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The Grade

Updated on May 21, 2012

there were no "atta-girls" at hand
no high fives, nor marching bands
perfection was the only stand...
I never made the grade.

as the eldest in the flock
carefree days were not in stock,
nurturing, my culture shock...
as entry-level maid.

chores assigned, inspected by
gestapos with the eagle eye...
regardless of best effort's ply
I failed, yet, every grade.

our little flock, a band of five
mom a nurse, who worked to thrive.
dad, a lush with backhand drive,
dysfunctional brigade.

fear and anger did prevail
in this prison without bail
a life of chaos and travail
one secret grand charade.

I walked away from this sweet nest
having given all my best
dropped out before my final test,
to run and seek first aid.

I, though now a woman, old,
relinquish to the past its hold
striving for what seems fool's gold
to finally make the grade.

"Copyright 2011, All Rights Reserved."


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      No_Clue 6 years ago

      Thanks, again, Max, although, to be completely honest, I can't say I've made it or not, but we keep trying!

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      BeyondMax 6 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      Yes, to break the chains and walk away requires a lot of courage, to reach the goal and make the grade is the best reward anyone can wish for. Amazing heartfelt tale!

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      No_Clue 6 years ago

      jami, thank you! This was a cathartic write. I so appreciate your read and comment!

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      jami l. pereira 6 years ago

      WOW ! i voted this up and awesome , a sad and poignant piece , vividly written , you are truly an inspiration all by yourself ! thanks for the read!:)

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      docmo, your comment gave me a thrill...this is one of my favorite verses as well... and yes it was definitely a cathartic was a raw place but I have surely grown from it!!! Thanks for your most awesome comment and read!!!

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      Mohan Kumar 7 years ago from UK

      fear and anger did prevail

      in this prison without bail

      a life of chaos and travail

      one secret grand charade.

      Beautifully composed, I just love that stanza. In fact I love the whole piece.. I bet it was cathartic writing this piece. Retrospection and reflection always help - however raw the feeling is. You are so good at it!

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      Amy, this is all part of the healing process, these things...and I am just overjoyed with it all! Your read and thoughtful comments are thrilling! Thank you!

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      Amy Becherer 7 years ago from St. Louis, MO

      Such beauty in composition of words for so much pain. I commend your courageous spirit in victory over what, for some, would be defeating. Bravo, No_Clue! Brilliant inspiration.

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      Doug, to be honest, God has made symphonies out of the madness of my life! Thank you for your visit and great comment!

      Fossillady, thank you. I am, indeed, in the best place I have ever been, and my gratitude is boundless!

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      Kathi 7 years ago from Saugatuck Michigan

      Doug T said it so beautifully! Really felt this one deep down! It takes years to unravel the dysfunction! Such is life! Your in a good place!

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      Doug Turner Jr. 7 years ago

      Glad you are able to make symphonies out of the madness of life.

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      OOOHHH and I do love the marching bands!!! Thanks to you and hubs...oops...I mean hugs!!!

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      janbee 7 years ago doubt you have 'made the grade'...and I hear the marching bands a coming!Voted up and awesome! smiles ;)

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      Spirit Whisperer, thank you...yes, we are emergent...that's the goal, anyways!

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      Denise, thank you...I so appreciate your visit and comment!

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      Thank you, mckbirdbks...all's well that ends well in this one!

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      Xavier Nathan 7 years ago from Isle of Man

      Finally emerging like the butterfly from its dirty case. Beautiful message of hope steeped in love. Thank you

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      Denise Handlon 7 years ago from North Carolina

      Wow! Fully impressed here. So touching and completely candid. Bravo the poem and the walking away. Rated it awesome. Thanks for sharing.

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      mckbirdbks 7 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      You have spun a nice tale.

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      thank you, Hyphenbird (cool name)...I really appreciate your read and comment!

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      Brenda Barnes 7 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

      Sadly, many feel this way. I hope it is not literal for you!

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      Thank you, WillStarr, I appreciate the read and your comment!

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      WillStarr 7 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      Very well done. A grim story told with economy of words.

      Up and awesome.

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      No_Clue 7 years ago

      awww, justom, you made my day! Thank you!

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      justom 7 years ago from 41042

      I'd like to give you a "atta girl" and a high five. This is just awesome beyond words! Peace!! Tom


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