Take Me

I wrote this piece shortly after coming off my medication for depression and anxiety when life just felt distorted.

Please stop shouting

I can hear you clear

You are right inside my head

Holding me so near

After all this time

You still torment my soul

Does this curse ever end?

My childhood – you stole

You are the shattered glass

That takes comfort on my skin

I hear my flesh tearing

As you drive it in

I don’t feel the pain

My being is so numb

I place my hand on my wound

And twirl it with my thumb

A grin spreads across my face

Is that all that you got?

It takes more to break my spirit

Get out of my vacant lot

I am by myself now

I dropped my girl at school

You want me to what

With that power tool?

I gather all the pills

Pop them out one by one

Time to get this over with

My life here is done

I sit with my head in my hands

Tears rolling down my face

Time for you to move onto

Another empty space

I have a glass of water

Scoop up a handful of pills

Hold them to my mouth

Hoping that it kills

I glance upon my wall

My daughter stares back at me

Her innocence so pure

I get on bended knee

This could ruin her life

The pain would never let her go

I need to be here

To help her live and grow

I throw all the pills down the sink

And take a big breath in

Realising what I could have done

I begin to spin

I go into her room

Hug her pillow and cry

I have to learn to live with it

And learn to just get by