Soliloquy of Loss : The Bitter Tang of Regret
I stand alone on this barren beach,
Let the salty breeze embrace and twine
The sorrow sown of another’s deeds
Done in love, born of passions wrong
On my frail frame that sways unscathed
Of the blows that haven’t missed a mark.
There’s turmoil within, I feel it now
The sea’s fury, a balm for that youthful lark.
I remember an age when hope still lived,
I have a memory of happiness built
On sodden planes my heart freely bared
Before the eyes that brimmed of promises
Never meant to last, never to fulfill.
Yet a fantasy I wove, a fool to live
In an instant that stretched the realm of time,
In dreams that sang of future’s bliss.
Today I tire easily, feel weak to blink
To a world void of your eyes, a wind bereft of the scent
I cherished so long, I prayed would go on
Forever for my being to be normal
Alas, you moved away, legions apart
Where my feeble thoughts alone are permit
To be with you once again
To fabricate a life that was never to last.
I should have known it was all a ploy
A plan you planned for a sweeter goodbye
You embraced death in the shadow of rage
I willingly showered without a care
Thinking the worst, fierce for my heart
That had taken blows from all around.
I cry a sea of regret, I curse the blindness
That froze my heart for your certain farewell.
The sun has settled down, the waves rumbling
In synch to the lulling anguish I feel
Amidst bouts of anger, for never knowing
How you played my fears for wear
How you ensnared my senses so strong
I failed to see you disappear, I failed to grasp you
To keep with me, to fight till the end
To defeat the death that claimed you.
Maybe it’s all for good, maybe I’ll be cured
Of this pain that’s become a disease,
An addiction I can’t do without.
I crush the soaking sand beneath
With toes that aspire to cage
The remnants of the path we once trod.
Yet, they drain away, flowing back
To the abyss where I lost you too.