THE MAKING OF A LOVE ZOMBIE - Motherhood vs. Career
A Day In My Life.....
IT HAS FINALLY HAPPENED!! I HAVE LOST MY BRAIN TODAY AND I AM NOW JUST EXISTING!!! I AM FINALLY A LOVE ZOMBIE!!! WHERE THE HECK IS MY "EMPTY MIND" MEDAL?!!!!! HMMMMMM?!!!
MOTHERHOOD!!!! Da da!!!...."Welcome to the rest of your life where no matter what you do or how successful you get you will be met with MANY interruptions every single hour of the day!! Well while they are little of course. Eventually the disruptions are "weekly" I have been told. ha OK, now that I got that out of the way, let me tell you how my day went today. READY?!!!
So I had a press deadline today for a new television show I'm producing, directing (some segments) and branding! My production assistant Tim who is nineteen, British and from Liverpool knew I was at my "wits end" when in the middle of everything, I had to run the kids around and still make my deadline! So, I pick up one child and then get her lunch and take her to piano lessons, make a call to a major network, grab a coffee and then go get her. Pick up other child and answer phone call from the LA Times and a special "potential guest" on a new network I'm launching. Take other child home and continue working while younger child decides to act like Beethoven on the piano next to my office while I'm rushing to get things done.
AND THEN......"Mom, look at this new YOYO trick! I made it up!" I try so hard not to ignore this event at a very important time of the day so I say "That is GREAT!" And then I go back to my work. The other child stomps off and says "You don't really care, do you?" "CARE I SAY?!!!!! SHALL I MAKE A LIST OF ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR YOU TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I CARE?!" Silence.
NOW.....BACK TO WORK!!! LOSING TIME.....DAY IS ALMOST OVER!!!!
Phone rings from Europe. It's that damn label again waiting for my new music. IT IS COMING!!!!! I WILL BE THERE IN JULY!!!! Even though it will be hell with the Olympics there!!!! I'm working on three songs right now and the album should be done by the time I get there............ARGGGHHHHHHH. "Mommy, you seem really stressed out. Do you think you will be less stressed next week?" "Why, sweetie? I ask patiently and gritting my teeth." "Well because I need you to help me more next week and you seem too busy." This is where my assistant chimes in. "Now, your mommy has decided to work at home today so she can be here for you, but we are really busy and I am sure things will be a bit more relaxed next week." I take a breath before I speak. "Bravo Tim!!!!! I could not have said it better! Thank you! Now can we please finish all of this by 7pm....I have to keep you later. "Will do, he says." And before I can say anything...I think of how much Tim likes the Beatles and usually plays them when it is a more relaxing time. Today there was no headspace for music of any kind!!! CALLING 911!!! SAVE THIS MOM FROM FAILING IN EVERY WAY IN HER CHILDREN'S EYES WHILE SHE IS JUST DOING HER JOB!!!!! Can I please have a hug?!!!
I Can Feel The Changes.....
So, as you can see my day was not an easy one. Infact my days are never really easy when I have to juggle a few different careers and also be a "hands on mom." I can feel it in the morning when my brain has a hard time connecting to my legs and when it takes me longer to stand up and move myself into "mom mode." The alarm goes off in the wee morning hours and I make my way to a cup of coffee that I never really finish or have time to enjoy before I embark on lunch making, breakfast making and last minute kids EVERYTHING! Oh yea....I forgot about me! I need to get dressed before I get to the car....
Let's just say that my little one's school starts at 7:35am.......so we have to be out of the house by 7:20am at the latest......we are all up at 6am every single morning. I still hear the owls in my backyard and it is still dark!!! Isn't it still nighttime?!!!! WHERE THE HELL AM I?!!!!!!! ha
Maybe if I'm lucky I will eat something!!!!!! OK, kidding aside.....being a mother and a woman with a career or a few careers like myself is not easy. BUT, I would never trade it for the world. I do these things because I can and I am the ultimate "multitasker." The point is that now I am older I am finally learning to give myself ME time. Believe me, this has been a challenge I tell you!
I think the hardest part about trying to be home for the kids and also be creative and get things done is all of the interruptions that put a hold on the "creative flow and deadlines" but when I get really stressed or mad I just try to take a deep breath. After all they will not be little forever. One day I will miss the interruptions I am sure.
Motherhood is grand. I am so very lucky and the best LOVE ZOMBIE in town!!!!! Breakfast in bed sounds really good to me right now. Maybe I will ask the kids to do it......Can't wait to see what they come up with!!!