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The Agony of Separation. Saturday's Inspiration 21, to my Esteemed and Very Dear Friend, Audrey Hunt

Updated on November 21, 2019
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Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.

Wisdom from the Master

“Adversity makes you dynamic.
Adversity endows you
With faith in yourself.” - Sri Chinmoy

"Despair. We should not seek this. There is an extreme or intense pain that comes with it, but even in its deepest depth or abyss, the Beloved walks with us, or carries our burdens on His shoulders of mercy and Heart of compassion." - Manatita


The Agony of Separation

The past invades, my incomplete memories,

Written in a calligraphy of scarlet.

My current story, is like a manuscript of folklore,

Singing and dancing of Light and shadows.

I know I went to the sun once, but -

Like Icarus - I fell heavily into the azure.

I hear some call this Destiny, but all I know

Is the misery of separation – the agony within,

Sucking at the tear-drops of my soul … weeping.

The wine of Love has dyed my Heart with thorns,

Not roses, and I feel like a prickly shroud.

My Shyama, my absolutely peerless Queen,

You have used Your pinnacle of Mercy, to kiss me

Sweetly, with this tormenting affliction.

Awakening a ceaseless longing, we

Have blended together, like autumnal colours,

Into a sublime tapestry of beauty, that will never perish.

Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. 16th November, 2019

The gift of struggle


Paradise Regained

Love pushed me hard, unto the sturdy track,

No quarter given and no mercy asked.

I burned and burned, my sombre friend, the dark,

A cast of shadows in this cauldron masked.

I struggled thus for eons in my pain,

Grasping at ephemeral illusions.

My once pure Heart now caught within disdain,

Loneliness and fear my strong emotions.

She came again as Light, not in disguise,

Now wide awake, paid heed to Her advice.

My fettered chains removed; now no demise,

Truth now blends well, with cinnamon and spice.

Embraced me tight, my Queen within abide,

Did flood my soul, while joyfully I cried.

Manatita, The Lantern Carrier 16th Sept, 2019.


Wisdom From the Master

"Adversity is the shock that can lead to a deeper and more thoughtful attitude. If we see adversity as a necessary event for our own self-improvement half the fear of adversity is lost. We no longer see the difficult situation as our enemy but as part of our life." - Sri Chinmoy

Rumi's Poetry

The agony of isolation

Do you feel this sometimes, if so, and to what intensity

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  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    10 months ago from london

    Well, Audrey,

    What a surprise for me this morning! Sometimes I wonder if I'm hurting others more than I try to heal through soulful service. It is all about healing, of seeing the Light in the darkness.

    Last night I went to a mystical traditions poetry evening. We had poetry from the major traditions, including a sublime piece from St Theresa and a beautiful piece of music, the writer whose name I have forgotten. Could have been a John 'something.'

    I mention it, as we had the unusual theme of Sorrow and Joy. They are all worth reading, but I was familiar with the piece read from The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran. I hope that you have read this book. If not, I sincerely believe that you will love it to bits! The present Audrey will.

    You say, in general, such touching things on my Hubs. You could not have done this, if your own inner Light is not shining. Reflect on this. Much Love.

    Oh … so sorry to hear about your sister. Much fortitude required, I know. Our Lord is always merciful. be strong!

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    Audrey Hunt 

    10 months ago from Idyllwild Ca.

    Dear Manatita, my brother, my friend

    I am extremely touched by your loving heart and this beautiful tribute. My apologies for the delay in responding. My younger sister is going through the final stages of dementia requiring a little more attention than usual. I fear I may be losing her soon which may be a blessing for her.

    The outpouring of love, from you and my hub page friends, means everything to me and I thank you all.

    Yes, separation is hard...very hard; but this separation is but a short time and we can rejoice in the knowledge that a joyful reunion with our loved ones await us. How glorious!

    Meanwhile, we are stewards of love and "to love is to see the face of God."

    My heart is so full.

    Bless you, manatita, beautiful Lantern Carrier

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    12 months ago from london

    Hello, my Dear Shauna.

    Happy Thanksgiving! A joy to see you always. Sometimes I think of my 'old' favourites and you are definitely up there! Not old, lol. I believe I'm older than you!

    Anyway, I'm happy that you are delighted with these sublime offerings.

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    Shauna L Bowling 

    12 months ago from Central Florida

    Manatita, these are two comforting poems dedicated to one of the most beautiful people on HP. Even in pain, there is love. It's that love that helps us through the dark moments.

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    12 months ago from london

    So sorry to hear, my friend. Condolences.

    I agree that the poems can be intense. They are actually quite deep and soaked in Love.

    I speak of a Higher separation which is even more intense for the God-seeker, but yes, paradoxically, it is the same thing called Love that we humans consciously or unconsciously seek. Rejoice! For it won't always be unreachable. God speed!

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    Lynne Samuel 

    12 months ago from Malaysia

    Last week, 2 of our dear friends passed away, mere days of each other. I can feel the pain, much more for the family.

    Such intense poems, but comforting in a way.

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    12 months ago from london

    Yes I know my Sweet.

    I pray that Love is coming through, even though it may seem like shadows. Whenever I write for Audrey, I feel compelled to write something close to her. I trust she feels the beauty in what I am trying to do. Love.

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    Ruby Jean Richert 

    12 months ago from Southern Illinois

    I felt this deeply. Audrey and I have both lost our son's. Beautiful poetry to ponder.

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    12 months ago from london

    No. Peggy you are so right! We are very human and our children are the closest to us. No joke! Even a spiritual seeker is human and in need of solace or he/she won't seek.

    What can I say? I try to express these things in a way that shows God's Love. For any one who is receptive to the Light hidden here, then it's a bonus. Gratitude, Peggy. Are you taking a break from writing? Peace!

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    Peggy Woods 

    12 months ago from Houston, Texas

    What a beautiful tribute to Audrey Hunt. Losing loved ones is never easy!

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    12 months ago from london


    You have covered it well, looking at all angles. Awesome! Thank you so much! Peace, on this cool, but pleasant evening.

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    12 months ago from london

    Ah, my Esteemed Friend, Chitrangada Ji. Thank you so much!!

    A fine sentiment indeed!

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    Chitrangada Sharan 

    12 months ago from New Delhi, India

    Beautifully expressed poem, and a heartfelt tribute to Audrey Hunt.

    I know her through her wonderful Hubs, since I joined HubPages. Most loving and compassionate person. Appreciate her for moving ahead in life, even after her irreparable personal loss, so difficult for a mother.

    Your poems, words of wisdom, pictures and videos are all wonderfully put together in this hub.

    Thanks for sharing.

  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    12 months ago from london


    Still damp, eh? So sorry Bro. A bit better here in London. Keep warm and well. Thank you for the sentiment. Peace.

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    Bill Holland 

    12 months ago from Olympia, WA

    A dear friend of mine writes about a dear friend of mine. How could it be any better on this damp Sunday morning. Blessings to you both, and love always.

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    12 months ago from london

    Yes, my Sweet Mary.

    Now that you are here, I suddenly feel your situation as well. Interestingly, the poems have to be seen in terms of separation from from Love ... from God but the title is deliberate, as it is different for each human.

    This poem is written with lots of Love ...compassion, for all of us really. In my poem No Guide to Grief, I make it clear that there is no set period and indeed we are all so different.

    In both poems the message of God's Love for us is very strong ... that He is in our suffering as well as our joys. So yes, my empathies and lots of Love and healing to you this pleasant Sunday. Gratitude.

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    Mary Norton 

    12 months ago from Ontario, Canada

    Separation is a part of life we have to live with, to embrace. Easier said than done.

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    Lorna Lamon 

    12 months ago

    I believe it is possible to ease the pain of loss and suffering with the healing balm of beautiful words spoken from the heart. "The Agony of Separation" is perfectly balanced with "Paradise Regained" and a sense of understanding in the words "Wisdom from the Master". Peaceful.

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    12 months ago from london

    Eric,Yes. It's a rich language. Linda's ideas are noteworthy.

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    Eric Dierker 

    12 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    I must read again as I do not quite get loss.

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    12 months ago from london

    Mrs L

    Who says you do not understand my poetry?

    Thank you being first with such a wonderful and inclusive comment. Praise be!

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    Linda Lum 

    12 months ago from Washington State, USA

    Audrey is a truly loving soul who, despite the most painful loss one can ever endure, continues to share love and hope and the beauty of life in all that she does. You have captured in your verses that incredible pain, and also the blessing of looking forward.


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