Series of Goodbyes(1): Everywhere I Am
I miss you even though you don't miss me back..
I see a small ray of light hiding inside the bigger infinite light that can never lack
I wish you were here right now..
You're everywhere I am..
It's creeping me out how..
Magic and miracles may have existed ,but then you would have loved me truly.
But sadly that's not the story making me feel like a stoolie
I feel my senses fade..
My emotions numb are made..
Your all that I breathe
It's fear running wild inside that seethes..
But I keep diving in more and more
Even when the signs are clear banging on my door..
And i keep looking.. Waiting.. Wondering.. Will there ever be hope? But maybe that's why I was deceived, by your love for me, it seemed so real..
I always had hope, long after you left me feel
Like I'm a fool, with barely any pride left , my hands writing what seems to be a mess..
I just must confess.
Get this off my chest..
I thought I was the best..
In the world you showed me , the things we would manifest.
But unlike you, I let out what my teary eyes brought
Oh I cry a lot.
I laugh, oh I laugh in the most beautiful sound with the most glowing eyes that can be read,
The girl of your dreams is what you said.
Too bad you wont see that smile, all your concerned about is everything other than me , looking only at your own tie.
A beautiful magical amazing incredible lie,
you opened my eyes after they have been closed for so long, then you poked them back inside,
Yes it is ugly. Uglier than this picture. The hurt, the pain , the agony.
But this message, i will never share with you for it shall stay absently
From your beautiful eyes that always appeared as a fantasy
But unlike you, I can never hurt you or your beautiful smile.. The coolest smile I have ever seen..
Forever on your shoulder I wish I could lean
Your such a cool person I say as I sigh,
you had to lie.
I love you, this is my series of goodbyes.
Its hard to forget you, so stop looking at me with those eyes.
Yes, I'm obsessed with you.
No, I'm not a freak. I just picture you, because like the beginning of the story, you're everywhere I go.
Everywhere I am ..
So feel free to laugh at me..
While I choke on my own misery,
Embraced by your memory.
A love I have that's true.
A love I kept waiting and longing for you.