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Not My Finest Hour

Updated on September 11, 2017

I Rehash Some Of My Most Difficult Times

These memories don't go away

They fade a little over time

So the harsh is a little less unpleasant

The mean becomes thoughtless and unkind

Problems turn into moments of aggravation

My view of the world

Believing in good even if none can be found presently

Trouble becomes misunderstandings

Years of suffering are really growing pains

The only way I can begin to understand

Is to admit my faults and leave the blemishes alone

Not everything has a happy ending

At the same time I am still inspired to keep trying

Looking for promising results

When I find myself in a jam

I realize this is bad

The solution is weaved in the fine fibers of life

I trick myself into thinking this is only a riddle

If I find the clues I can figure it out

If I don't no problem

Just one more mystery unsolved

Some things in life have to be tackled

What the end result will be

We just have to wait and see







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    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      14 months ago

      Changing Tides2331 You will have to let me know your birthday too so I can highlight such a wonderful occasion. Life is so much fun when everyone is happy. When things change we have to do all we can to get back to happy. Having a friend like you makes the recovery so much faster. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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      ChangingTides2331 

      14 months ago

      DreamOn

      09/13 is marked on my calendar as an important date to remember. Happy Birthday! On 09/09 I wrote about losing a good friend some years ago called 4th & Goal. Although it still remains a loss of life, there is comfort in time. It seems at first it was like minutes went by, then hours, then days, weeks, so I wish you blessings in losing a friend & I send my condolences. Thank you likewise for your friendship & sharing your thoughts.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      14 months ago

      Changing Tides2331 I never could figure out if I had a choice would I go fast forward into the future or go to my past and correct what I did wrong. It turns out that I am always in the present pulling at any string thinking it is a thread and I am going to unravel the wonders of life. On the thirteenth of September I had a birthday which was spent quietly just enjoying the day. Even though I had no reason to be sad I felt uneasy that something wasn't quiet right. Nothing in my day would indicate that. Later that night I found out a friend had passed away. So it is hard for me to make sense that a good day for one person can be a sad day for someone else. Then it can be both good and sad for me at the same time. Life had to move forward and we have been given the ability to enjoy the past, present and even dreams of the future that haven't even happened or might never even happen. The idea that we can even write about all this is something else that boggles my mind. When we can why don't we find the time. Why let these moments disappear when they can be preserved forever. I will always look back at the times we worked together and appreciate the friendship we have made. Even though today we go our different ways. Writing is a bond you can never break. You can write all night and then the next day. Then the second after have more to say. Thank you for being part of my past and now the present. I can see well into the future. Please keep writing. You have the ability to look very deep into any situation. Expand on that. Enjoy your family. So many people I meet keep wanting more in their lives. Then years later when they have more they are still not happy. I want less. I want to appreciate what I have and what I lost. That will take me to the end of my days. I hope you can focus on the love and family that you have and enjoy that fully. Those who always want never realize they have so much more they were too busy to even see. Thank you in more ways than I can mention. Each time I will try to express a new thought. If we let life happen we will be better off.

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      ChangingTides2331 

      14 months ago

      DreamOn

      Sometimes you would give anything too rewind the tapes & erase something wrongly said or done. Sometimes forwarding the tapes a couple years doesn't seem like such a bad idea either. Whichever way it happens, sometimes being in the present moment can feel like an eternity. Thank you for your great details in writing.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      14 months ago

      Gypsy Rose Lee I can't imagine what you are going through. I can be a friend and encourage you to turn those thoughts round and round in your head until they turn into words. Put these words on paper and express it on paper. That is what writers do best. It is not easy and not quick. When the time is right you will feel it. I am proud of all your steps forward. Each one will make you feel better. Papa will be watching over Sid. When we leave this world we disappear in body not in spirit. So your husband will hear you as long as you talk. Tell him your troubles and your happiness. God will be there listening also. If we think how magnificent each human body is. There is no mistake about it. We were meant to live and die. That is not the whole picture only part of it. Life is so much more than we can and will ever know. Even in the toughest times in our life we can find the beauty of love if we just look around us. In nature and in every breath of air that we breathe. Thank you so much for taking your time by commenting and caring. Please keep writing and sharing.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      14 months ago from Riga, Latvia

      If only life could have just happy endings. Lately I am marking my life with tiny baby step achievements. Today burned garbage, took a refreshing shower, made up a clean bed, realized my cat Sid has had contact so he's not missing Papa too much and I am starting to enjoy life as just the three of us - me myself and I and well Sid that makes four.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      14 months ago

      Audrey Hunt We live at a time where there is so much growth and knowledge. At the same time here comes trouble. I know it won't last but it still shows it's ugly head. I push for good and more happiness that is my way of squashing what little I don't like. I accept change because I know in the end I will learn. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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      Audrey Hunt 

      14 months ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      "Not everything has a happy ending

      At the same time I am still inspired to keep trying"

      This really hits home with me. Seems to be the story of my life. :) Well done and thank you.

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