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Once Again I Taste the Bitter Cup

Updated on March 30, 2012

Consider if you will...

A life, cyclically damning and exalting... 


bending in on itself and returning with a mind delicate...

sensitive and not liking of change...

I found myself critical of my love...

Good as she was, she didn't deserve what I couldn't refrain...

I found myself collapsing in on self...

when dear friends it was your company I needed most...

I couldn't help that I withdraw...

I can catch it once it starts...

change my course or do something odd...

forcing me away from the solace of the dark...

it beckons though...

it hurts how much it begs me come...

I am complex and simple...

finding ways to escape myself...

especially when the turn to turn comes round and round...

leaving me often where I started before...

giving nothing but a bitter taste...

daring that I dare to conquer my self all the same...

Each wave crashes heavy upon my shores...

to the rim of my cup...

drenching myself in the blood of my own veins...

I will not let it out though...

no matter the pain...

as I live so do others...

I standing witness to its possibilities...

So peace and remember...

friends in the night...

I haven't gone anywhere...

I just need a second to breath.

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    • Jaggedfrost profile imageAUTHOR

      Jaggedfrost 

      7 years ago

      It comes and goes, I have gotten used to it even if I can't shake it.

    • twolittlehands profile image

      twolittlehands 

      7 years ago from Utah

      I am sorry you are hurting. My prayers are with you.

    • Jaggedfrost profile imageAUTHOR

      Jaggedfrost 

      7 years ago

      Ladies you are both right though I give it my best and ever will. It is comforting to have friends like you to share a bit with and to understand.

    • acaetnna profile image

      acaetnna 

      7 years ago from Guildford

      This is a deep expression of yourself and I feel for you. You do seem to have many troubles on your shoulders but through your exquisite writing I know you will find the light. God bless you Jaggedfrost.

    • b. Malin profile image

      b. Malin 

      7 years ago

      Then take that second...friends will understand. I think life is a fight for you, you are torn in so many directions, so go at your own speed, for you are such a talented writer. Thanks for sharing this piece.

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