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Suffocating...a poem

Updated on July 6, 2013
suffocate_3 from Simone D.
suffocate_3 from Simone D.
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Scorn-077-S Greg Schaal
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LOST SOUL from Roberto Mascellani


By Tony DeLorger © 2013

Drenched in loathing, aching mind,

self-deprecating for my human kind,

I wallow in my lifeless being,

while others thieve without me seeing.

And I all lost within my shell,

my curse has fashioned a living hell,

where belief has gone in breathless air,

and suffocating is all I dare.

But life emits an endless light,

so often dowsed by hurt and spite,

and I in doubt so many times fall,

in the wake of lies and humans small.

Only to find these thoughts aren't mine,

and for all my angst the pain refined,

the source at end lies within me,

and for those who oppress, it is I who agree.

So breath I must and resist that hurt,

and remain of love and in life rehearse,

to end those beliefs that give me doubt,

and hold fast what defines me, my soul's renown.

When darkness falls and in lowness speaks,

shall I resist and let my heart beseech,

to follow all I know and abide,

and in love and life somehow survive.

Life can be overwhelming, no-one ever said it would be easy, but when we listen to the negative beliefs of others we do ourselves an injustice. We are all worthwhile, have meaning and aspirations, and we shouldn't let anyone else take away our identity. We are all precious and individual and have infinite potential.


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      Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      I'll do my best AngelOfDecay. Thanks for dropping by.

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      Dragisa 4 years ago from Branicevo

      Great work. Hope to see more like this one.

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      Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks again for your support Firoz. Glad you continue to enjoy my work. Have a great day.

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      Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      We do indeed share some circumstance and interests. I've suffered both Dysthymia and cyclical clinical depression since the age of 18. It has had a profound affect on my life both bad and good, having given me reason to seek the truth, get to the bottom of living and to understand it. And the suffering doesn't hurt; I write my best work while in pain. A bit melodramatic, but true. My Dad was a jazz pianist and the Monk was often on the menu when he was alive- just love it . Wishing you a peaceful sleep in your coffin, and melodic dreams. Take care my friend from Ontario. 7.30 pm Adelaide time South Australia.

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      Firoz 4 years ago from India

      Great poetry Tony DeLorger. Voted up.

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      epigramman 4 years ago

      Well I suffocate everyday Tony of Sirdom because I suffer from depression and anxiety so I could relate to your sorrowful but profound words. You are more than a former poet from another year - you are a poet for all Hub-seasons. I am NOT a poe-it - I am a guy who gets lucky with words once in awhile. There are and were people here who REEK of poetic pretentiousness. I am not of their ilk, persuasion or brother/sisterhood for I stand outside of this Druid-hub circle like the outlaw that I am , lol.

      Just got home from work and returning to my coffin - you and I are much alike in our eclectic tastes in music and film - I love Fargo but someone labeled it a comedy and should be put in an insane asylum, lol, and Requiem for a Dream is like a sucker punch for which I have never fully recovered. No Led Zeppelin before 12noon though as I always listen to light classical music upon waking up but yes like you I listening to the yin and yang of music depending on mood which always swings like a pendulum in fast forward, lol.

      Sending to you my warmest wishes with some Steve Lacy on soprano sax saluting one of my musical heroes - Thelonious Monk - and I admire you very much Tony and it's always so nice to spend some time with you ..........lake erie time ontario canada 5:45am and sending you good karma and good thoughts