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The Suns Lullaby

Updated on June 19, 2013

The sun stares down at me as I lie in the bottom of the boat. The cloudless sky around her is as blue as the reflection of my eyes that stare back at me in mirrors.

I look around, but all I can see is the insides of my little aluminum boat. I can hear the water gently lapping at its sides. I know that the shore is nearby-I can hear the small waves washing over the sand. I can hear the sound of people laughing and cheerfully talking.

If only I could rise, I might be able to draw their attention; they might see me.

I try to call out, but even now my voice betrays me. I can only lay here and watch the sun.

You never realize just how much you can feel the beating of your heart and the flowing of your life's blood through your veins, artery's, and every tiny capillary...until it stops!

There was pain at first; tremendous pain, but now there is only a void, a numbness, a complete relaxation.

I never comprehended what this moment would feel like. I never realized the amount of time that I would have to think, to contemplate, to see.

And now I wish that I could see more.

I look once again at the sun, and her face changes. I see instead the faces of my children, my family, my friends, and my beautiful wife.

Suddenly I see...memories, pictures that my mind provides; colors, shapes, past homes, possessions, flowers, rainbows, toys that I had long ago forgotten.

my concern now is not for myself, but for those I love; how they will hurt, how they will mourn.

Oh, how I wish that I could see them one more time.

To touch them...

Tell them I love them...

To say goodbye.

At least I have the sun with me now. I am not alone. Inside, I smile to her, touch her, and tell her I love her.

I know she understands.

Goodbye sun.

The gentle waves calm me. They rock me to sleep.

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    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you, Tim for the share

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      I'm going to have to post some more to keep up with you. You're a fast reader!

    • Becky Katz profile image

      Becky Katz 

      5 years ago from Hereford, AZ

      Beautifully written descriptive story.

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you. I appreciate all compliments from down under!

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      K.A.E Grove 

      5 years ago from Australia

      this was so very beautifully written, peaceful even.

      a wonderful tarpestry of thoughts and emotions that was weaved just perfectly

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you my friend. Hopefully we won't need to take that nap for many more years to come.

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      epigramman 

      5 years ago

      Gorgeous and it poetically rocked me to sleep as well - lullabies don't get much better than this - the picture in my mind is one of peace and tranquility and you certainly paint it here like an artist on your canvas - and it's a masterwork to be sure.

      Sending you warm wishes and good energy from lake erie time ontario canada 12:15pm

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you so much Joanne

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      Joanne M Olivieri 

      5 years ago

      Wow! this is truly peaceful and a work of art within words. Very well done.

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you for your support Lesley

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you again Gypsy.

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you Talia for your kind words.

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      Movie Master 

      5 years ago from United Kingdom

      Hello Wayne, beautiful piece of work - voted up and beautiful.

      Best wishes Lesley

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      5 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Voted up and beautiful. A wonderful poem with great imagery. It really sang a lullaby to me. Passing this on.

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      Talia Harper 

      5 years ago from North Dakota

      What an elegant narrative of the thoughts and feelings one may experience upon passing from this world. Beautifully and heart-wrenchingly written, I am in awe of this piece of work. Thank you for sharing.

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thanks xstatic. Kunitz is vaguely familiar but not the poem. I will certainly check that one out.

    • wayne barrett profile imageAUTHOR

      Wayne Barrett 

      5 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Thank you Beth. I didn't think about it when I posted it, but yes, it was fitting in more ways than one might imagine.

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      Jim Higgins 

      5 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

      Reminds me of a great poem by Stanley Kunitz, called The Long Boat, and yours is equally beautiful.

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      bizarrett81 

      5 years ago from Maine

      I LOVE this... so soothing yet sad...Fitting for the day, don't you think?

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