The Scariest thing I ever did see. I still shake, just to think of it.
I think everyone should be afraid of where the light does not shine
Somethings are just plain scary
I almost could come to despair. An arrow through my heart. An arrow that I know was there but refused to accept and therefore kept it at abeyance. I dropped what I was doing. Let this song send me away: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qi4R2YXv_AE My little mind was not ready to accept and deal with this fact yet it had to be confronted and dealt with immediately.
I am telling you that I was one scared boy. I had an all consuming violent abhorrent beast knocking on my door but all my neighbor’s were afraid to face it.
And then I realized the hateful beast had all around hating it, the fear of facing it, created the same disease in my neighbors. By being a hateful beast he had caused others to be just like him, hateful
At some point we must decide
And yet I could not bear to hate. I was just plain scared out of my wits. I am not talking about something imaginary or fictional like a zombie. I am truly and honestly speaking of a metamorphous that was taking place all around me. I had a brutal choice to make, become like my neighbors and brutally attack the beast or gather my strength, muster all the courage, pray like the dickens and confront the hoary beast on my own terms. I decided not to succumb.
So I gathered my family around me and hugged them tight. We said our, I love you’s. We prayed together and sang my favorite song from Lilies of the Field.
Let the light shine
Hate can only harm us if we let it.
Then I breathed deep, I walked to the door. I opened it and smiled my best smile. I felt strong and right. Fear left me. And I first shook the hand of hate, then I embraced it, then I invited him in. He was the embodiment of all the Churches that teach hate of others. He was handing out flyers and telling those who opened the door that they were going to hell. He is still the scariest thing I have ever faced. Hate is found when we improperly judge our fellow man. But now I will attend his church and teach love.
Most importantly I learned a lot about the monster hate: Hate is what is the result of fear in the darkness. He is sad and lonely. He is misunderstood yet knows he is wrong. He is almost for sure more afraid of me than I am of him. We can search out hate, and love it out of existence.