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The Truth in Lies: My Story and Philosophy (Prose & Poetry)

Updated on November 28, 2016
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There are Truths in Lies

Truth. It has many stories to tell. Some aren’t such great stories. Truth can break your heart. The truth that hurts can have you struggling to hang on to a little piece of your sanity at times. It uncovers lies that cannot be hidden anymore. It can destroy a person’s world. It can leave you with the awful feel of abandonment. The truth that I’ve known, more often than not, has ripped my soul out of my body more times than I care to share. I have been an empty vessel of a once full person more than I want to remember now; mostly about LOVE of course.

We always search for that sweet feeling of LOVE. It’s what we all desire. It’s what some come to find. Some people can obtain and hold onto it until the end. However, some of us seem to have the luck of a fly. I know more than a few of us have been stunned by the swat of love and the truth behind the lie of it.

Yes, truth should be good, but it can be very destroying sometimes. The old saying of THE TRUTH HURTS, is no joke. It can completely throw someone into a major downward spiral.


My Own Reality of Truth

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Truth Brings Wisdom; That's My Philosophy

Even so, there is a Brightside to the truth isn’t there? It’s hard to uncover, but it is always there. I have unfortunately had to find it often through life. It does get exhausting.

Recently, my life has proceeded to remind me that I have no luck at all, and I’m on my usual hunt for that sanity side of me that can bring the light into my darker days. Casting away the thought that I’m just not worth a good truth, but am gifted only with the bad part of truth that brings lies to the surface. It is with much sorrow, at times, that I have found the truth that is me. The one who has, thankfully, grasped an understanding of what life is really supposed to be about. I have seen enough hurt and disappointment in my own life to find glory in my simple one. I had no choice. Trying to strive for a life that would escalate on the scale of success, wealth, and love the way most of us want it, wasn’t meant to be for me. I finally found that it was acceptable not to be on the same road to those things as others. However, I must live with an ache that will taunt me to the end. The truth of knowing I may never find, or fit in with love. One that could and would accept me for me that is.

The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the TRUTH, the capacity for sacrifice. Ironically, their virtues make them vulnerable; they are often wounded, sometimes destroyed.

— Ernest Hemingway

I'm On Repeat: A Common Theme for Me

God, how many times have I written this truth? I do admit I get tired of the theme. I want it to be contentment now, and I’ll continue to pray I find a way to get that. I am finding peace for who I am, but I still struggle with wanting that oh so desired thing that most of us live for. I crave not the wealth or success of life. I will work toward those and be settled even if I do not achieve the reward. However, LOVE; well, that is something of a truth that I will fight to find until the end of my days I suppose.

Accepting the loss only when I am too old to wonder or want it. I will gather wisdom from the trials of this, as I have several times over already. However, it will be a hard road to continue to travel. It has been a tough road to walk alone and to realize that I may always be this way.

A Great Philosophy of Life; Do It Anyway!

Onward, Upward, and Keeping It Real...

This hub and poem were hard for me to write. It seems I do struggle sometimes when I want to put my point across to readers. I find my vision to do so hard to explain in words some days. This actually has taken me a few days to put out, and I'm not completely sure if I'm pleased with it still. However, like the song by Martina Mcbride, I always do it ANYWAY.

The hope I have is that some will get it. I am not so ego driven that I think everyone who comes across my writing will enjoy it, or even understand it. At the same time, I am inclined to BELIEVE in my own purpose of prose and poetry, that yes, does have a common theme a lot of times. If you have read some of my work here you know I delve into this subject of love lost and hardships quite often.

Even so, I constantly find my own different view of life's hardships, and those questions I come up with for myself. This, of course, was me finding the reality that TRUTH will unfailingly uncover LIES. Then, in turn, what happens is the lie is inevitably the truth of the situation. This is my total life story. Therefore, again, I write common themes with different takes on the subject, or with a unique perspective, if you will. It becomes my philosophy of my own life, and maybe someone's out there too.

So, there you have it; an explanation of this hub and poem. Again, I don't mind that some will not like it,or understand it, but I would like you to give it some deep thought. Thank You!

My Question After My Explanation is;

Do you understand my words? Do you get my purpose?

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Mary Campisi has written a volume of books that are true to the theme of my Hub. It's about living through lies that eventually uncover truths.

My Truth. My Curse.

I’m staring into my own life.

It's not what I wanted, but is

what I expected from knowing

my mistake of conception.


It’s the truth of a lonely child

fighting her demons; blank

staring at everything with no

comprehension.


Wake up to this world, I must

find a way, to be just like the

other little girls who play.


Oh yes, how I tried to fit here.

However, I was sin before

my first breath in.


A soul cursed without reason;

a life broken; a truth of lies

brewing up in the distance.


For a time, blessed with

beauty and charm, that made

me intertwine with many

gentleman’s arms.


Even so, sin of my unseen

difference, would interrupt

my contented existence.


For no particular purpose,

my life would halt, leaving

me hopeless, in pain, and

very distraught.


Love would leave without

any excuses; not a negative

wave nor details to the

exclusion.


The big lie I was cursed

with wouldn’t let me be.

Everywhere I went; I ended

up solitary.


And here in the present

now where I dwell, I still

search for a soul which

mirrors myself.


They have to be out there

to set me free; to bury the

lies the universe has cursed

upon me.

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      Waseem shazad 3 weeks ago

      Believe me its master piece

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      Missy Smith 10 months ago from Florida

      Thanks Gypsy! :)

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 10 months ago from Riga, Latvia

      Life requires that we speed ahead full sails toward the wind and count our blessings each and every day.

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      Missy Smith 10 months ago from Florida

      No problem, Shan. I know stress, believe me. I have experienced plenty of it lately. My children are not too young anymore. My son just turned 10, and my daughter 16. I hope by the time they are ready to leave home for their own life, I will be settled in mind and in security in order to enjoy the rest of mine. Hope you feel better soon. :)

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      shanmarie 10 months ago

      Thank you, Missy. For your kind comment to Bill (I agree with his comment, by the way) and also for your well wishes. I've been under a lot of stress lately and I guess my body is reacting even when I don't outwardly reacting. Either that, or I have some kind of stomach bug. But most of the insanity will stop soon, I think. I hope your children are feeling better. It stinks to be sick over holidays, especially when you're little. Well, I guess your kids aren't so little, are they? LOL

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      Missy Smith 10 months ago from Florida

      It has really been a blessing for me to have your support, Bill. I remember when I first started here on HP, I can't remember who suggested it, but they thought I would relate to your stories well, and they were right. I somehow came to know you and your stories, and I am a better person for that. I feel blessed to have found several here that I find solace in. You, John (Jodah), Venkat, Paula, MizB, Shanmarie; you all have been a great support along with some new-found friends. There have been a few friends I made at the beginning, for whatever reason, decided to stop following me. I was shocked at that. I think I wrote about it. However, I try not to get discouraged, because I know everyone will not get the person I am, or how I write here. So, I never hold grudges. I just try to keep going and stay true to myself. Thanks for sticking with me here. I do appreciate it so much! ~Missy

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      Bill Holland 10 months ago from Olympia, WA

      I can certainly understand your words and message, Missy. I may not share many of your experiences, but I share humanness with you. Pain is universal, and there is almost always pain in your words. Happiness, hope, and love are universal, and they are always in your words. What's to not understand? :)

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      Missy Smith 10 months ago from Florida

      I guess it's just the time of the year for illness unfortunately. I hope all gets well too.

      Jodah, I meant to thank you for taking time to listen to the songs I pick for my hubs, I really take time to pick just the right ones that may help the readers get a better understanding into my thought process. Everything David Gray sings I relate to on a deep level. I love him! :)

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      John Hansen 10 months ago from Queensland Australia

      Thank you for your concerns Missy, but I won't be leaving here :) I feel like I am part of the woodwork here. Love you too. I also have been ill with some flu this last week, having trouble sleeping at night due to coughing. Hopefully it will pass soon. Hope everyone else suffering illness gets well soon too.

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      shanmarie 10 months ago

      I can relate. My phone autocorrect the stupidest things! And I often have to use it to do anything online. I also get what you say about appreciating simplicity because of hardship. Sounds like my life. Thanks so much for your well wishes. A stomach bug or ulcers from stress or something. I don't know. But it's got to improve soon. I hope. I also hope your kids feel much better. I was sick on Thanksgiving once when I was a kid. That really stinks! Poor kid.

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      Missy Smith 10 months ago from Florida

      Gosh, how wonderful it was to wake up and find these reassuring and loving comments this morning.

      Shan, I'm honored you took the time to read and comment. I'm so sorry you are feeling unwell, and hope you recover soon. If where you live has a similar weather pattern like where I'm at, it can be hot one day and cold the next making someone sick easy. My son fought fever and stuffy nose for three days over the holiday week. I guess I'm assuming that's why you feel bad, so I'll just say I will pray for you to recover from whatever illness that has come upon you. Thank you again for your kind words.

      Venkat, you always honor and lift my spirits with your comments. It's easy to see when I write one of my common theme hubs that I may have went through another personal disappointment, and I believe you pick up on that and can relate to it enough to give me reassurance I may need at the moment. Thank you so much for that. I'm very glad I met you here on HP.

      Hey lambservant, I was really in a state of "awe" when I read your comment to me. You truly are a servant to our most high power. The ability you have to share love so freely without judgment is so inspiring. I've often tried to see myself as his soldier too. Oddly, I feel he made me the dark persona and lonely entity I am for purpose. I have to believe that if I hadn't been this way, I would have never been able to see the importance in simplicity. I think I would be in a bad place mentally if I would have had too much luck with wealth and love. You are special, and I love you too! Thank you!

      And Jodah, my friend, you have always been such a cheerleader for me here on HP. I do see that we think and feel the same way about a lot of things in life. You are one of my kindred spirit friends; I'm sure of that! I believe you shared what you shared here with me today, because you know that as well. I can't express just how upset it gets me when HP does something like what they are doing with your article now. It makes no sense, and I've noticed it's happened to a few of us lately. However, even though this has happened to a few of us, I feel I have really blossomed here and have met some wonderful people I can now call friends. So, I hope you feel this way as well and never leave here. I think it's safe to say you are one of the favorites to all of us here who write in the creative field. :) I'm going to follow lambservant's lead now and say I love you dearly my friend. Many blessings to you!

      I hope my comments back make sense. I find myself, again, writing them on my phone since I woke up and grabbed it first. Be patient with me, and I will make stops to each of your pages to return the favor. I have busy days with my children, but I will take one of those breaks I give myself and start reading. :) Take care everyone and know that I appreciate you all.

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      John Hansen 10 months ago from Queensland Australia

      Lori, yes so was I until I looked for other hubs about tea. I submitted the poem and some of the text to The Creative Exiles, so it may get published there.

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      Lori Colbo 10 months ago from Pacific Northwest

      I was wondering John, why it was taken down. Bummer.

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      John Hansen 10 months ago from Queensland Australia

      Yes, Missy sometimes there is truth in lies and vice versa. I touched on the subject in my hub "Promises and Lies." Yes, much of your writing has a common theme but I don't mind reading it because I know putting it out there is a therapy and release for you, and it all helps me know you better. they say there is a perfect person out there for everyone, but how often do those two perfect people never meet in their lifetimes?

      As always your poem is great and you always choose the perfect songs, so even if a reader doesn't enjoy the subject they can get something from those things.

      I just wrote a hub that I thought was a good one, lot's of research, poem, good photos etc..HP won't publish it because there is another hub with a lot of the same information (I checked it out..and they share a lot of historical facts.) I changed as much as I could and resubmitted but it was rejected again. I feel it is too good to delete but don't know what to do with it. It's a downer. Wish I had written it before the other hub with similar content. Why I shared that I don't know...just felt I needed to tell someone why I haven't published a new hub in a couple of weeks. Take care.

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      Lori Colbo 10 months ago from Pacific Northwest

      Missy, I understand some of your journey. I want to tell you tonight that I love you, I'm praying for you, and whatever tragedies, trials, and sufferings you've been through, you're value and worth to God and to many who love you (count me in) are beyond words. I have found a lot of suffering in life, trauma that shattered my life. What I've found is that even today I feel the pain, but what suffering has done for me has made me stronger and given me more perspective of who I am in the eyes of God. I've lost love, my innocence at a young age, etc, but God has never left me, He's never broken up with me, He's never violated me, He's never said "get your act together then come to me," He's only said he loved me (and you) from before the foundation of the world, He's given me promises He always keeps, He gave me salvation of my soul, adopted me as His daughter forever, and is preparing an eternal home for me. These things are important to me, and it makes it easier to navigate this life until the next one is ready for me.

      Dear Missy, you are a gem of great price. As I've read comments on your hubs I've seen that what you have to say about your pain, life, discoveries, purpose have touched many. The people who "get it," are the people who have suffered too, and your words can bring strength, hope, and purpose to others. Thanks for that.

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      Venkatachari M 10 months ago from Hyderabad, India

      Missy, I get emotionally touched always with your hubs. I can understand all your feelings very deeply and wish for good days to you. You are very fine in expressing your thoughts through prose and poetry and I appreciate that capability. I believe it is a kind of great relief for you.

      My blessings to you, my dear.

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      shanmarie 10 months ago

      Missy, I had no intention of reading hubs tonight because I don't feel well. But your title drew me in to this one. Your poem is especially well written. I can see in this piece why you like my Porcelain Dolls and Powder Kegs poem so much. And I love that Martina McBride song because the message is so powerful.