ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

The Only One Worth Caring For

Updated on March 28, 2020
Kyler J Falk profile image

Poetry is turning out to be a very cathartic medium, I should do this more often.

Set the Mood

Source

A disease spread around the world,

Watched the leaders as they twirled.

Reached up to stretch as my toes curled,

And I realized I just don’t care.


A body lies there after being slain,

Look at the ceiling bits of brain.

Does anyone care that they were sane?

And I realized I just don’t care.


Use your words to stab me swift,

And my mind will continue to drift.

Couldn’t be bothered to offer a lift,

And I realized I just don’t care.


Turn on the TV to hear more lies,

Drowning out lamenting cries.

So many bodies covered in flies,

And I realized I just don’t care.


You came to me with words so kind,

They tasted to me like fruitless rind.

Why is it you think me blind?

And I realized I just don’t care.


Slap a gold sticker on your chest,

Never let your fake smile rest.

That beautiful face I wished to caress,

And I realized I just don’t care.


Took a long deep look upon my son,

Over his enemies I shall always run.

He is my world and I’ll act as his gun,

And I realized for him is all I care.

My Son Is Everything

When I have the barrel to my head, or a knife pressed to my skin and all I can hear is the sound of my tears hitting the bottom of the bathtub, all I can see is my son. He keeps me moving, he keeps me strong, and in hiding all this from him I gain more strength to move on. The healing is happening, the barrel and blade stay far away when I remember why I'm living now, and I'll keep striving for him, and him only. The rest of you are nothing of value in comparison to him.

Honesty hurts me more than you, but I remain honest to a degree of fault.

Comments

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment
    • Farah N Huq profile image

      Farah N Huq 

      12 months ago from Dhaka, Bangladesh

      Absolutely! We all have our weaknesses. It's perfectly normal. I can tell you are going to be a winner in this one. :) keep writing and sharing.

    • Kyler J Falk profile imageAUTHOR

      Kyler J Falk 

      12 months ago from California

      Thank you, Farah, yes I strive to be strong in the face of everything. This does not mean I do not have my soft spots. In exploring the tender areas of my psyche, I resolve them and become even stronger. We all deserve to explore our weaknesses, regardless of what those weaknesses may be.

      Time will tell how well the healing process goes, as by my perception healing of the self is only the first step to real healing!

    • Farah N Huq profile image

      Farah N Huq 

      12 months ago from Dhaka, Bangladesh

      I see, but surprised to hear that though. You sound like an extremely strong person. So I guess the healing process is going good. Stay blessed!

    • Kyler J Falk profile imageAUTHOR

      Kyler J Falk 

      12 months ago from California

      BPD and PTSD were tormenting me, Farah, it is an ongoing healing process. Thank you for reading!

    • Farah N Huq profile image

      Farah N Huq 

      12 months ago from Dhaka, Bangladesh

      That's a lovely poem, Kyler. My world revolves around my son too. Not sure what was tormenting you, but I know this, nothing can soothe an aching soul better than the smile of a child.

      That's a very cute photo by the way. Lots of love for your son. Stay blessed.

    • Kyler J Falk profile imageAUTHOR

      Kyler J Falk 

      12 months ago from California

      Yes, Peggy, that is the family all together at the park. He loves putting on the glasses, because he knows he is cute in them, hahaha!

    • Peggy W profile image

      Peggy Woods 

      12 months ago from Houston, Texas

      Children can light up our lives and give our lives purpose. May your son help you heal and face each day with whatever took place in the past put far behind you. That is a sweet photo of mother, father, and child wearing sunglasses. I am assuming that it is you.

    • Kyler J Falk profile imageAUTHOR

      Kyler J Falk 

      12 months ago from California

      Thank you, Paula, and I agree that Shauna's words are wise. The only conundrum I come across with them is whether or not it is fair to place this kind of pressure on my son, to use his innocence and kindness as a way to carry on even if he is unaware I do so. If I were to embrace such a thought, I worry where it would take me in my writing and the consequences should he ever find it. I must weigh the value of projecting more of myself onto him, lest the negative follow with the positives.

      It is always nice to see you in the comments, Paula.

    • fpherj48 profile image

      Suzie 

      12 months ago from Carson City

      Kyler.....My dear friend, Shauna ("Sha") has given you the TRUTH, so eloquently & completely, it is all said & done.

      I can clearly see your all-consuming LOVE for Lucien, allows every hope & strength you'll ever need. This is the true essence & beauty of our children.

      I will only offer you compliance, sweet Kyler......from the very depths of my being, I freely confess, if not for my precious sons, I would not have, nor could I have, continued on. Only through them, is life complete.(Your profound Poetry is simply amazing)

      Sending all 3 of you, a warm embrace......….Paula

    • bravewarrior profile image

      Shauna L Bowling 

      12 months ago from Central Florida

      I know you take great care with regard to Lucien, Kyler. I'm worried about you. You've written several dark poems lately and I get it. It's a release for you. I'm just asking you to let Lucien's innocence permeate your being. I know you can do it. Let him help you be strong. Together, the two of you can create a strong circle that can't be penetrated by negativity.

      No man is an island, my friend.

    • Kyler J Falk profile imageAUTHOR

      Kyler J Falk 

      12 months ago from California

      That made me laugh, Shauna, thank you! I'm actually quite good at hiding it all from him, even others say so when they observe who I am and my entire demeanor in person. I've had many years of practice, being beaten and screamed at if I showed my true emotions, which make it easy to seem as if nothing is wrong. I can see in his eyes that all I offer him is fun and love, and when he is hurt I am the first person he runs to.

      Nothing of my problems will bleed onto nor into my son, only the strength and kindness I strive for each and every day. He'll be given the tools I had to forge myself, and I'll be there to show him how to use them.

    • bravewarrior profile image

      Shauna L Bowling 

      12 months ago from Central Florida

      Kyler, let Lucien's sweet face and bright smile be the fuel that sets you in motion each day. Let his love and energy empty your soul of dark thoughts. Kids sense when things aren't right with their parents. Draw from him. He's young and resilient, replenishing his being with positive energy each and every day. Let him give you a shotgun of positive air. Hold it in as if you're toking on some good weed. Then expel the darkness as you exhale.

    • Kyler J Falk profile imageAUTHOR

      Kyler J Falk 

      12 months ago from California

      Thank you, Mitara, for reading and offering your words. Our children truly do offer a whole new experience in life, a new strength we could not possess without them.

    • MitaraN profile image

      Mitara N 

      12 months ago from South Africa

      That's the pillar of our strength, our children. You take one look into their pure and innocent eyes and hearts, makes you believe all in what you are doing and striving toward is worth it for their benefit. That's your feelings and should be respected.

      Thank you for sharing Kyler

    working

    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, hubpages.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: https://maven.io/company/pages/privacy

    Show Details
    Necessary
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Features
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Marketing
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Statistics
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)
    ClickscoThis is a data management platform studying reader behavior (Privacy Policy)