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Spurn

Updated on December 25, 2015
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Sent a request of friendship. Twice
Cancelled the plea for friendship. Twice
Saw him by chance. A few times
Made an effort to see him. Lots of times
Looked at him. Countless times
He looked back a few times,
strange look in his eyes

He knows me.
Knows I've spent time wondering about him
and wasted a few hours staring at his name on the screen
He knows it.
Knows I see him
in a way he doesn't see me

I know it.
There is no chance at this
as it has always been.
Yet I think I know him
from glimpses on a head of noodle strings
or eyes so deep they seem to bring
A new dimension of unknown things
Unknown and wondrous things

But I can only imagine
what he seeing me must feel
I can only imagine
as it has always been.

But, no, it's different and he knows me
He knows and despises me.
I knew when I looked at his eye
He's terrified
When he sees me
His eyes, they magnify
to a shock somewhat petrified

And I should be sad. I should worry
this ends impossible possibilities
Reality smashing daydreams.
Still my intestines scream
"At least he knows you now"

Attention is poetry
Even the bad ones are
Good ones

Spurn, according to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary is to reject with disdain or contempt.

Do you agree with the last stanza?

Would you want attention even if it's the bad kind?

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    • Jonas Rodrigo profile imageAUTHOR

      Jonas Rodrigo 

      3 years ago

      "Stalker poem" was a very amusing way to describe it, Missy! But as with other poems, it probably was just because of exaggeration and the different figures of speech used. Thanks for the visit!

    • Missy Smith profile image

      Missy Smith 

      3 years ago from Florida

      I think it was a really good poem, Jonas. I have a bit of mixed emotions about it, but that isn't a bad thing. I think it's good because it struck me as a difficult situation, one I wouldn't want to be in. It's left me with both a sense of empathy for you, and empathy for the other person as well. It felt like a stalker poem. You were explaining an obsession that has made the person you obsess about very scared and uncomfortable. That's not a good thing, but the poem itself was well-written and very descriptive. :)

    • Jonas Rodrigo profile imageAUTHOR

      Jonas Rodrigo 

      3 years ago

      That's a very positive outlook, Charito. Thank you!

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      Charito Maranan-Montecillo 

      3 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Very lyrical, kabayan! How well you put it! Yes, I know how it feels not to be loved by someone you're hopelessly in love with. I've been there.

      But in the end, we just have to accept it. Perhaps that person wasn't meant for us after all, so just leave it at that.

      Someone better is sure to come along!

    • Jonas Rodrigo profile imageAUTHOR

      Jonas Rodrigo 

      3 years ago

      You are too kind, Surabhi!

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      Surabhi Kaura 

      3 years ago

      Oh my! How come there is no applause! I love the beauty of this poem, Jonas. Thank you for sharing this.

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