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THE STORM INSIDE

Updated on November 8, 2010

Is Free...

I can't sleep. I can't eat. The thoughts of how I used to be are fading away. I have been in a storm and I'm breaking free. Slowly but surely it stuck itself deep inside of me. It took my heart and turned it upside down. It made my love that was lost "free" so then it could be found. I cried so many nights and welled inside with tears. Tears of loss and the salt water that held so many fears. I can't go back and the storm knows it too. It took me by surprise and made the love true.

I was here many years ago but tried to calm the storm, but as time went by I knew that I was torn. For part of me wanted everything to stay the same. Sometimes change can make you feel insane. But I knew deep down in a very loving heart that I could no longer lie and feel like I did from the start. Everyone has a storm inside but some choose to hide it along with their pride. Well I choose to take the ride and when I feel the wind, I will be completely free inside.

I feel it now every single day. The sky is parting and making my way. I do believe that God has a plan and when he is done I will be holding his hand. All of the moments and all of the words and everything I say will always be heard. For the storm inside has given me peace and in a strange way a lot of relief. For I know love deep within my soul and with the storm inside I will never let it go. And even when things sometimes get in the way I will always know why and let my heart say. "Don't ever forget the brightest star. You were always a wonderful gift because of who you are." So I closed my eyes and imagined our kiss and I knew deep in my heart, life has never felt like this.

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    • GPAGE profile imageAUTHOR

      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      saket71...thank u for sharing your heart. thank u for being here. Best, GPAGE

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      saket71 

      7 years ago from Delhi, India

      So close to the heart and so unbridled in emotions, great work, will be coming back for more.

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      prasetio..Thank you so much for making me feel so good. Always nice to see you. It is people like you that inspire me to continue with my writing and my positive spirit! Lovely to see you always and God does have a plan for sure. So I believe anything positive will just bring us closer to a better life....G

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      prasetio30 

      7 years ago from malang-indonesia

      GPAGE, the biggest happiness today is I'm back to landing on your page. Sorry for late to read this hub. We can't deny that there are many storm in our life. But I believe this make you strong as a great mother and career woman. When you ask seriously to God, he will guide you in good way. Like you said before, God has a plan. As his creation, we just pray and do the best for our life. I hope you always healthy. God bless you. Take care!

      Warm regards,

      Prasetio

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      James...I have been weathering quite a storm for a while but my father always taught me "This Too Shall Pass" and I am starting to watch the clouds disappear. Thank you so much for leaving such a nice and caring comment. I hope you are well.....G

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      Dean..always lovely to see you here! Thank you so much for your beautiful and caring words. It means a lot to me......G

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      James J Mills 

      7 years ago from Northern California

      Dear G, I hope this was a piece of fiction, although I sense you did in fact weather this, and fiction always has a basis in fact. As usual you express yourself magnificently, in pain perhaps, but without pity, or anger... that takes a very strong (and loving) person. In particular I felt the poetry at the end.... Storms always blow through and leave us with a lesson, as well as clean air and calm. Best JM

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      cheaptrick 

      7 years ago from the bridge of sighs

      Hi'a G.Love the way you let these words just flow from your heart to the page.Always good to read your stuff!Keep your chin up and and your heart open.Voted up and beautiful.

      Dean

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      Quill..thank u so much for stopping in and making me feel so good. Lovely to see you. G

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      fetty...thank u so much for your beautiful words. It means so much to me. Best, G

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      stormbringer....bring it on lovey! I can't wait for the wind! ha G

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      timntim9...thank u for stopping by! GPAGE

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      GPAGE 

      7 years ago from California

      viryabo...always nice to see u! I have been so busy lately but I tried to write something so I could reach out to my good friends here...you always leave such beautiful and warm comments for me. I always love to see you here! Thank u for all the lovely thoughts......G

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      "Quill" 

      7 years ago

      Wonderful and filled with much healing and wisdom... a blessing to read. Thank you for sharing.

      Blessings and Hugs

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      fetty 

      7 years ago from South Jersey

      Beautifully written , touches on many points ; I'm so glad this storm is parting for you now. I especially liked the part about God's plan. He has one for each of us - it's good to never forget that, ever. God Bless.

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      Stormbringer 

      7 years ago

      "im rolling thunder, pouring rain

      I'm coming on like a hurricane

      My lightning is flashing across the sky...

      ...see the white light flashing as I split the night

      Lyrics from AC DCs Hells Bells.

      Your God as always.

      The Stormbringer on the Mountain

      No point running the storm is already here.

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      tlmntim9 

      7 years ago

      good read

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      viryabo 

      7 years ago

      Beautiful poetic piece G.

      Been waiting earnestly for a new hub from you, because reading your articles gives me such inspiration and reminds me of the beauty of life, albeit 'seemingly hidden' at times.

      'After the storm, the calming peace always sets in'.

      GodBless you.

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