THE STORM INSIDE
I can't sleep. I can't eat. The thoughts of how I used to be are fading away. I have been in a storm and I'm breaking free. Slowly but surely it stuck itself deep inside of me. It took my heart and turned it upside down. It made my love that was lost "free" so then it could be found. I cried so many nights and welled inside with tears. Tears of loss and the salt water that held so many fears. I can't go back and the storm knows it too. It took me by surprise and made the love true.
I was here many years ago but tried to calm the storm, but as time went by I knew that I was torn. For part of me wanted everything to stay the same. Sometimes change can make you feel insane. But I knew deep down in a very loving heart that I could no longer lie and feel like I did from the start. Everyone has a storm inside but some choose to hide it along with their pride. Well I choose to take the ride and when I feel the wind, I will be completely free inside.
I feel it now every single day. The sky is parting and making my way. I do believe that God has a plan and when he is done I will be holding his hand. All of the moments and all of the words and everything I say will always be heard. For the storm inside has given me peace and in a strange way a lot of relief. For I know love deep within my soul and with the storm inside I will never let it go. And even when things sometimes get in the way I will always know why and let my heart say. "Don't ever forget the brightest star. You were always a wonderful gift because of who you are." So I closed my eyes and imagined our kiss and I knew deep in my heart, life has never felt like this.