The Wrong Write
This will be my different Write,
there are no meaninful words in here
that were meant to cause hurt
or words to bring you cheer.
I only need... a few words
just so many, I won't have to count
as I feel the anxiety to write
the hurt inside.. constantly mounts.
Where is this place I come from
you could never understand
a place of loneliness and depression
a place of a strange dark land.
Somedays,... they are so happy
others I can't stand.
a different person... and a foreign place
a world of shifting colorless bands.
"Is there anybody in there ?
just nod if you hear me",
in my head... a song, I hear
Please give me words that pick me up
a few words that will.. alleviate my fear.
There is no pain, only heartache...
for a love.. that never arrives
a joke.. I always tell to myself
in order to survive.
When my God looks down upon me
I ask him .. why do this to me
i never hear an answer
so I go on unhappily.