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One Dream, The Reality

Updated on June 9, 2015

Direction In Life

Uncertainty with where you are headed
Uncertainty with where you are headed | Source

ONE DREAM

To be free from all this pain,
All that was lost and gained,
Never will I meet a man –
Who has been,
A Myth, Ghost,
A fading fog which never gets close.

THE REALITY

Chasing a lost hope,
That blind faith narrow in scope,
We will meet,
To continually seek,
Accomplishing less and less each week.
Always will I feel the disappointment when,
He never was or had been,
A champion in the heart of a young boy.

A Mum forced to see the pain from her two kids,
Come to terms with the absence of a man,
Who decided it was better to never look back again.
Should I be grateful –
Did my Mum unknowingly save me?
Knowing deep down as painful as it was,
He was just really a phantom.

Saying Goodbye To The Painful Past

OUT AT SEA
OUT AT SEA | Source

Never could he have done,
The good deeds that a real Father would.
So many Possibilities, So many Mysteries,
Never understanding why someone could just leave?
One man set me on that path paved in emptiness and shame,
Always believing it was really me.
Now I do know that it is truly all for him,
He never really planned to stay,
It is actually better in the end.

From time to time starting way back when –
My mind thought of what could have been.
My complete History,
All the things which have created me.
A bounty-full of memories telling my whole story.
Maintaining patience and time,
Swiftly an epiphany begins to shine.
Realizing how complete I truly was back then.
A better life – Heaven.

Old Family Photo In Front Of The Childhood Home

Stephanie - Mum, Marvin - Dad, Jeb - Me, & Tara - Sister
Stephanie - Mum, Marvin - Dad, Jeb - Me, & Tara - Sister | Source

So much time has passed,
My wealth has so greatly amassed –
Caring less about what I could have had.
He never was a Dad.
No more mystery,
There now is nothing left to see.
Unanswered questions now float in a deep blue sea.

I am now compelled to stay in a moment,
Grateful for what I do have.
Happy with my Mum who knew how to raise me,
Blessed with that opportunity to have a young man –
Step up to be a real Dad.
I have achieved many things,
History, Poetry, Family and, becoming a Husband!
A Father who became a champion,
In the hearts of my own children.

It all starts with me.
That mystery which is intertwined throughout my history.
I can live knowing it will never come to be –
Left behind off at sea.
I am now happy and full of joy.
My Mum made sure,
I turned out to be a good boy.

The Kids And Me

Savannah - Daughter, Jeb - Me, & Jared - Son
Savannah - Daughter, Jeb - Me, & Jared - Son | Source

© 2014 Jeb Stuart Bensing

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Wonderful poetry Jeb and I now look forward to many more by you.

      Enjoy your weekend.

      Eddy.

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      Jeb Stuart Bensing 3 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      Thank you Eddy, it means a lot to me when my poetry is enjoyed by other people.

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