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My weary journey

Updated on March 2, 2013
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On hilltop high

A traveller

In rags

With an empty bag on a stick

Bound straight

To the cliff

Shortwinded

Bleeding,

Sweating ,

Spent,

Clustered,

Jet-lagged ,

Tagged

Like Lorca taken out to shot

In a lush field of olive trees.

Between Viznar and Alfacar,

The devil’s long thin nailed fingers

Scratched the beautiful world.



How lonely up here

This tiny loft

This barren remote toft

He said in a sorrowful tone,

His head hardly up,

But his eyes as wide as two farmer’s strides

With a grief that could milk a cow

Staring at the fog,

Silence,

The never-ending emptiness.

How dreadful up here

He returned to his soliloquy

This sudden full-stop

This weary journey

Certainly not worth the hype,

The guts,

The penny.

I've seen the worst,

The woes,the horrible

But this moment must be the unbearable,

I am stuck

Pushed

Dashed

Should I sit embracing my knees,

Regurgitating the stories of the mythical beasts slain with my bare fists

And all the regrets as leaves drifting into the gutter

Washed by the sweeping rains?

Should I take an other step forward

And dance on the fine line of perdition's edge?

Is it gainful

Worth

Trying

Dying

As a last ditch-attempt

To spread wings and set to the breeze?

No,This is a dangerous acrobatic

As my Mom told me once

When I tried to jump through the window as Batman

I am not born by this talent,

To venture everything in one gulp

In one step,in one thud.

What should I do then?

I am so tired,

Unable to make it go

Enlighten me !

The ghost of the lost flying ship!

Is there

A trick to turn back the clock

To the jumping-off point?

A magic wand to turn my life to the womb

And my knowledge to zero gain?

I am in a tight corner

Exactly,

Half step out of sanity

No connection with the rest of the herd.

Like a hawk on a pole

With wings clipped

Under the shedding light

Frozen

No going back from the divide could help nor

Going forward clapping what it s left of it

Could bring it back to the sky ,

It's a dead horse case

Closed,

Useless to beat

Useless to pump a new blood into the dried-up veins

It's tough to kiss the ashes

And teach during the nocturnal survilliance

The best way to to cook fall-off-the-bone baby-back ribs

Tougher it is to spill all my heart ,thoughts,scars like a dying guru

-Who has no life for one more day to stand -

On a Rosseta stone

And leave the stage for the rain to splash ballet.

As a child I was taught

All the rivers must run down to the ocean

No matter how long it takes

And all the birds must return to their nests

No matter how far off they are

But myself no longer recall the steps taken

The bitter battles

I fought

The drilling holes

Where I fell and leaped out like a deaf frog successfully

But alas! as a lame I lived a life afterwards

The walls

Where I used to perch within

And ate my daily bread

Under a leaking roof above

Tumbled down by wicked sharp winds.

The crunching tires

O’ the crunching tires

On the gravel path to the whirlpool of beauty

Much grace

Much pain

deflated.

This journey certainly

Not worth the hype,

The guts,

The penny

I must admit

Today ,not my day

Never has been

The day

The compass

The strength

The womb of light.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith,

      Thanks so much for the beautiful comments.It seems as if I had many projects on my desk left unfinished.Every time,I release one to the light,and other one takes its place..a never ending circle lol which means writing has got me in its ball and chain lol

      You too have a lovely wonderful threeday weekend.Enjoy your time.Have a blast!

      Hugs and love from Northern Morocco,My Crown:Tijani

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Morning Dearest "My White Crown": Tijani,

      Well, it is morning here :)

      Oh, I am the one who is blessed to link such amazing poetry. And I should have commented here on this particular piece that your description "long thin nailed fingers", is in reality, a very true description of those demons or the "devil's" nails, as I have had a glimpse into that unseen realm, and for you to write of such, you must have as well.

      I have found that our true life experiences are always far more interesting and even profound/dramatic than anything we could ever dream up, and so plenty to write, yes indeed!

      I am looking forward to reading more of your work, and glad you are due for a vacation soon :)

      Have a lovely weekend. It is a three-day weekend again here for me, as Monday is another Federal holiday again, so I will take it! hehe

      Hugs and love from southern USA, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith ,

      Thanks so much for linking my writes to your works.It really means a lot to me .I hope always to keep up good work.If only I have much time to write..sigh ..cause I have heaps to tell and share with you,but dont worry soon I will be on vacation hehe

      Have a wonderful Friday there.

      Hugs and love from Northern Morocco,White Crown:Tijani

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Thank you so much dearest Tijani! You are so gracious and kind, and I believe I will be linking much of your amazing writes, as they are . . . well, superb.

      Oh, me, you have all of your great talent to offer and share with us all each day here, and it is such a blessing to read one who is truly gifted beyond measure, trust me.

      Thank you for such beautiful hopes for me, and I hope you have the most beautiful day ever and each one to follow is even more so . . . My White Crown, Tijani

      Hugs and love from southern USA, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Faith,

      It is really a honor to have this piece of write attached to your latest hub.Thanks,it really means a lot to me!anytime,you like anything,just take it,it is free and I am sorry that s all what I can offer :) and I hope you for you too beautiful day,filled with love and light.

      Tijani

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Morning Dearest Tijani (James),

      Wow, this one is so very dramatic and profound, with much deep reflection as to one wandering and lost, searching and searching.

      I really would love to link this to my latest hub, as it seems to fit, plus it is superb writing dear heart.

      I hope your day is a beautiful day filled with a lot of sunshine, not only shining down upon your face, but shining in your heart.

      Voted up ++++ and sharing

      Peace and blessings, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @ Lady_E,YEAH, I will.Thanks

      Have wonderful weekend.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @Rosemay50.Thanks for the visit.Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards :)

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      Elena 4 years ago from London, UK

      Hi, just reading your response. Sometimes, it get's really busy for me and I'm online briefly, but you have my email. Drop me a line anytime. Have a lovely weekend. :-)

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      Rosemary Sadler 4 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

      Interesting poem. Sometimes we need to look into the past and dust away the cobwebs that block our way to the future.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @anglnwu.Thanks for the visit.I am glad you like it.

      Have a nice day.

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      anglnwu 4 years ago

      Lovely, I love the repetition in the end. Enjoyed it thoroughly.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @ DDE .Thanks so much for the visit. Yes, life will always have daily challenges because we’re not in heaven yet:)

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      Devika Primić 4 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Life has many challenges and you have expressed this so beautifully in poetry, such an interesting output on life.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Yes my chwaer .That’s the point of writing therapy. Words act as a medium for expression and catalyst for clarity or at least illumination. In writing our experience, we move beyond the factual detail, obvious chronology, and surface reaction. We delve into the heart of the beast and come out changed for the passage.Thanks Eddy.

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      Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

      Wow my brawd some great words here !!!Isn't it brilliant that writing is therapeutic for us and also for others reading our work.

      I am well tuned into my inner being and I know that this connection has strengthened by my writing as time goes by.

      Have a wonderful day and I vote up,across and share.

      Eddy.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @dreamseeker2.Thanks so much for your insight.Life is about a conflict between light and darkness.Thanks for the vote.

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      dreamseeker2 4 years ago

      I felt your pain, the grasp for purpose to go on in life. The regrets reflected in each word chosen to present it. Oh, how sad and full of spent life, with a faint light of hope to continue through what had been and what still could be. Wonderful piece of poetry! Had to be voted up and awesome! : )

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @billybuc .So I would rather walk with you in the dark, than alone in the light ;)

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Great emotions and sharing of those emotions. There are times when I need to re-visit the darkness in my life and learn new lessons from it.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Yes,she is better now.Thanks so much for asking.I really missed you here.Where have you been ?

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      Elena 4 years ago from London, UK

      Wow... quite a deep, touching story in there....but you must keep on taking one step at a time. With every step, you are getting closer to your treasure. (Ps. hope your mum is better now)

      Best Wishes.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @ Mhatter99 .Thanks for your stand .That s so sweet of you.

      Have a wonderful Sunday

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      Martin Kloess 4 years ago from San Francisco

      Thank you for sharing this insight. I can't help but feel we all share with you.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @Debbie.Thanks so much for the visit.I am glad that you like the way I write poems.Your insight and encouragement means a lot to me.

      Have a beautiful weekend.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      @cleaner3.Thanks for the visit.I am glad you like it.Yes ,it helps to relieve some pain and clear my mind from the cobwebs and dreadful thoughts and I like to write because I want to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect .

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      James.. I was so sad at first and then got concerned for you my friend and then the end was great.. I want to hug you.. very delightful at the end.. I o love the way you write your poems and how they come together..

      Debbie

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      cleaner3 4 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      wow, many expressions of deep reflection my friend . hang in there, writing is great therapy.. I know it has helped save me also my spiritual friend