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So Twisted a Reality

Updated on April 25, 2014
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So Twisted a Reality

By Tony DeLorger © 2014


Why do I bare witness to the unfolding of life,

when my own recedes into the downward slope of iniquitous death,

where all righteous and Godly deeds are stricken,

meaningless in the cold dark ignoble seat of expiration.


Should I believe in heavens promise, perhaps I shall be revered,

but in probability ignored for all I am worth,

what I have accomplished simply a path in earthly life,

none too miraculous to be of note.


Why do I care so much, this indignation of a meaningful end,

when life is the struggle of meaning at all, a purpose sought,

to placate all those philosophies that demand substance of us,

that give credence to that which can in no way be proven real.


I hold on to so much hope in this physical life,

yet I bleed from it, my essence at odds with my perceptions,

and my heart clinging to maudlin ideals and fantasy hatched,

from all that religious wisdom beset upon me.


I fall from grace for all that I conspire,

yet I hold the reigns of heartfelt hope, the possibility I am wrong,

and what end awaits, justifies my judgements of morality,

and all that I have kept inside, rather than unveil my ravenous dark core.


Why do I create this struggle, is it my nature to be imbalanced,

or am I a masochist, a flagellation for my own twisted mind,

a dark desire to suffer the pangs of my humanity,

and in that find a place where a soul can be freed.


I wish I knew.



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    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Glad you relate to my thoughts MsDora, at least I'm not the only one!

      Thank you as always. Take care

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      Dora Weithers 

      4 years ago from The Caribbean

      Tony, like you I wish I knew. You express my thoughts--and I'm sure the thoughts of others--much better than we could. Thank you.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thank you Sujaya, I'm glad you enjoyed my work. I appreciate you dropping by and taking the time to comment.

    • sujaya venkatesh profile image

      sujaya venkatesh 

      4 years ago

      well thought tony

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      So glad you connected to my thoughts and outpouring Cherylann. I constantly pose questions in my poetry, and hope people relate in some way. This journey is filled with inequity and confusion on the outside, and sometimes all it takes is to ask the right questions to resolve inner conflict. I appreciate your kind words.

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      Cherylann Mollan 

      4 years ago from India

      There is so much of pain and torment in this poem, yet, it is sublime! I am a fan of the existentialists for this very reason. Sometimes, life seems so meaningless. We strive to find our calling, the reason for our existence, when all along we know our days on Earth are numbered! Very beautifully written. Voted up!

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