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Updated on November 19, 2011

"Now I am Dead"

As I see the tears

in your eyes

Am saying

Do you really

think it’s necessary

to cry,

here at my funeral.

I need you

to say to me


What is the



The reason why

You are crying!

Because I know

it’s the same

Same as itever was.

You and I know !

That you

more than

anyone else


the most energy

To my death

Here you are


Acting strange

and looking


while I am trying

to understand

Your presence.

And this new

Schem that you



looking at my


Lying in this


Strange place


While my casket

Is being placed

in this hole

in the ground

Moaners, friends

and family

All looking around

There you are

head transfixed

to almost a frown

Steadying tears

streaming down

your face

Showing bravery

eliminating all


How could you

sitting there

Having no clue.

You wanted me



Here you are


Acting like

That Is not true

and the best thing

You can do

Is tears


Tell me why

you cry!

I am listening

I am dead

But my spirit ‘s


This is rather


As my spirit

was leaving

my body

I saw It pointing

As if

Reminding me

of the one

Who's crying.

It was that same


which constantly

beckoned me

to remind you

of your senseless


Why are you

now crying


Using woeful



I am asking you

Is it because

There are all these

People gathered

Some who knows

A little about

your way?

That from

your bag of


While crying


reminds you of

Another game

to play

So as not to


The questions

of those things

you did

Those atrocities

that you Hid.

Did you not ever

stop to think

That they will

come back

To haunt you?

Of course they do!

Because they are


You created them

From lies.

I told you

that the time

would come

When the evil

that man do

Will live back

to haunt them.

This also includes

you and me

We are part

of mankind

aren't we?

That was some

way to go

Was no fun for me

Police knocking

on the door

Two o'clock

in the morning.

Am wondering

what’s happening

no warning

I did nothing

Bus Jesus did

nothing either.

Evil gestures,


selfish ways

Being thrown

out for nothing

but lies

Here I am listening

Your cries

Because I die

God could never

like ugly

How could he?

They are truths

Now scrolled in

my history

The essence of

our past

Now relived

in this present

See my cries

went through

What are you

going to do?

Can’t just cry?

Got to have

a reason

So again

I ask you why?

Why here, Why now?

Why, why, why?


of your tricks

Still want to lie

Sat you never

did it

Something to do

I know you are



the Most High God

Is watching you!


· edit

After being thrown


I still survived

that night

8 day victory

You won that fight

But your battle

Have only just


This battle with


Started many years


Malicious actions

Self centered


Is all short lived

How can I forget

Only truth I have

to give

Hearing those lies

You told

Of alcoholic rages

When the tide


Let them and you

Look through

The torn pages

of My Bible

Say it’s was me

The devils looking

for hand that's idle

Way to go

And then what ?

You have to answer

To the

Most High God

Every man does.

He has a right

To decide

his own destiny.

Your actions

Was not necessarily

A surprise.

Not to me

But I know the

The penalty

for all selfish

maliciously rebellious


Will soon be upon

all those

who thinks

they can simply

nonchalantly say

It was just

a Reaction!

You bet it was !

To cause

another man's


See that look

on your face


what I said

this this life

not being about


Neither is it a


It's for those

who knows

about endureance

belief and faith

It's about those

who knows

the penalties

for evil works

Has no excuses

It will have no end.

They are seen

through the


lives of others

a few of the things

that evil doings

Will send back

To whole families


and sisters

Those you selfishly

puts in harms way

cause of your lies.

When the rain fall

it don't fall on one


Answering to

your investment

in evil

when it calls

Healthy rewards

For being true

To the cause

of evil.

Standing firm

throughout your

entire life.

Too late to be

again crying

for help

These are your



you created then

bought them

Upon yourself.

You lied to yourself

You cried

to the courts.

You tried screaming

the top of your throat

Said it was

Drunken Rage

you set the stage

For this fall

That’s the way

in which evil


It places you

deep in selfishness

Where no one

hears your calls.

Place you into

your own ditch

You Lie, cry wolf.

Never realizing

That the sins

of the Parents

Sacrifices live

of their own


As sheep

Pay the devil

in too deep

Now those same

wolves you called.

Yes they too

Must eat.

When true help

Is needed

No one will come


Cause I am dead

Just a nightmare

in your Head,

Which is just

the beginning!

Try to remember

I was always

saying to you

That what goes


Must come around


I said it loudly

so maybe

that's the rage

You lied about.


It's not a matter

Of if ,it will

come back

But surely

A matter of


I said to you

The evil that

men do

Will live back

to them

I said demons

are strong

They are the

devil's friends

He brings them


Like a hunter with

his dogs

What better partner

one can ask for

Hunting hogs.

Who so ever

diggeth a pit

Shall fall in it.

Who soever

Maliciously plays

with the life

Of another

Must also

expect to have

his life

Be played with

the same.

The time must


When we will

all face

either the demons

or the angels

Of our past

that we trusted.

Those temporary


Swiftly run races

I forever told you

They won't last

But they set up

The mysteries

that is Woe!

If you allowrd

Selfishness and evil

To take you

for a ride

There I was calling


but you pushed

It all aside

For that shortlived

Evil ride.

Ripped up the Bible

Spat in Gods face

How long can

you run

Such a selfish race

For your life?

I am Ghost!

I am already dead

A rotten disgrace

You sought the most

Now, nothing but

truthful answers

will count

Whether you stand

or you sit

Picture your life

See what you

made of it

Those deceitful


You have planted

Even after I am


You still have

to reap it

Life demands this

It's also your ticket

You paid for it!

Now it's so

difficult for you

to speak honestly,

come clean,

It seems that

even after

you prayed to God

Asking for his


You have not

been able to live


with yourself


no one will answer

When a Liar cries

for help!

It would have made

no sense

For me to pursue

When you are

the one that's

always wielding

the knife

But you forgot

That those who lives

By the sword

Will most likely

Die by it.

For all the years

that I lived with you

This is where

you were heading

There was nothing


Anyone one can do

Can't say

That someone

Chose for you

War never brings


Not between a man

and his wife.

Take a look


It's is a 63%

That is what's

going on right now

Between those


Those praying.

The diseased

Still manages

To keep on spreading

some how.

In anticipation

I picked up

whatever things


my sincere attempt

to salvage

What’s left of

a miserable life.

Being a ....?

Go figure?

To you I leave

The same scriptures

You rebelliously

Ripped straight


I left another

with you hoping

that no one again

dare angers you

Giving you an


To rip into

this one too!

The way

that you did

the other

Let the world

bear witness

Of whom you

really are

Crying at my


Won’t get you

too far

In Galatians


it says:

Be yee not


God is not


As a man


So shall he


All shepards knows

how to tend

their flocks

He who goes

too fast

knows it's time

to stop

You put cocoa

in the sun

Be sure you check

on the rain

the road to hell

may be paved

with gold ,

No place to

spend it

There will be

Nothing to gain.


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    • Sky9106 profile image

      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Thanks you so much heavensbound , thanks for reading, commenting and more than anything else your blessings . This is a great morning for me to say to you,

      that I 100% believe in what you are "doing" I trust in what you "do" each day.

      That's the reason I miss your post that time, and went on to inquire about your where about.

      All these are bigger than all of us, but is during our weaker times, that's when it's evident.

      Don't ever let then see you sweat or hear you coming, the God in you and the element of surprise, is what the forces of evil is most fearful of. You captured that well in your post with the Lions head at the beginning.

      The forces of evil cannot be more powerful than that of Good , but it can be that way in us as individuals.

      We are the ones that strays from whatever is true and good , truth actually belongs in us , and am happy to say that I believe you are one of those truly seeking to go that way , so obviously you will be a steady target , you are a threat, but with the promise of the Most High God to never leave or forsake us, you belief makes you a target that cannot be struck down.

      Appreciate what you do.


      I love your belief. These are the standards through which I choose friends in life by their beliefs , someplace true , that where friendship can take root and be meaningful, age truly is wisdom.


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      heavenbound5511 6 years ago from Under the shadow of the Almighty God!

      Awesome page, really emotional.

      God bless you!

      Voted up & awesome!

    • Sky9106 profile image

      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Wow ! Thanks nenyt, thanks for reading. Sometimes that's all it takes.


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      nenytridiana 6 years ago from Probolinggo - Jawa Timur - Indonesia

      Wow! What I have to say, Touching, funny (I smiled, It was honest), awesome thought, etc. like rasta1 said the wealth comes up from nowhere just like they was there when he was alive. Awesome my friend!

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      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      All we are , this bulk of fleshy mass is dust in the wind and then your belief!

      I believe whatever you thought, and went on to worship, is what it shall be that way for you.

      Lost or on track.

      It's the least a man can hope for something or nothing can't have it both ways . If it turned out to be Hell, so shall it be .

      I am sure of one fact it cannot be nothing.

      As it was in the beginning so shall it be in the end , what can it be they are speaking of? I guess it's relative ....Ours!


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      Frank Atanacio 6 years ago from Shelton

      The tragic scene you sent me would induce tears of great proportion.. and I see that the body cries for many reasons.. tears are just footprints in which the soul can travel back and to wherever souls go.. I cry for death as a tribute.. and laugh for life as a tribute as well.. yeah the photo you sent sends mix emotions from disturbing to sorrow.. to curious thanks for sharing Frank

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      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Thanks a whole lot Frank a whole lot . I will tell you why

      the idea is to take everything , even that which is most devastating and depressing and re-manufacture it to be used as the good one sees or gets out of it , all of life are conscious lessons, because life was meant to be good, those that willfully through whatever means sets out to do different, or harm would live to see it turned against them.

      They are now using the grosses thing once known to man to re-manufacture water that we drink and it's purer than that which we buy in the stores.

      I am sending you something to inspire , don't be afraid tell me what it did.

      Life is a lesson.

      Blessings and thanks Frank.

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      Frank Atanacio 6 years ago from Shelton

      I could only say, what a reference.. what a state of mind.. The conversation between the dead ( yet alive in spirit ) and the tears.. You have the skills to keep sharing and sharing no matter what the topic you pick Great Hub my friend :) Frank

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      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Blessings rasta1 , I understand every word.

      I was the original witness.

      Nice to know that it's still looks exactly as it was back then.

      All is well, regardless of the appearence.

      keep me posted I think I read through, you said nicely it was inspiration and I trust every letter in that word.

      You are not on the e/mail Ps you watch any nature programs?


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      Marvin Parke 6 years ago from Jamaica

      In eastern meditation they tell you to clear your mind. In the Rastafarian culture, meditation is about dealing with issues and penetrating the thoughts of the subconscious minds.

      The poem about the train that you did, really caused me to snap and expand my mind. I still read it all the time. Decoding it and deciphering it.

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      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Thanks "AE" I know for sure that you read it all . Today was as if I had a flashback of epic proportions . That thread by rasta1 about Quantum . It stayed with me all night . Great things , I then looked back as far as I could go and began writing and never stopped.

      I truly understand the real purpose of meditation.

      Blessings my dear lady.

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      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Thanks "AE" I know for sure that you read it all . Today was as if I had a flashback of epic proportions . That thread by rasta1 about Quantum . It stayed with me all night . Great things , I then looked back as far as I could go and began writing and never stopped.

      I truly understand the real purpose of meditation.

      Blessings my dear lady.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 6 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Sky, This is amazing!! Is this written about your wife, or someone you knew? The thought of a dead man talking is intriguing..Wow..

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      Sky9106 6 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Thanks rasta1, believe me, our thoughts collided this time. Every single thought I had this morning, was directly influenced by the actions and reactions on you hub about Quantum.

      I am constantly reminded of how far we as humans have to go, and like our thoughts where should it stop?

      I sit in awe.

      It's great for me to be able to take in the magnitude of all the different beliefs that are alive and well, they all sounds intelligent and they are by my standards.

      I stay reminded that we as the human race would never cover even one fraction of any size of the wonder that is simply our existence. But I do understand that we are here and are making some type of meaningful use of our time, and that's seems to be unanimous with all humans.

      I truly enjoy the discussions and look forward to what ever depth the participants takes it.I learn or acquire knowledge from all.

      Reminds me that if I simply lean over, and pick up one grain of sand on earth, then take it to someone with their type of apparatus, he may be one to show me life living on the inside of that grain of sand and this is something I can see , yet I will be in total amazement , knowing there is another that can show me life inside that life. Still this is what I can see. To know that there are living things with us here on earth that man don't have the ability to see! I am sold on many questions? But am balanced in "It is what it is"

      That I am allowed to be unchallenged by anything, to continue to think in these seemingly crazy manner. That to me reveals the greatness of the Most High God.

      My thoughts says to me I can take a belief as I go, and that's seems wise.

      Or I can simply imagine, and when I do, I see all the discussions and arguments, all living a harmony of some sort, because they are without a choice in the matter. They all have the right to existence and survival.

      And I see infinity in all it's glory, of being like you say. Who is the God of Gods?

      And like WD says, we haven't seen nothing as yet , but we believe and hope that after death , we will join in and form a unity with that which is.

      And the other who said the children did not stand a chance, if it's so that they be born in sin.

      And the other or the same, who said if God could not have made the sinless world.

      They are all correct in their thinking and I believe God will understand, because and judgement will be made on one's knowledge and ability.

      My biggest discussion so far with my friend, as I told you, is his belief that all babies born in sin and shaped in iniquity, will go to Hell if the have not been saved . I say they know nothing , that's not fair.

      But I respect his , I don't and clearly won't in any way ever agree. And that's finished.

      I can go on forever, but so can everyone else based on his/her truthful belief.

      Yes in the abundance of water the fool is thirsty!

      So I Give thanks brethren


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      Marvin Parke 6 years ago from Jamaica

      This reminded me of a friend that recently died. He came from a rich family but died because he was poor. You saw the wealth at the funeral but nobody helped him while he was alive.


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