The Sad Face of Conflict and War
Mistakes, A Free Verse Sonnet
You drift on my memories, like turbulent deeds,
Treading on my ego with piercing heels.
I feel squashed between remorse and infamy,
Trapped by my self-confessed assurance,
Self-esteem falling off my dignity, with ten feet dives.
I sit and ponder, lamenting my past mistakes,
Insecurity and unworthiness my solemn friends.
Gone is the air of self-importance, the arrogant smirk.
Instead I pray that potential obstacles be averted;
Dishonour and disgrace, remain the strangers I once knew.
Funny thing, this comedy of errors! This teacher in retrospect!
I was so self-sufficient, so assured of my capacity;
Now I’m left to deal with the pain in my heart,
My tears spewing in prayer to the sacred moon.
Manatita, The Lantern Carrier, 16th November, 2018
*Awakening The Inner Light*
Wisdom of Sri Chinmoy
"Man invents war. Man discovers peace.
He invents war from without.
He discovers peace from within.
War man throws. Peace man sows.
The smile of war is the flood of human blood.
The smile of peace is the love, below, above." -Sri Chinmoy
Introduction to the Second Poem
I have taken a poem I wrote 4 years ago and added some more, for Memorial/Armistice Day. I was asked to write it for a Council Programme. When I read the first half 4 years ago, I was called the Bard of Solace. The Emcee said it was an excellent poem, but felt no solace in it.
Soon after, I combined lantern with carrier, as I wanted a term that fitted the messages of my poetry. I was helped by an online friend. Good, bad or dark, I feel that my work all carry Light, illumine, awaken, inspire the Heart ... hence the name Lantern Carrier. Share your thoughts about this poem freely and openly.
The Sad Face of War
Albena peeped through the cracks
Of the demolished ruins around her.
It was the fifth day and she was still alive.
Grateful for the tiny speck of light
Still peeping through the clouds,
She lifted up her Soul and offered it to God.
Blankness … then hope, as she awoke
While moving through the ether.
As if from far away,
Distant voices were issuing orders;
The familiar sound of a siren could be heard.
Slowly her fingers brushed past the oxygen tubing
Which ran across her emaciated frame;
The lines that hurt her veins.
She was in intense pain.
She had not known food or water for many days!
Cold, distraught; tearful and broken by injustice,
She began to ‘Deva Vu’ of the destructive demons,
Falling from the sky.
“Why?” whispered the young girl questioningly.
No sound came, no answers.
Only a mad rush to get her help.
Before she went under,
One simple question pierced her innocent heart:
Where has Love gone?
Médecins Sans Frontiers,
Raced across the intense devastation,
To a ‘make shift’ hospital not so far away.
Everywhere was carnage …conflict.
They knew how to deal with the effects of battle,
But angry that callous souls, dining on greed,
Caviar and opulence, had no interest,
In addressing the roots of war.
Spreading their poisonous tentacles of power,
These faceless souls hid behind murky mirrors,
Dark heavy blotches on the very hearts necessary,
To pay obeisance to the laws of mercy and compassion.
Amidst all this, Albena cried out to the unknown,
One of many innocent children, going through
Extreme suffering, when those capable of
Saying something on their behalf,
Remained indifferent to their concerns.
War, the outer effects of a deep inner struggle,
That man from time immemorial, has laboured to surmount.
-Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. 11th November, 2018.
Awakening The Inner Light
Wisdom From Sri Chinmoy
"War forgets peace. Peace forgives war.
War is the death of the life human. Peace is the birth of the Life Divine.
Our vital passions want war.
Our psychic emotions desire peace.
War is clear futility in dire spear-stupidity.
Peace is flowing infinity in glowing eternity." -Sri Chinmoy
The necessity of war
Is war necessary and why do we need it?
© 2018 manatita44