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The Scariest thing I ever did see. I still shake, just to think of it.

Updated on February 20, 2013

I think everyone should be afraid of where the light does not shine

One time I fought a guy. I did not pick the fight. He hated me. He hated me because I was white and hung out with Navajo's Yes, he was Navajo
One time I fought a guy. I did not pick the fight. He hated me. He hated me because I was white and hung out with Navajo's Yes, he was Navajo | Source

Somethings are just plain scary

I almost could come to despair. An arrow through my heart. An arrow that I know was there but refused to accept and therefore kept it at abeyance. I dropped what I was doing. Let this song send me away: My little mind was not ready to accept and deal with this fact yet it had to be confronted and dealt with immediately.

I am telling you that I was one scared boy. I had an all consuming violent abhorrent beast knocking on my door but all my neighbor’s were afraid to face it.

And then I realized the hateful beast had all around hating it, the fear of facing it, created the same disease in my neighbors. By being a hateful beast he had caused others to be just like him, hateful

At some point we must decide

And yet I could not bear to hate. I was just plain scared out of my wits. I am not talking about something imaginary or fictional like a zombie. I am truly and honestly speaking of a metamorphous that was taking place all around me. I had a brutal choice to make, become like my neighbors and brutally attack the beast or gather my strength, muster all the courage, pray like the dickens and confront the hoary beast on my own terms. I decided not to succumb.

So I gathered my family around me and hugged them tight. We said our, I love you’s. We prayed together and sang my favorite song from Lilies of the Field.

Let the light shine

My son gave me this picture, it is understood that when I look at his light shines on me.
My son gave me this picture, it is understood that when I look at his light shines on me. | Source

Hate can only harm us if we let it.

Then I breathed deep, I walked to the door. I opened it and smiled my best smile. I felt strong and right. Fear left me. And I first shook the hand of hate, then I embraced it, then I invited him in. He was the embodiment of all the Churches that teach hate of others. He was handing out flyers and telling those who opened the door that they were going to hell. He is still the scariest thing I have ever faced. Hate is found when we improperly judge our fellow man. But now I will attend his church and teach love.

Most importantly I learned a lot about the monster hate: Hate is what is the result of fear in the darkness. He is sad and lonely. He is misunderstood yet knows he is wrong. He is almost for sure more afraid of me than I am of him. We can search out hate, and love it out of existence.


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    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I played a fun game with my youngest last night. He got really mad about the denial of sweets. So we went about the house armed with two big spoons, and tried to find where mad came from. As hard as we tried we could not find it. And he lost his in the process.

      Thanks for reading and commenting Ed. It means a great deal to me.

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      5 years ago

      What an awesome thought !...I wondered where this was going , what a perfect writing !......Ed

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Hugs back at you Rolly. Thanks for reading and commenting. I had not thought of it for a while but I think maybe I have gone awhile without hating, that is a good feeling.

    • Rolly A Chabot profile image

      Rolly A Chabot 

      5 years ago from Alberta Canada

      Hi again Ericdierker... you are so right... Hate is like a cancer that eats through people, their families and all those around them. Unless it is conquered with love it will continue to reek havoc and hold you captive and a prisoner.

      Love is the key and I choose to never go back there again...

      Hugs from Canada

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      Christopher Antony Meade 

      5 years ago from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom

      Great words from great thoughts. Thank you.


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