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Recession Depression

Updated on May 01, 2009

I was woken up at the crack of dawn this morning, actually I think it was before the crack of dawn, I'm not sure, I was tired. It was damn early though. My head was feeling a little better than the night before, but not by much, it still pounded but with a little less intensity. I rolled out of bed, gave my chihuahua a kiss on her head and headed for the kitchen. I needed coffee and I needed it now. That damn coffee maker is slow. I go to the bathroom and wash my face, I look up and see myself in the mirror, my eyes are red and puffy, my face seems to have no color, the lines of age seem deeper. Yuck, I hate mornings. I go back to the kitchen and look for my travel coffee mug, I fill it with hot coffee and two spoons of sugar. I travel towards the front door. Crap, I almost forgot my shoes, I take a drink of coffee, my head clears a little, I put on my shoes and look out the door. The yard is clear of turkeys, I can send the dogs out for their morning potty break. The dogs run out the door as fast as I can get it open, almost ripping my hand from the knob, I take another drink of coffee. The dogs have had their potty break and I yell into the door for the kids to get in the car, I get the dogs in the car and off we head to school.

I return from taking the kids to school and turn on the TV first I watch a little bit of CNN, then I switch to FOX.  I'm tired and I don't have any kids at home right now. I decided to try to get back to sleep. I grab a blanket, lay in the recliner and close my eyes. The news in the background filters through my restlessness, recession, economic woes, and so on. Fox news is reporting that the bank bailouts have cost each American taxpayer $18,000.00 and that the amount will grow to almost $90,000.00. Can that be true? My head starts pounding again. I take another drink of my coffee and reach for the Tylenol. I take three, The directions say to only take two but my headache demands more than that.

I grab my cup of coffee and take a seat at my desk, I look at my stack of bills over on the left hand corner, I see a bill for lunches directly on my computer keyboard. My kids have put it there so that I will find it and it will not be lost in the sea of bills to the left. I place the lunch bill on the top of pile of bills, it will have to wait until payday, hopefully it will get picked in the payday lottery and my kids can eat lunch. I click on my internet search engine and it takes me to my homepage where the news of the day is highlighted. Recession, economic woes, and so on. I look to the right and see the stock market ticker, stocks are falling again. I reach for my bottle of Tylenol.

I read my horoscope, I don't know why I do this, just something to distract me I guess. More bad news, today someone else's optimism is going to bug you -- you're in no mood for cheer is what it says. Great, now I have to avoid all people. That really won't be that hard though, I rarely go anywhere anymore. I have decided I have had enough bad news for the day and I walk into my bedroom. I look at my unmade bed and know I should make it up, but I don't. I don't care, the bed will still be there tomorrow whether it's made or not. I walk into the bathroom again and avoid the mirrors. I see toothpaste on the counter and see that it is getting dry, I know it will be harder to clean if I don't clean it now, but I don't. I don't care. I do grab the pile of laundry out of the bathroom and add that pile to already large pile in the laundry room. I should start of load of wash, but I don't. I don't care. The laundry will still be there tomorrow.

I walk to the kitchen, grab a pot from the cabinet and put some water on to boil. The water boils and I pour in the Malt-O-Meal. I stir the contents of the pot and then put some bread in the toaster. My breakfast is soon done. I sit down and watch the news as I eat. The same news items are scrolling across my screen, I switch to the other news network, more recession, economic woes and so on. I finish my breakfast and place my bowl and spoon in the kitchen sink. I know I should do some dishes, but I don't . I don't care.

I decide to try my computer one more time. I click my web browser and up comes my homepage. Again the news is featured right in the middle of the page, I don't look, I don't care. I rapidly type hubpages.com, and wait until my page loads. I see my profile pic, she doesn't look like the person I saw in the mirror this morning. I look at her again, that was a happier time. I decide to hit the button that I was desperately looking for, That big red button on the right, start a new hub. The screen then changes to the title of my hub, hmmm, I don't know. I think for a minute, then I type recession depression. I hate it. It's a stupid title, I should change it, but I don't. I don't care.


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      Christoph Reilly 8 years ago from St. Louis

      This is very nice, Gwendy. A telling look into the start of your day and told very well. You are really growing as a writer, you know. We all have those days - that just start off wrong. I sometimes am crabby and I can't even specifically identify why.

      I saw too that you have recently written another hub. Don't know how I missed it but I'm going to read it now. Very nice work! And cheer up! We're all in the same boat. I'll share my candybar with you! (Oh, wait, happy people will piss you off today.) I hate this F8&%^*($ day! Kiss my grits!

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      gwendymom 8 years ago from Oklahoma

      CR, I am so happy to see you, and just for the free chocolate. Seriously, you made my day a little brighter. I'm a real wreck lately, that's why I haven't been on here too much. I think of this as a fun place and I don't want to be the party pooper. I just couldn't keep away though, not today anyway.

      I think I write better when I don't overthink it. I just sat down and started typing, It hit spell check and publish and I was done. I hope it's ok, because I didn' teven reread it. Thats probably for the best though because then I start to doubt things and change them and get it all screwed up, or just never publish it at all. OK, I need to just shut up now. My mouth and fingers are working overtime. I have been away for too long. Thanks for the compliments, you're the sweetest, and that's why I am your groupie, cult member, stalker, or fan.

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      spryte 8 years ago from Arizona, USA

      GMom:

      I'm not going to be the one to be optimistic and piss you off either!!  LOL!  Actually...from one woman to another...absolutely brilliant writing.  From the bed...to the dishes...to the dried on toothpaste...I commiserate 100%. 

      *hugs* sent your way!

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      Misha 8 years ago from DC Area

      Did you actually try to get rid of news altogether? Much beneficial to the mood, you know :) Just hang out here with us, it is much more fun :)

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      gwendymom 8 years ago from Oklahoma

      Spryte, I am so happy to see you too. It has been too long. Thank you, that means alot to me. You could never piss me off, even if you are being optimistic. LOL. I actually forced my self to start some laundry and make my bed, but those damn dishes are going to have to wait. I have been thinking about writing kiss my ass in the dust covering my TV screen. I think that might make me feel better. Probably not, I would have to clean it up eventualy. Thanks for dropping by, I always like seeing your profile pic, it always makes me smile.

      Misha, I know, I should just cut out the news, it's hard though. I will try to hang out here more, it's way better than the news.

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      Pam Roberson 8 years ago from Virginia

      Gwendy, your hub speaks to me. :) Everything from waiting for the damned coffee pot to do its job to letting the dogs out and then seeing things on my desk or around the house waiting for me to do whatever I need to do and simply saying...I DON'T CARE! I'm in a full blown rebellion some days.

      Good one {{{Gwendy}}}

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      gwendymom 8 years ago from Oklahoma

      Thanks Pam. I am in a rebellion. But I will give in eventaully, I always do.

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      marisuewrites 8 years ago from USA

      Sometimes we have to look the other way....or no way.  Inward, family, here, the now.  In our county, people are living in tents in the park.  No one talks about it, it doesn't make CNN, but it's happening.  What does many of our elected officials say?  Let 'em fail.  Of course they say that, they get their paychecks every month.  Most of them appear on TV overweight, gassy, full of hot air and no solutions. 

      I can't stand to listen to them. 

      I don't even care whose fault all of this is...we can argue about that later,  now, we need action.  Somehow, it's ok to give money overseas, to Mexico, to Wall Street, just not to the average American on the ground. 

      We'll make it, we'll make it by helping each other.  While the government argues about Afghanistan, the Middle East, Mexico's drug war (much too close for comfort) we'll figure out how to get by.  We have to.

      I'm with you on the stress, but we've got to figure out a way to manage it.  Stick to basics...ya know?  I'm pullin' my hair out everyday, trying to find something to smile about.  I know there's something, somewhere.   Oh yes,  my dog.  He's a doll....he just wants to get in the car, get a snack, get a hug, lick my face.  My sons, just want a hug and a job.  I want Oklahoma and all of the above.

      =))  hang in there, plow straight ahead, kid. 

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      Peter 8 years ago from Australia

      er..............gday gwendymom, did I catch you on a bad day then , well f..k that I'm gonna at least try and cheer you up, heres a good read for you:

      https://hubpages.com/literature/how--to-pick-a-wed

      After you have read that here is a big Hubhug (HUG) ;-[)

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      gwendymom 8 years ago from Oklahoma

      Marisue, we should all be like our dogs, be happy with the basics in life. Sometimes it's harder than others to feel that way. Tomorrow will be better I'm sure. Sometimes you just gotta let some anger go, today was my day. I'm going to try and aboid the news tomorrow,maybe that will help.

      Ag, I love you!

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      goldentoad 8 years ago from Free and running....

      GM- I got recession rage and I'm tired.

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      earnestshub 8 years ago from Melbourne Australia

      gwendymom, I have not watched TV for months now. As you have said, the news offers no solutions to world economics, just sound bites. Hubpages is a far cheerier spot for me to hang out, and I have taken to watching only comedy on DVD's lately to chase away the economic blues.

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      Robert Winfrey 8 years ago from NC,USA

      Don't let the world get you down gwendymom, You look like a very good looking mom and everyone around you should be proud to have you!

      I read alot of your hubs but don't always post. I like your descriptive writing style. You are coming along nicely and expanding well.

      We live in a parallel universe. I raised four kids and my youngest is in college. I posted on your mayberry story as I live in a small town and we are losing all the things that brought me here.

      I recently moved further away from town and watch the goats and chickens in my yard. LOL

      Bob

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      gwendymom 8 years ago from Oklahoma

      GT, I'm sorry. Get to bed.

      Earnesthubs, Thats a good idea. I like all my hubber buddies better than the news. I shoudl just stick to hubbing.

      Shipssuperstore, I'm not ships, I was having a bad day yesterday but it's all good today. Thank you, your sweet. I'm trying, There is so much to learn here and so many gifted writers. Even if I don't learn a thing I'm still having fun. I love my small town, those turkeys drive me crazy though, they are always crapping on my sidewalk. I hope your Mayberry hangs in there. Maybe the small towns of the world will survive . Thanks for dropping by.

      Gwen

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      Cindy Lawson 8 years ago from Guernsey (Channel Islands)

      Very good work Gwendy, I missed your style. Keep smiling, things will surely get better in the end, and you can always escape to hubpages :)

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      gwendymom 8 years ago from Oklahoma

      Thanks Cindy, your too dang sweet. I know things will get better. I will escape here, just don't want to bring other people down.

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      issues veritas 7 years ago

      I like the title

      I hate the news

      I like comedy

      I don't like any CSI or Reality

      30 seconds of the news in the morning can ruin the rest of your day.

      It has been 5 weeks since you wrote the hub and lessons learned during that time for you?

       

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      gwendymom 7 years ago from Oklahoma

      Thanks for the comment

      I hate the news too

      I like comedy too

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      prasetio30 7 years ago from malang-indonesia

      great hub , thanks for share

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      Calling Crow 7 years ago

      I know this was written a loooong time ago, but for a moment, minus the news watching part (I only do that in the evening) your's sounded just like one of my days, well, minus another part, but I won't mention it here.

      Very nicely written! I enjoyed how flowing and easy going the read was, which was a great contrast to the topic!

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