Alice in Oz?
I feel like Alice in Oz....so confused.
I feel like im finding myself in the wrong fantasy.
In a world thats not supposed to exist...but not my own.
I know that its me carrying around these feelings
but i get so tired
that it feels like they are carrying me
people tell me I'm emotional
that i wear my heart on my sleeve
sleeveless shirts
might be a better choice for me
so many feelings
so little words
so hard to express
and be taken seriously
when so many feelings are rushing in and out of me
so often
i feel
so overwhelmed
by the possibility
that i am not more sensitive
but just stronger than most
to be able to handle all of the feelings
anger
lust
fear
longing
sad
hurt
criminal
natural
peaceful
resentful
caged
free inside
love
all of the time
all over me
i look at the ones who seem to feel nothing
but fine
when are you ever fine?
when are you ever not thinking?
my mind buzzes and my body rushes
so many things
i guess
that's just me
to take my own sensitivity
and press it so close to me
that i make it feel like a strength.
I love when people expect one thing out of me
and get something completely different.
they expect the witch
and get the scarecrow
and it seems to anger them
that i can be so unpredictable
but to me
that's just better writing.