My life so far.
Everyone wants inspiration, everyone searches for inspiration, some find it, some don't, but that is inspiration, it requires to be found, to be searched for, because inspiration is not the end of the search, inspiration is the search itself.
Its rather hard to have a college life, studying and having fun at the same time are both different things. In college you'll learn insomnia, you'll learn freedom, you'll learn a lot of things. I learned a lot of things, I learned that you need to live your life now, because later on, your life will change for the worst or for the better, depending on how well you worked for your future. That's what one of my Professors said to us in class and let me tell you, he said a LOT of things.
I've been busy with a lot of things lately, all of them, important to settle for my future. Everything in my life does not revolve in one certain idea, a certain goal, or a certain moment, instead my life consists of different broken pieces connected together by me, the person who works for my future and for my life. Its been a busy life so far, and I kind of like it, keeps me aware that I am still alive and kicking.
So far, I did more extra curricular activities than high school. I wished that I did more during high school, but now,I can do more and be more,because I strive more during this time in my life, now I really want to be a part of something.
So how's my life so far? Stressing, fun,worthwhile. It has been quite sometime since made a hub, I don't really have an excuse for that. I guess my inspiration, as well as my sleep, both have been thrown out the window. Students in college have weird sleeping habits. Not me though, not yet.
Working through stress and living up to what others may think of me, is hard, both are different and both can be put into one phrase: "Living up to the stress of what others think of me." In that category of others, consists of friends and family, and there are a lot of people looking at me to have a brighter future, the question is, have I really worked for my future?
During the first semester of college, things have changed, a lot. There's a lot of freedom here and there, and the ability to not attend classes is rather tempting. The way people act are different too, they seem to be more free and less constricted, unlike high school. With a different environment and a new start, so how did I start my future?
To tell you the truth I started it with a blast. Joining new things, doing things I haven't done before, limitations are meant to be exceeded, and I'm breaking my barriers as of now. Choices, well my choices weren't that good as of now. I lived my life, with my parents deciding for my future and me accepting the choices they make, now I have to make my own choices, and that is one of the things that scare me.
I was living in the choices of others throughout my life, and not to deny the fact that our choices are made by others since they affect us fully with whatever they say or do to us, but choices are made by us, and these choices require us to make them right. I believe that there are no wrong choices, just choices that we make, and choices that we fix to make them right. Now, I decided to stand for myself, being a leader is one thing to develop the ability to choose and so I choose to be a leader when others can't. I choose to stand when others fall. But as the law of gravity says: "Everything that goes up must go down." The same with energy, energy can be gained, energy can be lost, but never disappears into nothing.
My energy as well as my inspiration as of now is pretty low. Right now I am recuperating from the tiring days of my life and I know that there are more to come, there is one thing I would like to add though when it comes to inspiration.
Inspiration or as I would like to call it as hope(Even if they are not the same) is the core of all living things. People live for that reason, and without it, people would fade and disappear, without hope or inspiration, people will become empty and become more less of a living thing. We breath in inspiration, same as air; breath in and breath out, we also breath out inspiration, in other words we gain it then inspire others for we are inspired once we can always be inspired again. Inspiration is the never-ending, never depreciating, never dying energy of the universe. It is there for us to consume and give, it is there for us to make a change. You may lose inspiration, but inspiration never loses you.