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Seasons Never Wait

Updated on July 12, 2013


A gust of wind blows through my hair

I cannot breathe, despite the air.

The sun is shining, but I can’t feel its heat

I grab my chest and check for a beat.

The rain, it comes and it’s pouring down

My tears blend in and with rain, they drown.

Yet, they never seem to disappear

When the clouds are gone

And the sky is clear.

A rainbow stretches across the sky

An apology for the rain

Fully aware of its beauty

But it fails to heal my pain.

Leaves begin falling, lifeless from the trees

I shudder to think of a colder season

And like leaves I fall, to my knees.

Winter comes; days are short and cold

I know Spring is on its way

But I’m not excited for what it holds.

When there is no difference in my day.

Life returns again, to everything that’s died

But I have spent the last four seasons

Surrounded by beauty and still I cried.

It doesn’t matter the forecast,

There is no rhyme nor is there a reason

It doesn’t matter how I feel

There is no waiting, for the seasons.

There are moments, when in nature

I feel completely free

But when I am lost and broken

They do not wait for me.

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      Jennifer 3 years ago from Lost...In Video Games

      Aw...kitty Cat! This was so sad and beautiful at the same time. Voted it up and sharing!

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      Michael Valencia 3 years ago from Los Angeles, CA

      wow. depressing but very moving. well done!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      writinglover,

      Thanks... superwoman! I was out on calls and came home to a computer that was struck by lightning! How unfair... I had this hub up, but hadn't pushed published before I left. I had to scrounge around for an old computer and by the time I got it hooked up... I could've wrote a whole new hub about 'suffering through the season'... lol. Darn Rain! :D

      Thank you... I'm home now! I should be able to catch up :D

      Cat

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      Jennifer 3 years ago from Lost...In Video Games

      Yeah! Alright! Woot! You're a superwoman, too, ya' know!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      SoundNFury,

      Aw, thank you! I guess my motivation is depressing! Hey, I smile every day though!

      Thanks so much for visiting, it's so nice to see you! Thanks for the compliment too!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Ha ha... see, you snook right in there again! lol... You're so funny and FAST! Okay... Mind Dance it is! :D

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      Jennifer 3 years ago from Lost...In Video Games

      I'm not The Flash for nothing, Cat. LOL! :D

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I read it in 45 seconds because it was so smooth and fast paced. Hairs stuck out. So I listened to Kiss the Rain and read it again slow. Sometimes great people do things. Perhaps we are not great, but my friend you did a great thing here.

      I am moved and gave all accolades which is not my style. But a great piece comes along once in a while.

      Merci Beaucoup My beautiful lady.

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Cat, this is brilliant! I couldn't help but feel the emotions with every word written. You are such a talented individual. Thank you for sharing.

      (Voted Up) -Rose

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      writinglover,

      No kidding... you should join a contest of sorts! lol

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Dearest, Sweet, I-understand-you-Eric,

      Thank you, what can I say? I love love and I love giving love and I love to be love... but I've got enough broken-hearted material to fill a stadium :D

      I'm not certain the song is a perfect fit for my sentiment, but I understand and feel her pain just the same and it's fitting for my heart's mood.

      I love and I cry... but I laugh and I still love. It will be okay.

      Thanks Eric, truly... you and your words are a beautiful treat!

      Six years of French and I still don't know how to say You're Welcome! lol

      Mais, merci beaucoup mon ami!

      Chat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Rose,

      You're such a sweetheart! And you're still kicking but and taking names! ... but in a sweet kind of way ;-)

      I appreciate you and I'm glad you seem to appreciate my 'bipolar' kind of ways... lol; laughing today, crying tomorrow :D

      Thanks again, Rose!

      Cat

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 3 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Wow amazing poem here.. You outdid yourself. I could tell it was your heart that wrote.. Love you just the way you are...

      Blessings to you

      Sharing

      Debbie

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Debbie,

      Oh my goodness, thank you! You have made me feel so honored tonight! I think so highly of you and your writing, I don't know that I could've received a better compliment from a more talented lady!

      My heart is a heavy one... but there is a lot of love in there and I still offer it eagerly.

      Thank you so much and blessings to you!

      Cat

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      Romeos Quill 3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      My Catherine,

      This verse bled to the rhythm of your heart, and this was something special.

      We can't control the weather, but sometimes we can control how we respond to it, every day, with that pivotal choice, every morning, crying ' Yes I will ', or ' Not today '. Protect that wellspring of life, and guard such a precious asset well.If you cannot, then I shall guard it for you, but either way, guard it diligently.

      Yours Truly,

      Romeo's Quill

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Romeo,

      Thank you... your words are very sweet and mean a lot. I've been going through a bit of a low dip as of late and I walked outside the other day, sun beaming in my face and I had tears in my eyes. I thought, 'how dare the sun be smiling when I am so low, does it not even care what is upsetting me?' I realized that our worlds can be falling apart but time stops for no one and neither do the seasons. Suffering in silence and solitude.

      It's hard to protect something when you don't know what you're protecting it against. I will try and I appreciate the sentiment very much.

      Yours Truly,

      Cat

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      Romeos Quill 3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      Cat

      I wouldn't flannel you, because I know about death - suicide, baby death, nearly dying myself, depression.When you send your private mail, talk.....my ears are wide open.

      Yours Truly,

      R.Q.

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      Martin Kloess 3 years ago from San Francisco

      Therefore...? Wonderful poem. It was 1992 when I fully saw your dream. thank you

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      epigramman 3 years ago

      Well Cat you are a woman for all seasons and a true force of nature when you write like this - no wonder the sun asks for your permission to rise each day into the sky because with the smiles you bring to your readers each time you write - no one can outshine the sun except someone like you.

      lake erie time 4:17am

      Hello Romeo , how are you doing buddy? No hard feelings for I have walked down the same path as you my friend

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      Deonne Anderson 3 years ago from Florence, SC

      Your poem is so sad and seems to be coming from a very dark place. I can relate to your pain as I was in that place for a long while. When I got sick and tired of being in that place, I made a decision to come out...to live and to experience life once again. Though it was a struggle, I came back out into the light....I pray that I will never go back to that place again. Writing about your feelings and sharing them with others who can relate on a personal level can be healing and therapeutic. Keep on writing and reaching out. I and your hub family is here for you. Voted up and sharing.

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      Anupama 3 years ago from Nepal

      Indeed...Seasons never wait!!!

      soft melting poem :)

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      W1totalk 3 years ago

      This is one of those things where you realize life keeps moving and seasons keep changing in this stuttered rhythm. Great poem Thank you always Cantuhearmescream.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Aw, dearest Cat,

      Wow, this is an amazing piece of poetry here, so dramatic and intense are your expressive words precious heart. You have captured well those seasons we all must go through in our lives, even when they may be dark seasons. We know the sun will truly come back into our lives, for each new day is a new day for hope and love.

      Thank you beautiful Cat for sharing your heart here. This is such a heartrending piece, and I know we all do have days like this or even periods, and I hope you come out of this season soon. Keep that beautiful smile going.

      Voted up ++++ and sharing

      Hugs and love to you from southern USA,

      Faith Reaper

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      Man of Strength 3 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Hi Cat,

      This is beautiful and very poignant. You always have the most amazing pictures in your work. Sometimes when you're going through something, the days and months just seem to blend. It can be difficult knowing which day is which. Keep up the great work. Voted up, as always.

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      Man of Strength 3 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Hi Cat,

      This is beautiful and very poignant. Sometimes when you're going through something, the days and months just blend. Keep up the great work. Voted up, as always.

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      Tijani Achamlal 3 years ago from Morocco

      The outstanding imagery in this romantic love poem is enhanced by your poetic choice of heavenly metaphors blended with the rhythm flowing from your heart. In other words I love it

      Voted up

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      Bill Holland 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Written by a true poet, Cat. You captured the pain and loneliness and sadness perfectly....almost as if you understood these feelings from experience. :)

      bill

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Mhatter99,

      Your words have a way of going right pass the ears and directly to the heart... you could make me cry. Thank you, Martin.

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Good Morning-ish, dear Colin,

      I'm so happy to see you've made it home from work safe and sound!

      You are such a wonderful friend and your words always make me smile. You are the sunshine... you make me happy, when skies are gray! :D

      Thank you for being such a beautiful and supportive friend!

      Hugs to you and Miss Tiffy and Mr. Gabriel

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      ladydeonne,

      Sometimes it’s hard to put yourself out there like that, but isn’t part of writing just letting it go? Thank you for sharing with me and I’m sorry that you were in such a place but I’m happy you are no longer there and I see no reason for going back with a heart and mind like yours. Sometimes we think things are out of our hands… but we are ultimately, in control, it’s just hard to realize at times.

      Thank you so much, you’ve really made me feel supported, that means a lot and I appreciate it!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Anumaha,

      Thank you so much! I really appreciate the compliment and the visit. I guess if seasons don't wait for us, we need to learn how to roll with them!

      Thanks again,

      Cat

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      MizBejabbers 3 years ago

      Gosh, Cat, it sounds like the three years I spent in depression from an undiagnosed illness. I hope she survives. The seasons pass by without notice, and without caring. Good description my poetic friend. Voted up and beautiful.

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      Linda Rogers 3 years ago from Minnesota

      Aww~this is so sad Cat. I sure hope this isn't you right now. Great writing my friend. I had to hit many buttons and vote up on this gem. Hope all is well in your world.

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      vandynegl 3 years ago from Ohio Valley

      Depression sucks.

      I love the poem though because it is a true example of how a person feels, even through the changes of the seasons. No one really knows the feeling until they experience it themselves.

      Thanks for writing! :)

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Cat darlin , you know I love the seasons , its kind ava love hate thing huh ?....I am never

      ready for the changes . Why do we have to run run run .......god , I'm always hurrying !somewhere .lol I love your thoughts as they become lines ! Awesome ! Stay sweet Cat......

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      drbj and sherry 3 years ago from south Florida

      Thanks, Cat, for using your talent to move so many readers with your writing. Voted up, m'dear.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      W1totalk,

      Stuttered rhythm, yes... that's such a perfect description.... much like how my emotions seem to work! :D

      Thanks so much for the visit and the compliment!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      My Sweet Friend, Faith Reaper,

      Thank you so much for your always love words and uplifting ways! I go through these moments when I wonder where I am, where I’ve been and where I should be and get a little down… and then I realize the world doesn’t stop. It just keeps going, whether I’m ‘in’ or not. It’s a lonely place to visit and I try to not stay there long. I do smile every day, I love every day and I’m grateful, every day… so at least I have that!

      Thank you for allowing me to share my heart and reminding me the sun will shine again! You really are such a dear sweet friend and I very much admire all of who you are!

      Thanks again!

      Hugs and love to you… from the smaller part of NY!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Man of Strength,

      Hey you! I was about to come looking for ya! :D Oh, that is so true; how often I don’t know what day it is, sometimes month or occasionally year! Lol

      Thank you for all the compliments, buddy and the visit too!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Gentle Wolf,

      Thank you… that was so beautiful and you even got a little chuckle out of me! You’re a sweet heart and I appreciate you! (A lot of news the last few days regarding your current concerns! I know you’ve got a new hub or two up and I’ll most certainly be your way!)

      Thank you buddy,

      Hugs ~ Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Billy,

      You almost scare me because I sometimes think you know too much! lol... But I'm not scared, it's okay! :D Thanks so much for the compliment Billy, it really means a lot! Hey, I might not be able to save myself, but that doesn't mean I can't try to save the world, right? :D

      I'll be your way shortly!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      MizBejabbers,

      Oh dear, it breaks my heart to know that you had such a long bout of depression. I’m so happy that you found the cause and I’m assuming ‘fixed’ the problem. You’re such a joy, I’d have never guessed. We all have our sunny days and our dark ones, don’t we? Do you ever just exist for a while, without living? I’m kind of at a place where I’m wondering how much time I’ve wasted… it’s sad and I shouldn’t spend my time looking back, but looking forward is sometimes scarier. I’d never survive without my love of laughter though… I love laughing and making others laugh… I try to play on that playground as often as I can! :D

      Thanks so much beautiful lady!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Minnetonka Twin,

      Oh, one of my newest and most awesome friends! Thank you, you are so sweet! I am a happy person, by nature (no pun intended :D ) but I have dark days, yes I do, I think it's a result of being a 'too-deep-thinker'! I don't need a doctor or medication... so I think I'll survive :D

      Thank you so much for your generosity and I MUST really get your way!

      Hope all is well with you!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Vandynegl! I just love seeing you!

      Thank you… and that’s so true. I do wonder if there are people who go through all of life without ever having a dark moment. Luckily, I think I have bouts of darkness rather than periods… you know? It’s overthinking and looking back, sometimes looking ahead? I’m pretty much a happy camper… as long as I’ve got my mind occupied.. lol Where are those rubber walls when you need them. :D

      Thanks girly!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Ed, dear, I do love the seasons… but I realized the seasons do not love me back… another life disappointment! The sun does not stop shining to ask me why I’m crying… it just keeps shining as if to say ‘too bad for you!’ … lol. I sat under that condescending sun the other day, with tears in my eyes and I just know it was laughing at me… lol. It’s hard to suffer in silence and have someone give a darn at the same time! Ask me why I’m sad; I couldn’t even tell ya, just one of those things I guess! Thank goodness those moments pass.

      I do love nature though, that is where I find myself really letting it all out!

      Thanks Eddy bear for stopping by… and of course, your loving support!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      drbj,

      Oh, the funny lady saw me cry... I'm so embarrassed. I definitely need to go your way for a laugh today!

      In seriousness, thank you very much... I really appreciate your comment! Thanks for the visit!

      Cat

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Cat I have long since learned that women and men cry for differnt reasons and in different ways , I know too that crying in the sunshine or laughing in the rain sometimes can make no sense at all ! So lets just say I understand .....and here's my shoulder for you ! You have a face that was made for smiles there -beautiful ! And something tells me that when you do smile ...its Magic , and when you cry ? just tragic !LOL ....ed

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      Karen Silverman 3 years ago

      awwwww....my sweet friend! Come on over and we'll do a few shots of tequila and you'll feel good as new! LOL.

      (kidding...or am i?)

      4 seasons you say? Well, that should about do it then! 'They' say -whomever THEY are - that one year of mourning is enough. Anything after that needs professional help...

      Listen -i'm mourning my 14 year old puppy - and she's STILL here, so - who am i to give advice..

      you know i adore you and your poetry - but mostly YOU!

      you know where to find mexx

      sharing!

      ps - EVERYTHING is better in HEAT - even MISERY!

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Cat,

      After reading your poem, Ecclesiastes-3/1-13 kept coming to mind. To cry in the sunshine or laugh in the rain is to feel life on a deep level. I believe that is what makes this poem so beautiful: it comes from that deep place inside where our truths reside. I also believe that honesty is what makes you-you and your poetry so relatable for so many people-including myself. Voted Up/Awesome/Shared.

      Best Always,

      Kim

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      Wayne Barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Cat, what an emotional moving piece. Very beautiful work my dear poet.

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      Michael John Mele 3 years ago from Seffner, Florida

      Girl you are truly one of the best writers I know...I am so jelly. Can you take me under youyr wing and teach me the way of the force.

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      Paula 3 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      cat....without giving away your exact location.....what PART of NY is yours? You can always email me, if you like.

      About your hub.....you made me sad. You made me sad for you AND me....I seem to recall some of those dreaded thoughts.....It helps to share and purge them......IF WE CAN. I never could, still really can't. I firmly believe that's why I've been the LISTENER, all of my life.....and helped others work out the demons, I seem to carry through all. Go figure! GREAT hub......sad, but great. UP+++

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      Vincent Moore 3 years ago

      The true talents of a Poet is when one can move the audience. You claimed that with this sad but poignant scribe. Well done my poet. Filled with emotion and melancholy indeed. Voted up shared and tweeted.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Eddy Bear, now I feel twice as bad I'm a day late on your hub (which I'm going directly to after this comment!) You're so sweet and I do believe you just might understand me... can't we ever just be sad and not even know the reason? It's okay, especially when we have people like you!

      By the way... those words you spoke sound like the beginning of a beautiful hub? :D

      Hugs to you my dear!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Leslie, my dear, sweet and beautiful darling!

      Oh... life is just hogging up all of my time, but I'm tracking down your pages immediately!

      You're so sweet and funny, you know, that's a wonderful combination!

      Les, I don't know what the heck I'm crying 'bout? lol... Sometimes I'm just sad and it's almost worse 'cause you can't fix what you're not sure is broken? lol.. But, I can say... I'm not seeing a doctor and I'm not on any meds, so I can't be too bad, lol!

      I think I'll take you up on those shots... I think I'm the only one in my family who doesn't have a drinkin' problem... 'course I got plenty others.. lol. Hey, at least I'm laughing, right?

      Thanks for the advice... I knew there was a reason I like the heat!

      Love you girly... thanks so much for the visit! I hope your summer is going well so far!

      Hugs, you sexy thang!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Kim,

      Thank you so much, that was absolutely beautiful! I am not talented enough to accurately quote scriptures, but I did look that up and almost cried reading it. I very much related to that and it even brought me some sense of peace.

      Thank you for your own kind and tender words, as well. I don’t know if we have to have a reason for sadness, sometimes it just is. I try so hard to ignore the feelings of apprehension when posting something like this, but it’s in real time and it seems like it’s begging to come out. There is definitely some relief that comes with it. Thank you for letting me feel good about embracing the good, bad and the ugly. We’ve all been here in some way at some point, I would imagine? I find peace in feeling that I’m not alone. Thank you, dear!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Wayne,

      Thank you so much! You are by far one of my FAVORITES! I very much appreciate the visit and the compliment!

      Thanks again,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Michael, bubbers!

      Oh buddy, I know I've been such a rotten friend lately. Don't take it personally, I've equally neglected all those I love! :D Whose idea was it to only have 24 hours in a day anyway?

      Thank you... you're jelly and I'm peanut butter; together, we make a child's dream :D

      I promise... I'm coming :D

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      My Pretty Paula Pal! :D

      I live at 123 ComeNgetMe Blvd… no, I’m joking. I live in Upstate, New York. I’m about an hour west of Syracuse. I noticed a while ago you’re in Western NY. I have a ton of in-laws/outlaws in Jamestown… I imagine you’re not too far from there yourself. It takes me about 4 hours (3 and a half in heels…lol) It’s very ‘rural’ up and over here… not to the point of chewing straw though :D

      I’m so happy to hear you say it helps to share and purge; I also hesistate pushing the publish button on the sad ones, but I feel compelled to write what I feel as I’m feeling it and so far, everyone has been so generous and supportive with them. I’m a deep thinker, sometimes I think I think too much… lol. I wonder if that’s what gets me into these modes. Sometimes I’m just sad and I really don’t know why. You are a great listener and I very much appreciate you listening to me. You’re a helluva writer too, I hope you never doubt your talent! Thank you for helping me with my demons :D … and FYI… I’m a good listener too, I’m just sayin’, I’m here :D

      You’re the best… thank you so much!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Vincent Moore,

      Thank you; to even be classified as a poet is more than enough for me. I have to say, I wouldn't be much of a poet without the wonderful people who read my words.

      Thank you so much for your visit, compliments and generosity in sharing.

      Cat

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Voted up and awesome. This was wonderful Cat. Much enjoyed and passing this on.

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      Lurana Brown 3 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

      Cat---What a range of emotions here! Even if the passing time seems callous, the turning of the seasons is a reminder of hope...it may not be our turn for spring yet, but it is coming. This too shall pass. Your imagery works so well for the contrasting feelings expressed. ~Lurana

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      ziyena 3 years ago from Southern Colorado

      Beautiful narrative ... earthy

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      Wayne Barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Cat, your responses to compliments are sometimes more complimentary than the original compliment! ( what a tongue twister). So in response to the Fave comment, I just want to sincerely say, RECIPROCATED! + :

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      mr-veg 3 years ago from Colorado United States

      wow the smoothness in the words moved like a beautiful song and I could visualize it as I went through the lines... Great work from a truly deserving Artist of words...

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      C E Clark 3 years ago from North Texas

      Do you feel the passage of time?

      I feel it most of the time and I wonder where it has gone.

      Why do you feel lost and broken?

      I don't feel that way, I feel out of place like I never belonged.

      Not saying you are or should be like me, but there are different ways of looking at the world.

      Shared

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Gypsy Rose Lee,

      Wow, thank you so much! You really made my morning with such gracious comments! Thanks again, for the visit and the compliments!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Lurana,

      That was beautiful and you’re right! The seasons will go on with or without us… I guess the magic is in finding the beauty in them while waiting for the stars to align! I really appreciate your remarkable spirit… you young lady, have a way with words :D.

      Thanks again, doll!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      ziyena,

      What a beautiful name and equally beautiful compliment! Thank you so much for stopping and sharing! I will most certainly be over your way to check you out.

      Thanks again!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Wayne, my dear! I think lunch is burning... but the house could go up with it for all I care, after reading a comment like that! lol... You're a sweet heart and I just adore you... you're so lucky you're already taken or you'd might just have a stalker.... lol!

      Thanks, Wayne! :D

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      mr-veg,

      Thank you! I love that you could visualize what I was saying; I've done something right then, huh? I'm always so happy to see you and you're so very supportive. Thank you! I hope you're getting some beautiful summer weather over there in Colorado!

      Thanks again buddy, I'll be your way soon!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Au fait,

      I feel everything and nothing, all at the same time… if that makes any sense. Sometimes I just think I’m going through the motions and other times, I’m almost overwhelmed with emotions. Different triggers, different days and I’m not sure if I can even put my finger on it. All I know is I was living the same life for 10 years and ever since I’ve walked away from it, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting and I’m kind of lost now. The weird part is… I’m content with my life right now, if that makes any sense. I know there is more that I have to do though and I’m not sure what, when or how… but I feel like I have a purpose undiscovered. I know, I’m sure that sounds corny, but I believe I’m supposed to change people’s lives; that’s why I went to college for teaching… but I’ve since walked away from that field because it’s no longer calling my name.

      I’m very analytical, I think about everything and I want to know why… why, everything. When it comes to life’s questions, there are a lot of ‘whys’ and many are things that I couldn’t possibly have answers for yet… and that is somewhat unsettling to me.

      I definitely feel like I’m ‘different’ than other people and even that, for the most part has always been okay with me… but it does make me wonder why… ha ha ha. Trust me, my brain is on full speed, all the time!

      As usual, you’ve got me thinking, again! Thanks for coming by too!

      Cat

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      C E Clark 3 years ago from North Texas

      Everyone feels at times like they are here for a special purpose, and of course, everyone is right. Everyone is special in their own way and brings something special to this world that wouldn't be here if they weren't here also.

      Glad you want to find answers. So often people accept whatever they're told and sometimes what they're told is wrong. If you read the comments on my "Who's the best driver" hub, you will see that men are just as emotional as women, and no more capable of objectivity than women. Indeed, if you remove the names from the comments, you might think they were made by women!

      Not all women are emotional or incapable of making hard decisions objectively. You've been listening to too many men about that.

      Glad you are well . . .

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Au fait,

      I suspect you are analytical like me, except I know you have more answers than I do... lol, so I really value your opinion. I'm glad to hear that it's logical to think and believe, seek and find; I certainly do plenty.

      Yes, before I went away for the weekend I followed one of my notifications over to the 'Who's the best driver' hub and I saw that things were getting very, um, interesting. I'd say, from my experience, women tend to be more so 'gullible' if anything, while men tend to be ignorant.

      But, who am I? lol Seriously, who am I?

      Yes, I have had a lot of 'powerful' men I my life, all with opinions and all attempt to have the last word. I'm assuming it's their insecurities that make them want to break a woman down and convince her that she is the weaker sex. I've been affected by this plague, but at least I'm aware and so I can work on finding a cure and in time, heal!

      Thank you very much, Au fait.

      Cat

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      Anna Haven 3 years ago from Scotland

      This was very moving.

      Time disappears but life seems to stand still.

      Inside there is a little empty space; life if full but you somehow know there is something you need to keep searching for.

      I am really feeling your words here Cat; as I am still looking for my own purpose.

      Your poem was thought evoking, heartfelt and beautiful.

      Written from the heart of a poet.

      Anna :)

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Cat Girl ! See ! You are a fantastic poet !......Everyone says so ! YaHooooo!..big ole hug !

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      Poetic Fool 3 years ago

      Wonderful and thought provoking, Cat. They say time heals all wounds (or is it wounds all heels) but sometimes it's just not true. The seasons move on without us, passing us by when we are stuck in these down "seasons of life". But the changing of the seasons are nature's reminders to look up, get up and follow along lest life pass us by. Beautiful poem, Cat. I look forward to reading more of your work. Voted up and shared.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Sweetest Anna,

      That was absolutely beautiful, thank you. So much of what you said is so accurate to how I often feel. Sometimes the moments come and go, but pondering always seems to lead me to the same place. Where am I going, where have I been, has it been right, is there more than this? Sometimes it's just easier going through the motions and not asking questions... but if there is something greater, if I'm meant to be something greater; then I want a piece of it!

      Thank you Anna, you always make me feel justified in my thoughts and so very encouraged!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Eddy Bear!

      Aww... you're sweet! I'm at peace just knowing you care :D

      Takes one to know one, though I think you've got me beat... you're pretty great yourself!

      Hugs, dear!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Poetic Fool,

      So true! So true and so true! I was just thinking the other day, time does not heal all wounds. Wounds might get smaller, but they usually just turn into scars and they are constant reminders of the injury. It's just a matter of how often we allow ourselves to look at our scars and ultimately, accepting them. I cannot accept them all.

      I was having an emotional day and I walked outside into the beautiful sunshine; birds were chirping, flowers were bloomed and I could feel the sun warm my face. I felt very betrayed... how could all of this beauty exist and not stop to ask me what is wrong. It felt like an oxymoron to be crying under the sun. I realized that no matter how we struggle inside or how broken or shattered we are, the world continues to spin and it will not stop and wait for us to put ourselves together and jump back in. That, was a lonely feeling.

      I appreciate the inspiring, lift me up! You're right; life is beautiful and it's all around us... tomorrow is a new day and there are things to be grateful for.

      Thank you so much, I really appreciate the visit and the comments. I look forward to reading more of your work as well; I love your unique, deep, heart wrenching writes.

      Thanks again,

      Cat

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      Anna Haven 3 years ago from Scotland

      Hi Cat

      I am totally sure there is more.... we are just on our journey to it :)

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Sadly beautiful and voted up/shared.

      Enjoy your day my dear friend.

      Eddy.

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Hi Eddy ! Big hugs for you , your the best !

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Anna,

      I'm so happy to hear you say that... I guess the trick is finding the beauty along the way.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Eddy,

      Thank you so much! Your comment and visit made my day!

      I hope you enjoy this beautiful summer day yourself!

      Cat

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      dreamseeker2 3 years ago

      Beautiful poem! Voted it up. Sad, but cool in how it was written just the same. Depression takes on many dark forms. Bringing with it tears from the soul that the rain can't always wash away, but only seems to add to. Hope you are feeling better now? May you have better and brighter days ahead! : )

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      dreamseeker2,

      Thank you! Some of my motivation and inspiration comes from days gone by, but even though there is currently no trauma or drama in my life... I still have my days. I'm a super emotional person, I cry hard and laugh hard; I like the days I'm laughing better :D

      It's funny how just simply writing our feelings down and sharing them seem to create some relief... I do feel better now! Thanks so much; you're such a sweetheart.

      Cat

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      skye2day 3 years ago from Rocky Mountains

      cat I love your poem. Love it!! Reminds me of me in many ways. It also reminds me that there are seasons in life and many are very difficult but we do not have to go it alone. God is near and understands our plight. We can get through the seasons and when we do we can celebrate in victory with Christ. It ain't always a walk in the rose garden!

      Love your work girl. I happened to see a lovely comment you wrote to Jackie. I decided to stop in for a read. I am blessed in doing so. May Gods face shine His favor on you today and always sister. My Love, Skye voted shared!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      skye2day,

      Thank you so very much; you've certainly blessed me twice today and I am so honored by your visit. I'm so glad you came looking for me, perhaps I need you more than you realize. You have such a wonderful attitude and a warm heart and a huge smile. You've made my day and you've given me much to think about; I very much appreciate that!

      Thank you so much... I'm looking forward to reading more of your hubs as I'm sure they radiate with love as much as you do!

      Thanks again...

      Hugs and love to you!

      Cat

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      Nell Rose 3 years ago from England

      Hi, so beautiful, and so very true. The seasons match our moods, and sometimes even on a sunny day we can feel like we are under a cloud.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Hi, Nell! Oh, it's been too long since I've been to your pages! I'm on it! :D

      What you said is so true and quite beautifully put! I'm trying to find the sunny in everyday, even the rainy ones!

      Thanks so much for the visit!

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      WOW, after scrolling for what seemed like an eternity, it saddens me that I missed this wonderful poem.

      Your heart poured out onto my page .. telling me ..we have known each other for so long but have never met.

      My sweetest Kitty Cat.. I have not seen written.. such heartfelt emotions ..only inside a woman who has been there, can these sad words go directly to my heart and my soul.

      The sweetest cat.. with eyes that have known such pain.. runs to and through what we have both felt from the tragedy that we call life. We have met in a past life , walked through the flowery fields of heaven ..holding hands and when I looked into your heart .. it was the most pleasure I had known .. for you were mine and I could never know what it would feel like again.. to lose you, the Lord has taken your pain and put the sparkle back within them beautiful eyes, given you the passion to write with your soul.. and made you the beautiful woman that I knew.. back when the universe was beginning, for we were only two small sparks of light .. that touched for an instant or an eon, knowing love would meet again .. when or where we knew not .. but it did happen.

      I am here when you need me my Purring Kitten of expression, with the greatest of love and the utmost respect..

      Love

      Michael

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Dearest Michael,

      That was absolutely beautiful, I have all I can do not to shed a tear; wow. You've left me almost speechless, which you'll soon realize is quite nearly impossible ;-)

      I always say there's no better therapy than to put our thoughts into words and express ourselves through poetry and sharing. Yet, I feel a bit apprehensive whenever sharing something like this because it is deep and personal for me. We all know moments of happiness and when those moments come, we don't want them to end and then we do whatever we can to relive those kinds of feelings. We try to forget about the painful things, but they linger in our hearts and minds. I'm was living life, with no thoughts about it; just going through the motions. Then I had some big changes in my life and walked away from my old life, now trying to make sense of it all. I realize, in our deepest, darkest, most sorrowful moments, the world does not know or care about our pain, it just keep turning. We're all kind of on our own. Though I feel less alone after your touching words... you're so very sweet and I appreciate all you had to say and if even you need a broken Cat... I'm here for ya :D

      Love

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      My tender Cat .. you are not broken .. you are only hurt. the pain will recede for YOU are strong and from your therapeutic writes.. YOU will heal just fine.

      I have written a poem for and about you .. it is personal and want you to see it, before I decide to expose my words to hubpages . (which I might not ) for to open my own feelings for another ..might be construed as frivolous or forward although they are written with the utmost respect and dignity. Tell me My Kitty Cat .. what shall I do .. guide me for this is your poem .

      Michael

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      dreamseeker2 3 years ago

      Hi Cat, it is good to know you are not going through this pain you've shared in your poem right now. No one deserves to feel so hopeless and alone with their emotions of such. But, I know it happens and is a part of life. I am glad you have the laughter too, as it is good for the soul and a great healer. ; ) To only better days ahead, my writing friend.

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      Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain

      You have left me breathless with your wonderful way with words. This is so beautiful.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Michael,

      I'm so sorry to have left you hanging! I was called away and spent my evening at a heated meeting. I really appreciate your kind words, they're very lovely and certainly boost a girl's spirit. I don't know what to say about the poem, except that's awfully gracious of you. I did see a notification at the top of my email that you've published a hub... is this the one in question? :D... either way, I'm on my way.

      Thanks again... very much appreciated.

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      no the poem is different one.. I have not titled it yet.

      I know that life intrudes on our writing.. lol

      but you did not answer me about the poem .. it is yours. it is about your awesome self with my thoughts thrown in.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Michael,

      You've got me giggling... Well, where is it then? lol

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      dreamseeker2,

      Thank you so much, really. I have to say, I've grown very fond of HP; the community is wonderful. I just love the talented writers, such as yourself and the people are so comforting and supportive. It is something of a therapy to just write and kind of let it all go. I can't remember life before HP anymore! Thank you, again and I wish nothing but the best for you!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Dim Flaxenwick,

      I don't think you could've given me a better compliment! Thank you so much; I appreciate it and the visit too!

      Thanks again!

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      ok .. do you want me to post it or send it to you?? if you want it... send me an e mail on my profile and I will send it to you.. it is yours..! I still need a title ..but I am sure I will come up with one. You are on the east coast two hours ahead of me ..so I know it is late there. I am on rocky Mtn Time..

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Gee, is it really for me? I'd say post the baby; I'm ready to read it and I'm sure everyone else will appreciate your piece as they always do.

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      you are special..!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Thank you Michael... and you most definitely are special yourself. I'm glad I know this now!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Beautifully sad Cat.

      Voted up and have a great day.

      Eddy.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Thank you Eddy! Life is a little easier when the Summer Season is surrounding you! :D It is hard to cry in the sunshine :D

      Have a wonderful day yourself and thanks for the visit!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Oh, I missed one! See, what happens when things go crazy around here? This one is very dramatic. Love your way with words! Hope this isn't a personal piece, though....not so personal you're always literally sad anyway. Hugs, my sister!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      Ha ha... well, you might've missed a hub, but I've missed YOU :D ... is that too cheesy? lol Well, I don't care :D

      Of course it's personal, but do you know anyone who laughs as often as they cry? I laugh a lot... lol

      Hugs to you my sister!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      I know you laugh a lot. I love that about you! I love to laugh too, and it is usually the best medicine for tears, anyway!

      Miss you, too!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      It is an excellent medicine! See, I was having one of those days that I just didn't want to get out of bed. I wanted to sleep until I died. I got up and tended to the kiddos and sent them off with their father to a fair... then back to my bed, to try sleeping my life away. But I couldn't sleep and gave up not too long ago. The point of my story is, I'm already feeling a little better now. I think it's those moments alone, with me, myself and I, that get me into trouble.... lol.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Aw, Cat. Hugs to you. It's easier sometimes to sit and self pity or worries or whatever else may cause a person to feel sad or less than happy when all alone. BUT - you can also use those times to self reflect on how wonderful you really are, what you really do mean to those around you. :) Even if you feel totally worthless to others, you can choose to be relatively happy, my friend. Of course, I'm not saying it is always easy to do. I've been there before, I think everyone has...those times when all that seems worthwhile is to just sleep until things either get better or worse on their own. Sometimes, I'd like to disappear down a rabbit hole for a good long while. LOL However, that really doesn't solve anything.

      Hugs to you! I promise, when I get minutes back on my phone, you can call anytime, any hour. :) I'll answer if I can, and it isn't often that I can't, so long as you don't mind occasionally hearing the noise and interruptions from my kids. Otherwise, the FB app on my phone seems to work without the net some of the time, you can always hit me up there.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Gee Shan, that was awfully nice of you to say! Aren't we our own worst critics though? I know, we do need to incorporate some positive thoughts of ourselves within all that criticism too; I'll work on that :D

      You're right though, when I'm down and alone... not lonely, just alone, with my thoughts, it is easy to stay in a slump. Yet, when I'm talking with others; it's like it all goes away, even if only temporary, but I usually walk away in a better mood than I started.

      I like the rabbit hole, Alice... lol. You're right though, and as many times as I tried to sleep my mood away today, I knew things would still be as they were, when I awoke and so I couldn't sleep anyway.

      Yes, you really need to let me know when you've got minutes and of course, kids don't bother me... lol. I know... I should get my FB open, but sometimes people find me there and I'm trying to hide... lol :D If I know when you're there, I'll go over!

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      Jennifer 3 years ago from New Jersey

      Hello Cat, I had to return to your page cause I have been gone too.long! And as the universe usually provides me, I read the perfect one! How terrible for life to go on being pretty when you feel awful! I know the feeling! I love the line "an apology for the rain" btw. Perfect!

      If you have a care too, in between calls....lol please read The Day Before and the Day After on my page if you like. The second poem on that page might relate to you :) be well! Jennifer

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