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Not that Kind of Girl....

Updated on May 7, 2013

Not that kind of girl...You thought.

As I take a look around

I had to just come and sit down

And I was just thinking

That I had some stuff I really needed to say

But I just didn’t know how to present it

Without it being an offense type of way

But I gotta tell you

And here it goes boo

Things didn't go the way I expected

Most of it

were things that made things between you and I become hectic

and there was them times

where I questioned myself

did I really just accept this

But I gotta let you know


No I am by far not that kind of girl

And no im not the type to curse

But F It

Because im feeling this urge

That is needing to speak out

as I say these words-

that are filled with the way that I hurt

Because I’m frustrated, and if I don’t speak it than you would hate it

Cause I just wouldn’t be me

There would be like a transformation of who I am

From my head down to my feet

but my heart says to let it out and this

is just not my idea of a perfect world

Because I've fallen a little behind in it


I know this is different because I never really mentioned

the way that I felt

I never could truly express

The deeper me, or should I say my inner self

But I just got to get this off my chest

If I don’t

I might find myself doing some things I may regret

And this whole thing will turn into one big mess

And I can assure you I don’t need it in any way

I’m under enough stress


And no I am by far not that kind of girl

No I’m not the type to curse

But F It

Because im feeling this urge

That is needing to speak out

as I say these words-

that are filled with the way that I hurt

Because I’m frustrated, and if I don’t speak it than you would hate it

Cause I just wouldn’t be me

There would be like a transformation of who I am

From my head down to my feet

but my heart says to let it out and this

is just not my idea of a perfect world

Because I've fallen a little behind in it


In my soul I can feel the various emotions

That are troubling me inside

But the emotions are wearing on the out

So therefore you can see exactly what I tried to hide,

My Emotions and its getting high

As I stand before you I‘m trembling

As you can see the tears in my eyes

Because my emotions are running 100 degree

And this is what has been bottled up inside of me

So F It

Here it is

Giving it to you straight

That this is how I feel, what it has been

And some things around here is going to have to change

And you probably thinking

Wow! This is just not the same sweet innocent girl from long ago

Because I’m not

I’ve put on my Big Girl robe

And have started to grow

And now I am able to identify things about me that I didn’t use to know

and this is my time,

A new girl is in town

and I'm running the show

I am strong, and powerful and I have taken enough

So no apologies if I’m coming off as a aggressive and a bit too tough

But F It

And no im not that kind of girl

And not that type to curse

But you have spoken

And now you are going to hear what I have to say

As I speak my words

Because you used to belittle me and think that I was always underneath

But little did you Know

I am a strong, independent woman

Whom has now find her strength

So please Hush!

And provide me the courtesy........


To be continued.


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