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Updated on April 2, 2014
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By Tony DeLorger © 2014

Dim steps, pallid smiles, mind twisted into senseless questioning,

the cell door closes in thunderous metallic closure,

and severed contact, lingers with a forceful shove,

alone, in darkness, tormented arms outstretched and threatening,

the mind shuts down, panic lost to surrender, letting go of breath.

The heart beats still, in compliance rather than want,

and in the soul, life cringes in abject terror, unenviable possibility,

lost in a maze of foreign cement boxes, sealed in and key forgotten,

life wanes from will, falling back into a vast cavernous abyss,

where prospects are rare, despair only resides with articulate erring.

On the floor, in the corner, she sits, the cold hard walls pushing back,

reminding her of her circumstance, her lost cause, her guilt,

regardless of truth that cold capture resides in fractured blue,

where no heart can hope, even dream for anything better,

instead, to languish in the pain of reality, hopeless, beaten and gone from herself.

Each day begins as it ends, in absolute hopelessness,

trials of staying alive just daily torture in this cockroach infested hell,

thoughts dare not emerge, for fear they will be trounced and therefore lost,

so a steady stream of numbness prevails, less invested the better,

and she walks on, holding her heart in her soiled hands.

One day that door will open, and light will fall freely on a face unaccustomed,

yet will that light be felt, after darkness has etched a scar so deep,

and a mind so driven to cower in shadow, can it be once again,

can it forget enough to find life and smile with conviction,

I hope dear God she can, for no soul deserves this fate, this totality of ruin.


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      Tony DeLorger 

      5 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks Jamie, we barely scratch the surface of such tales, and what people must endure in life. Enjoy your day.

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      Jamie Lee Hamann 

      5 years ago from Reno NV

      A sad tale, thank you for sharing the part of the story that the media never lets us into, the pain, the suffering, the sadness. Jamie

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      5 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks John. Yes I feel the same, although I do think she was innocent, the FP new of a smuggling opp the day she flew and passing through Brisbane. But all the evidence was considered non-admissible by the Indo gov. Sounds very suspicious to me. In any case, I don't think the poor thing will ever get over this. Hope you're well. Take care my friend.

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      John Hansen 

      5 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Wonderful poem Tony. I am glad someone has written something in support of this poor girl and the horror she went through. Whether or not she did what she was accused of (and there is doubt over that) she didn't deserve to spend years in an Indonesian prison. Her family didn't do her any good with all their publicity seeking either. Well written.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      5 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks NateB11, glad you connected with the piece. No-one would want this experience.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      5 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks Jan, it just gets me what she's been through and what she needs to get over this.

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      Nathan Bernardo 

      5 years ago from California, United States of America

      Very powerful and vivid. Really takes the reader there into the terror of this oppression and captivity.

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      Jan Absell 

      5 years ago

      You made me cry Tony.. X


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