sure because every time I am down,I rise and shout to let inertia know that I am still alive.I cant deny that there were times in my life when I thought suicide was the only way out but I was saved and it hit me that people do actually care,although it may not seem like it they do.I think one has to learn to open up more and let people know he is not okay.It's okay to say your not okay and you r vulnerable.No shame about that.

      What you said about me really boosted my confidence and made me really appreciate the importance of my self in this world .Maybe ,what makes look at myself in negatively because my fiascos are many more than my smash hits :)

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      Vickiw 4 years ago

      Hi James, many times people scoff at the idea that early childhood trauma and confused parenting can affect your life forever. But it does, and I think it is wonderful that you are so in touch with your inner self you have managed to define this as being a large part of your depression. That does demonstrate your sensitivity, and added to this your knowledge that writing is a form of therapy for you will protect and guide you through these times of sadness.

      The loss of loved ones, and other losses in life certainly do not help people who are already struggling. Sadly this is often the case, and it does seem that life itself is very unfair. I have an opportunity to see this every week as leader of a bereavement group. I want to say to you that this online writing community, with their caring and love will pull you through these dark times.

      This is something to remember. Time is your friend. Losses heal in time. They are never forgotten, but you are able to cope and continue. Each one makes you wiser and stronger, but you have to give your friend Time an opportunity to work this miracle. A hub love hug to you.

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      LailaK 4 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

      James, I fully understand. In my culture, unfortunately, the same idealogy exists. Very sad! Though I am very glad you're writing. More importantly, I am honored to read your works here on HubPages. Keep writing! I am very sorry for what had happened to you and always wish you the bestest in your life.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Minnetonka Twin,

      As William Wordsworth says: Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.So I am trying to leave some footprints,stamps, whispers,breathings here.The trail I mean like of the wet one snail leaves behind and you could say: from this road James passed long ago .look and take a lesson.Besides,I want to record this kind of life not only for myself but also for the kids if one day God may want me to have them.

      Thanks so much for the second comment.

      James

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello James,

      It is great to get it all out no matter whether through writing, talking, painting or however it needs to be done, as once it is purged from your very being, in some form or fashion, then healing can take place. I think most of us have been trampled on in this brutal existence we call life at some point.

      Just remember that no matter what you have been told, you are of great value and more valuable than any of the rarest gems on this planet! It is true, you are, really you are.

      Please continue to write it all out, do not hold back, if that is what it takes, then please continue to do so. You have a great gift you have been given.

      If you could see yourself as others do, then you would know how awesome you are, as there is not another just like you in this entire world, and that is what makes you so awesome, as you are unique, you are you, and that is just fine, no matter what!

      Sending out a big hug and a ton of love your way dearest James,

      Faith Reaper

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      Valleypoet 4 years ago

      Very powerful and raw....and a great poem...and i'm pleased to meet you James:-))

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      MartieCoetser,

      I like this place so much because Hubbers here are so friendly,loving,caring and compassionate.Yeah,writing is a form of therapy .It could rinse our souls and stitch for us a brand-new shoes to wear.Besides,there are many ways of getting strong, sometimes talking is the best way.

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Laila,

      It is never one thing that made us who we are. Some of it is biological but also personality, temperament, strengths, and talents. It is in part the context of our childhood: poverty, war, death of a parent or sibling, losses in the family.By identifying a particularly damaging event makes us aware and possibly more forgiving of us and others.Being a child in a big family and detached from dad s tenderness( he lived in France most of his life and just in summer vacations he came to visit and stay us for 20 days or maximum a month and the way he treated my mom have affected me so much.The only sweet memories I still recall of him from my childhood are not many to mention)I grew up like an orphan and with an odd feeling that my dad was just a guest and an iron bird ,the same way James in the novel of Virginia Wolf looks at his dad.

      I agree going to a therapist can be much helpful but here where I am people dont go to therapists because in my culture ,this kind of medicine is not welcomed .As you know,some people seek the comfort in drugs, other head to the corner pub and dive into a pint, but I chose writing as my therapy.I really feel a much better person when I write.

      Thanks so much for the stand and the advice.I really appreciate that.

      James

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James,

      I could only wish you were half as good to yourself... I don't think you see you for what the rest of the world does, we see you for everything you are; I suspect you see yourself for what you believe you are not. This is possibly the best therapy and release for the soul and your sharing only enables the rest of us to become vulnerable with you and with that vulernability comes opportunity for great things. I am grateful for you!

      Much love and hugs to you James,

      Cat

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      Linda Rogers 4 years ago from Minnesota

      You didn't scare me James~I was actually so glad you purged and shared. Keep up the writing and healing. Your healing yourself as well as your readers. You are right, this family of Hubpages in incredibly supportive and caring. Again, your not alone my friend :-)

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      Martie Coetser 4 years ago from South Africa

      Dear James

      HubPages is just the place

      the way out

      with least harms,

      to get recovered from your wounds.

      For me it was. Once all the poison is out, you will be a brand new wolve.

      Writing is the best therapy - the best way to rinse the soul.

      Touching hub, reminding us of the time(s) we were face down on the bottom of the well of despair.

      Don't give up!

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Hey Debbie ,my dearest friend:

      I am sorry for scaring you.As I said before just wanted to purge what was bolted up inside for many years.I am alright as long as I am surrounded by friends like you:)Thanks for the care and tenderness.

      Many blessings to you!

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Martin,

      I am really sorry if I upset you by this confession.I just wanted to get it out.I want to be free from it.Thanks for your insight.

      Many blessings to you!

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Minnetonka Twin,

      Thanks for your insight and support.I agree with you writing is a form of therapy , I wonder how all those who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness and melancholia which is inherent in a human situation.I ve been invited to share my work in other sites but I like this place because of friends.All of you are awesome and great and I am sorry if I scared you.

      James

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      Linda Rogers 4 years ago from Minnesota

      James~I have goosebumps from reading this magnificent piece of work that came straight from your soul. Every single one of us on HubPages or any other writing site is here not only for the passion of writing. We all have things to purge~none of us is without the pains that come with living. You are not alone in your struggles~I have healed so much since starting to write again after years of setting it aside. God Bless you James and thank you for sharing.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      marcoujor,

      Thanks for the insight.I feel I'm much better every time I delve deeper into portions of my own psyche.It is kind of a therapy .Maybe my ability to explore the depth of my soul as you said comes from my nature.I am a very sensitive person.Here,in my country there is a flower called Boydonan,if you sing to it a sad song,it shrinks quickly and looks like it is weeping,maybe I am like that :)

      Thanks so much !

      Many blessings to you!

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Wayne,My dear friend:

      My scribbles here in this community are not necessarily autobiographical. A lot of drafts are a combination of influences. It might be some part of my life, or something I've felt, or something somebody's told me. It all comes together but this one , unfortunately, is about me ,I ve been through many traumatic experiences..I am sorry I scared many here.I didnt mean to..just felt wanna share my inner world with you all cause I trust you.I think this is what friendship is about.

      Thanks so much for your stand and support!

      James

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      LailaK 4 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

      James, I love your poetry as you know, but I am very worried about you. Sometimes our childhood experiences flashback in our faces and affect us greatly. They can cause sadness, depression, and can lead to suicide. I know that writing serves as your punching bag, but I think you should consider seeing a therapist if you haven't already. God bless you!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      JAMES... You are scaring me.. are you alright? dear one you are in my prayers.. please don't think that way.. Now I know how writers use word to help us emotionally.. which is good.. but your words are scaring me..

      James you have so many friends here that love you and respect you my friend.. God Bless you my friend

      Debbie

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Cat,

      Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy.They said to share your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable and open to pain and hurt by others.On the contrary,what I see here is something else ..so beautiful I mean.Your stand proves me that there is nothing wrong to share your weakness and being exposed .Thanks so much for being good to me.I really appreciate that.

      James

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      Martin Kloess 4 years ago from San Francisco

      i hope this is just an excellent poem. I have sat with one like this at his death-bed. It wasn't pretty.

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      Maria Jordan 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      James,

      This piece is raw and relatable. We are all so fragile about something / many things in our life.

      Not many writers have the ability to reach the depth of their souls and put vulnerability in words. You really do.

      Always take care of yourself and remember how special you are.

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      Wayne Barrett 4 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      James, maybe it is because you are unleashing your soul with no inhibitions in this piece (which is what I like), but I think this is one of the best I have read of yours. Brilliant, powerful heartfelt. I am voting this one up and sharing. Bless you my friend.

      And if some of this is true...we have a lot in common.

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      Cat 4 years ago from New York

      James, this is deeply touching and tragic all in the same, but not pitiful; it’s realness and truth, it’s all of our worst moments. We all have dark places and heavy hearts; we all struggle and ask why? James, it is not unfair for you to use this for that, for you are contributing to the health and growth of my heart and many others and inadvertently your own too! James, your writing is indescribable, it draws me in every time and I feel like I’m sitting on a rock next to you. You have a talent, many talents. Leave those ugly tattered shoes up on the line… you’re working on a shiny new pair!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      HappyMikeWritter,

      Thanks so much my dear friend for your supporting words.I really appreciate it.

      have a wonderful weekend!

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      HappyMikeWritter 4 years ago

      You are an incredible, amazing and wonderfull poet****deal with it!

      Another great poem of yours