OK ! OK ! I HEAR YOU !!!!
STRESS AND IT'S CAUSES AND EFFECTS OF IT ON THE BODY AND MIND AT LEAST MINE !
The day has come .
Yes I have held my peace for so long
and now .......I am hurting ,hurting so very bad
my skin is even hurting
my eyes are sunken in with despair
for they have lost their twinkle, their glare
my heart does not beat right anymore
I feel it inside as if it were outside of me
with every memory there is pain ,
it is not you anymore
IT IS ME ! Me................. YES ! ....it is
I must let go of everything that is making me feel depressed
everything that is keeping me from laughing and smiling again
for I need laughter in my life better than before
Bring this day to me as a comfort I pray,
at times more often then I deserve
You left me and you left us ...
because you said you could not handle the stress
why I really don't care anymore
I am just glad you are one less stress I have to worry about now
for the matter of fact it don't bother me anymore
all I know is that I have to fix me Now
and Now ! .......it better be fast
For my body and mind can not function right
for my heart does not beat the same way as before
and in my world I have dug a hole
I must not fall in ..... I must not
OK ! OK ! I HEAR YOU !!!!!!
My body and Mind scream at me within
I HAVE TAKEN ENOUGH OF YOU STRESS AND I WILL REFUSE TO HOLD IT IN ANYMORE !
Come at me if you dare
but I will let you pass this time and forever
from.... bill collectors to doctors to lawyers call me if you dare
I will take a deep breath and breathe calm
as you give me the same words of discouragement and despair
I will not hold what you have to say in my thoughts
I will breathe and let it all out as if you were smog in my lungs
Deep Breathe .................Sigh !!!!................
SEE ! I feel better now
Why did I let this go so far....
I have never been like this before
People that I have never met
feel it in my writings
and hear it in the words I write
I would write and the stress was there in pencil lead staring at me
as if I was not the one that wrote it
READ ! READ it !................
I would and answer as if I were helping someone else
Just don't tell my secrets of making it through the day
Please don't !
Not that I mind. It is just that it seems to really work for me
TO WRITE ! WRITE !............... Yes this is what I know best
This is how I got through the pressures that weighed me down before
and now my body and mind are screaming loud
OK ! OK ! I HEAR YOU !
I will take care of me
I will give me....... some me time
start breathing in a different way
when the pressures are up
stress is not funny nor is it safe
I never had my body and mind scream at me like this before
It is just one trial after another with no breathing room
Make room ! I say
take it in smaller steps and with a pace that most won't understand
Keep my head up and look them in the eyeI
OK ! OK ! I HEAR YOU !
Lost my job , last unemployment check , newly divorced after 28 years ,flipped my truck , hurting inside and out , medical bills, and a kidney transplant in the near future for my child ....
There I said it .............. sigh!!!!!!!!.................... I can breathe now ........I can think .............
OH ! I am not complaining . I am just trying to figure this all out as i write it for the first time
PLEASE FORGIVE ME !
like I said before I will go back and
READ ! READ it ! what I wrote
and answer as if I was helping someone else
AND HEAR THOSE WORDS SPEAK TO ME
OK ! OK ! ..............I HEAR YOU !!!!!
Just let it go and take a deep breath ....... Breathe ..... and ......SIGH !
There I did it ....I feel much better.....